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Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ashleigh Butterss
147 episodes
2 days ago
In a world full of social media promoting "perfect lives", many of us are afraid to show our true authentic selves. The good, the bad and the ugly. Behind the Smile with Ash Butterss is a podcast that aims to reveal the truth that lies behind the masks we wear. After making the decision to get sober in 2020, Ash set out on a mission, quitting her corporate job and diving deeply into the world of self-development and recovery. Her mission is to smash through the stereotype that surrounds mental health, trauma and addition, to help people live a fulfilled life connected to their purpose.
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In a world full of social media promoting "perfect lives", many of us are afraid to show our true authentic selves. The good, the bad and the ugly. Behind the Smile with Ash Butterss is a podcast that aims to reveal the truth that lies behind the masks we wear. After making the decision to get sober in 2020, Ash set out on a mission, quitting her corporate job and diving deeply into the world of self-development and recovery. Her mission is to smash through the stereotype that surrounds mental health, trauma and addition, to help people live a fulfilled life connected to their purpose.
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Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 147. Paralyzed at 21: Rhiannon Tracey on Hope and Defying the Impossible

One moment changed everything for Rhiannon Tracey, but it didn’t define her spirit. In this heartfelt conversation, the motivational speaker, TEDx presenter, and wellness advocate opens up about the accident that left her with a spinal cord injury and the extraordinary journey that followed.


Rhiannon shares how she transformed tragedy into purpose, from the early days of relearning life’s simplest tasks to founding a not-for-profit dedicated to helping others do the same. Along the way, she discovered the healing power of community, self-love, and joy in the smallest moments.


With honesty and warmth, she reflects on the boundaries she’s learned to set, the intuition she’s learned to trust, and the unconditional love of her pets that carried her through. Her story is a moving reminder that freedom doesn’t come from circumstance, it comes from choosing to live with hope, gratitude, and authenticity.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Resilience and Transformation

01:55 Daily Life and Joys of Rhiannon

05:11 Hiding Behind a Smile: A Photo Reflection

22:53 The Day That Changed Everything: Rhiannon's Accident

26:43 Resilience Through Adversity

29:52 Finding Hope in Trauma

37:30 The Role of Hope in Recovery

47:33 Creating a Community for Healing

50:12 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life


You can connect with Rhiannon using the links below:

  • Website: www.rhiannontracey.com.au

  • The Next Step Recovery & Wellness Centre: www.thenextstepsci.org.au

  • Instagram: @rhiannontraceymywheellife | @our_little_urban_homestead | @thenextstepscirecovery

  • Email: rhiannontraceymywheellife@gmail.com


Follow and connect with Ash on: 

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


Join Ash on retreat in Bali in  2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026. 

 

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!


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6 days ago
54 minutes 43 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 146. Haunted by the Badge: Jay Prothero’s Battle with PTSD and Redemption

After decades on the front line, retired police officer Jay Prothero found himself fighting a different kind of battle—the one inside his own mind. In this raw and powerful conversation, Jay opens up about the toll that years of trauma, high pressure, and suppressed emotion took on his mental health.


He shares how anxiety, depression, and PTSD slowly crept in, and how alcohol became his escape from the pain he didn’t know how to face. But Jay’s story goes far deeper than his time in uniform. It’s also about the heartbreak of watching his own child spiral into ice addiction, and the painful, messy road toward family healing.


Together, Ash and Jay unpack what it truly means to break the silence, to face yourself with honesty, and to rebuild a life grounded in authenticity, courage, and hope.


Episode chapters:

00:00 Introduction to Jay Prothero's Journey

04:14 The Power of Ice Baths and Breathwork

08:49 Hiding Behind a Smile: Jay's Struggles with Mental Health

17:35 The Impact of a Police Career on Mental Health

26:22 The Journey to Recovery: Jay's Path to Healing

35:13 Parenting Through Addiction: Jay's Experience with His Son

43:30 Living Authentically: Jay's Non-Negotiables for Happiness


You can connect with Jay through:

Instagram @freezeyourself_au @breathe_with_jay

 

Follow and connect with Ash on: 

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


Join Ash on retreat in Bali in  2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026. 


Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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1 week ago
55 minutes 41 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 145. Psychologist Dr. Julia Nicholls Opens Up About Her Personal Battle with Psychosis and Post-Natal Depression

Psychosis is one of the most misunderstood experiences in mental health, often clouded by fear, stigma, and silence. In this powerful episode, Ash sits down with clinical psychologist Dr. Julia Nicholls, who courageously shares her personal journey through postnatal depression and psychosis.


What makes Julia’s story so extraordinary is not just her vulnerability, but the fact that she’s a mental health professional who found herself on the other side of the system she once worked within. Together, Ash and Julia unpack the misconceptions surrounding psychosis, the shame that still shadows mental health struggles, and the raw reality of asking for help when you’re expected to have the answers.


Julia also opens up about the healing process of writing a memoir with her husband, revealing how storytelling and connection became powerful tools for recovery. This conversation is a reminder that even those who guide others through their darkest moments are not immune to them—and that speaking openly about our pain can be the very thing that sets us free.


Key Highlights:

  • The importance of taking time for self-care and rest.

  • Reflective practice is crucial for psychologists to maintain objectivity.

  • Hiding behind a smile is common among those struggling with mental health.

  • Early motherhood can be particularly challenging for mental health.

  • The inner critic can exacerbate feelings of inadequacy in new parents.

  • Mental health practitioners also need support and can face stigma.

  • Postnatal psychosis is often misunderstood and can manifest in various ways.

  • Electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) is a safe and effective treatment for severe depression.

  • Open communication is essential for healing in relationships affected by mental health issues.

  • Seeking help is vital, and there are many resources available.


Episode chapters:

[00:00] Introduction and Retreat Announcement

[03:15] Meet Dr. Julia Nicholls

[10:45] Understanding Postnatal Depression

[20:30] The Stigma of Mental Health in Professionals

[30:00] Exploring Psychosis and Misconceptions

[40:15] The Role of ECT in Recovery

[50:00] Healing and Open Communication

[60:00] Closing Thoughts and Resources


You can connect with Dr. Julia Nicholls using the links below:

LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/julia-nicholls-105679a3

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/drjulianicholls/

Website: https://drjulianicholls.com/


Follow and connect with Ash on: 

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


Join Ash on retreat in Bali in  2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026. 


Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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2 weeks ago
56 minutes 13 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 144. How 14 Minutes Can Change Your Life, with Mental Health Advocate, Cooper Chapman

In this episode, Ash sits down with former pro surfer turned mental health trailblazer, Cooper Chapman, for a raw and inspiring conversation about purpose, mindset, and creating real change from the inside out.

After years chasing trophies and external success, Cooper realised the waves he truly needed to ride were the ones within. What followed was a powerful shift, one that led him to build The Good Human Factory and dedicate his life to helping others nurture their mental wellbeing.

Cooper opens up about what he’s learned along the way, from the quiet power of small daily habits to the freedom that comes when we stop seeking validation outside ourselves. He shares the story behind the 1% Good Club, a global movement encouraging people to spend just 14 minutes a day on gratitude, mindfulness, and self-reflection, because big change always starts small.

Together, Ash and Cooper explore the importance of community, balance, and practical self-care routines that actually stick. Cooper’s message is simple yet profound: mental health isn’t a destination, it’s a daily practice of showing up with compassion, curiosity, and consistency.


Key highlights include:

  • Cooper's journey from pro surfer to mental health advocate.
  • The importance of small, consistent actions for mental health.
  • The 1% Good Club encourages daily mental health practices.
  • External validation can impact mental wellbeing.
  • Community support enhances accountability in mental health.
  • Mindfulness and gratitude are key practices for mental health.
  • Mental health is a continuous journey, not a destination.
  • Finding balance in life is essential for wellbeing.
  • Nature and connection to the earth are vital for mental health.
  • It's okay to take a break and prioritise self-care.

Episode chapters:

00:00 Introduction to the Retreat and Guest

00:45 Cooper Chapman's Journey and Book Launch

01:54 The Impact of External Validation

06:40 Navigating Long-Distance Relationships

11:27 Finding Balance in Life and Work

13:32 Hiding Behind a Smile: Cooper's Struggles

19:32 Shifting Mindsets and Mental Health Advocacy

26:27 The Birth of the Good Human Factory

33:55 The 1% Good Club: A Community for Mental Health

38:52 Daily Practices for Mental Wellbeing

51:41 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life


You can connect with Cooper using the links below:

Instagram - @cooperchapman + @thegoodhumanfactory

Website - thegoodhumanfactory.com

1% Good Club Book - Buy Here!


Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


Join Ash on retreat in Bali in 2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026.


Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!


If you need support with your mental health, please contact Lifeline on 13 11 14. Or if you'd prefer to text lifeline, you can reach a support team member on 0477 13 11 14.

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3 weeks ago
1 hour 5 minutes 3 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 143. Healing as a Mother: Rebuilding Trust After Addiction and Starting Over with Jo Kinna

In this heartfelt episode, Ash is joined by breathwork facilitator and sober mum, Jo Kinna, for a powerful conversation about rebuilding life after addiction. Jo opens up about the deeply personal journey of repairing her relationship with her children, navigating the pain of divorce, and discovering her true purpose in the middle of life’s most challenging season.


Through honesty and vulnerability, she shares how breathwork, meditation, and community became essential tools in her healing and how they continue to support her sobriety today. Jo’s story is one of resilience, showing that even after years of struggle, it’s possible to create meaningful connection, inner peace, and a life aligned with your true self.


This episode shines a light on the courage it takes to start over, the strength found in repairing broken bonds, and the hope that comes when you embrace mid-life as a new beginning.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to the Retreat and Podcast Themes

01:52 Jo's Journey: From Addiction to Recovery

06:27 Daily Practices: Meditation and Breathwork

11:03 Navigating Social Anxiety and Relationships

14:40 The Impact of Trauma on Addiction

18:29 The Cycle of Addiction: A Personal Story

23:00 Hitting Rock Bottom and Seeking Help

27:57 The Role of Community in Recovery

32:42 Life After Rehab: Challenges and Growth

37:25 Finding Purpose: Breathwork and Teaching

42:03 Future Aspirations and Continued Growth

46:32 Closing Thoughts and Non-Negotiables


Join Jo at her next event The Gift of Pause on November 12th at Merkabar Studio in Cheltenham - Event Details & Tickets Here! 


You can connect with Jo Kinna on Instagram here @beyondthewave__


Follow and connect with Ash on: 

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


Join Ash on retreat in Bali in  2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026. 
Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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1 month ago
1 hour 20 minutes 27 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 142. Why Outward Success Will Never Be Enough, with Nick Jonsson

In this episode, we’re joined by Nick Jonsson, a global keynote speaker and mental health advocate. Nick shares his inspiring journey from reaching the heights of corporate success to his journey of personal recovery, discussing the challenges of hitting rock bottom and getting sober, along with balancing travel, work, and family life. He opens up about his hidden struggles behind his smile, the isolation that comes with success, losing a close friend to suicide and the physical manifestations of stress. Nick emphasises the importance of surrendering to change, building connections, and sharing stories to combat loneliness. He also talks passionately about the role of fitness in his recovery. 


This episode offers a profound look at vulnerability, resilience, and the transformative power of connection in the pursuit of mental and emotional well-being.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Nick Jonsson's Journey

02:52 The Importance of Routine in Recovery

05:43 Behind the Smile: The Struggle with Executive Loneliness

08:25 The Downward Spiral: From Success to Isolation

11:31 The Roots of Anxious Overachievement

14:12 The Impact of Drinking Culture on Mental Health

16:57 Hitting Rock Bottom: The Psychosomatic Illness

19:55 The Turning Point: Finding Hope and Connection

23:44 The Power of Surrender

28:33 Building Connections in Recovery

30:24 Honoring Simon: A Catalyst for Change

35:35 Understanding Smiling Depression

39:09 The Journey of Self-Discovery

42:51 Encouraging Vulnerability in Men

46:37 Fitness as a Key to Recovery

49:03 Living Authentically: Non-Negotiables for Life


You can connect with Nick through:

  • LinkedIn: www.linkedin.com/in/nick-jonsson

  • YouTube: www.youtube.com/c/NickJonsson

  • Instagram: www.instagram.com/jonssonnick

  • Facebook: https://web.facebook.com/jonsson.nick


Follow and connect with Ash on: 

⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


Join Ash on retreat in Bali in  2026! All the details can be found at https://www.ashbutterss.com/bali-retreat-2026. 

 

Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!


#behindthesmilewithashbutterss #recoveryjourney #lonliness #mentalhealthmatters #depression #resilience #breakthestigma #vulnerability #mensmentalhealth #recoveryispossible

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1 month ago
52 minutes 31 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 141. I’ve Been in a Dark Place: A Raw Reflection with Ash Butterss

In this raw and unfiltered solo episode, Ash opens up about what really happened after returning from a powerful retreat in Bali. She shares the unexpected crash that followed, the darkness she found herself sitting in, and how she’s been navigating waves of depression with honesty and self-compassion.


Ash talks about the messy reality of healing, the role of the nervous system in moments of struggle, and the surprising strength that comes from leaning on community. She doesn’t sugarcoat the hard parts, but instead shows how vulnerability, connection, and small acts of self-care can carry us through even the heaviest seasons.


If you’ve ever felt like you “should” be further along or questioned why things feel so hard after big breakthroughs, this episode will remind you that you’re not alone, and that the path to healing is never a straight line.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to the Retreat and Podcast

01:38 Vulnerability and Personal Reflection

02:34 Post-Retreat Struggles and Burnout

05:24 Navigating Depression and Emotional Awareness

10:14 Finding Comfort in Nostalgia and Self-Care

14:22 Understanding Nervous System Regulation

17:47 The Importance of Emotional Processing

20:53 Self-Compassion and Authenticity

28:51 Insights from the Retreat Experience

33:20 Looking Ahead: Slowing Down and Self-Care


To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠


Follow and connect with Ash on: 

⁠Instagram⁠ 

⁠TikTok ⁠

Website⁠

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1 month ago
42 minutes 37 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 140. From Not Leaving the House to Living Fully: Justine Youl on Recovering from Addiction and Abuse

In this episode, Ash welcomes Justine Youl, who shares her remarkable journey of recovery and transformation after facing an abusive relationship, crippling addiction and debilitating mental health. At the peak of her alcoholism, Justine couldn’t even leave her house. Now, over three and a half years sober, Justine runs a thriving international business from her home in Bali, where she lives with her partner and three children. Justine describes the discipline of her morning routine, the importance of setting clear boundaries, and the life-changing effects of breathwork and meditation on her healing process.


Justine also bravely opens up about navigating grief, her spiritual journey, and how living with ADHD has shaped her perspective and daily life. Through her experiences, she embodies resilience and hope, demonstrating that it is possible to create a meaningful and joyful life after overcoming immense challenges.


This conversation is a powerful reminder of the strength found in self-discovery, the healing power of mindfulness, and the courage it takes to build a fulfilling life one day at a time.


Her story is one of resilience, hope, and the pursuit of a fulfilling life after overcoming significant obstacles.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Justine's Journey

02:54 Life in Bali: A New Beginning

05:41 Facing the Past: Sobriety and Family Dynamics

08:30 The Impact of Domestic Violence

11:30 The Descent into Addiction

14:24 Finding Recovery: The Path to Sobriety

17:10 Building a New Life: Parenting and Recovery

20:10 The Power of Morning Routines

22:54 Navigating Grief and Loss

25:54 Establishing Boundaries with Family

28:57 Spiritual Growth and Transformation

31:47 Breathwork and Meditation: Tools for Healing

34:35 The Role of ADHD in Daily Life

37:29 Cold Therapy and Its Benefits

40:19 The Journey of Faith: Baptism and Belief

43:03 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life


You can connect with Justine through:

Instagram: ⁠@jus_youl⁠

LinkedIn: ⁠Justine Youl⁠


To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website.


Follow and connect with Ash on: 

⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠ 

⁠⁠TikTok ⁠⁠

⁠Website⁠ ⁠

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1 month ago
57 minutes 29 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 139. Choosing Life Over Alcohol: Chris Gimpel’s Honest Journey

In this episode, Ash is joined by Chris Gimpel, a passionate advocate for sobriety and mental health, who shares his courageous journey of overcoming alcohol dependence. Chris speaks candidly about the realities of living with addiction, the pivotal moment that inspired him to seek help, and the ongoing work required to maintain his recovery.

The conversation explores the essential role of community, the practice of self-compassion, and the process of rewiring the brain to establish healthier patterns and habits. Chris reflects on the non-negotiables that anchor his daily life, including prioritising rest, spending quality time with his dog, and finding purpose in supporting others on their own paths to healing.


This episode is a testament to the power of authenticity and connection, offering hope, practical insight, and inspiration for anyone navigating the challenges of recovery and self-discovery.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Chris Gimple and His Journey

06:18 The Role of Pets in Recovery

09:15 Life Before Sobriety: A Day in the Life

15:57 Understanding Alcohol Dependence

22:49 The Recovery Process: Challenges and Realizations

25:32 The Turning Point: A Moment of Honesty

26:53 Recognizing the Need for Change

28:04 Seeking Help and Support

29:25 The Role of Family and Self-Worth

30:45 Finding Motivation for Recovery

33:25 Relearning Emotions and Thoughts

36:45 Creating Healthy Patterns

37:08 Navigating Challenges in Sobriety

42:04 Embracing the Unknown

46:26 Choosing Your Hard

48:39 Living Authentically and Non-Negotiables


To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠


Follow and connect with Ash on: 

⁠Instagram⁠ 

⁠TikTok ⁠

Website⁠ 


You can connect with Chris through his Instagram: @gimpse 

4-Week Sober Challenge with Danni Carr 

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2 months ago
55 minutes 22 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 138. Not Letting Trauma Define You, with your Self-Love Bestie, Sarah Viliamu

In this deeply inspiring episode, Ash sits down with Sarah Viliamu, founder of The Self Love Supply, to explore her extraordinary journey of resilience, healing, and empowerment. From experiencing childhood homelessness and family violence to navigating the heartbreak of recurrent miscarriages, Sarah opens up about the adversity that has shaped her and the tools that have helped her rise above it.  


With openness and wisdom, Sarah shares the practices that have supported her path to healing, highlighting the power of self-love, the importance of community, and the courage it takes to keep showing up when life feels unbearable. She reflects on how personal struggles can impact relationships and offers insight into the ways grief can also deepen connection and compassion.  


Sarah also gives a glimpse into the upcoming Empowered Her event, created to inspire women, foster meaningful connection, and remind us all of the strength that comes from standing together. This is an episode about finding light in the shadows, embracing vulnerability, and choosing resilience as a way forward.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction and Sensitive Topics Warning

00:51 Meet Sarah Villiamu: A Journey of Resilience

03:29 Life Changes: Pregnancy and Family Dynamics

05:12 Behind the Smile: The Reality of Miscarriage

08:33 Coping with Loss: Tools for Healing

10:40 The Complexity of Grief and Support

14:28 Navigating Relationships Through Grief

17:00 The Role of Friends in Times of Loss

18:06 Childhood Experiences: A Unique Upbringing

22:58 Impact of Family Violence on Relationships

25:03 Escaping Reality: Coping Mechanisms

26:24 The Journey to Modeling and Body Image

30:05 Self-Acceptance and Inner Healing

37:16 Creating Community: The Self Love Supply

39:43 Empowered Her Event: A Space for Women

43:14 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life


Follow and connect with Sarah below: 

Instagram @sarahviliamu

Instagram @theselflovesupply 

Tiktok @sarahviliamu


Find out more about The Empowered Her Event here.


Empowered Her 2025 Event Discount Code = Use the code BTS50 for $50 off the ticket price!


To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠


Follow and connect with Ash on: 

⁠Instagram⁠ 

⁠TikTok ⁠

Website⁠ 


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2 months ago
50 minutes 1 second

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 137. Numbing the Pain: Alcoholism and Sharp Edge Eye Syndrome with Ryan Bayly

In this episode, Ash is joined by Ryan Bayly, who courageously shares his story of 19 years of sobriety, the mental health battles he has faced, and the isolating experience of living with Sharp Edge Eye Syndrome, a condition doctors struggled to believe. For decades, Ryan hid behind a smile, staying quiet about his pain, carrying the weight of loneliness and misunderstanding.


Sobriety became the first step in Ryan’s journey back to himself, helping him rediscover who he truly was beneath the silence and struggle. It opened the door to living fully, embracing travel, and building a life that feels expansive and aligned. He reflects on the freedom that comes from connection, community, and allowing himself to be seen as he really is.


This conversation is a raw and inspiring reminder that even in the depths of silence and struggle, connection can bring light. It’s a testament to resilience, self-acceptance, and the hope that comes from walking the journey of recovery together.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Ryan's Journey

02:49 Daily Life and Sobriety

05:15 The Impact of Mental Health Work

07:57 The Struggles of Social Interactions

10:39 Childhood Experiences and Their Effects

13:06 The Development of Sharp Edge Eye Syndrome

15:48 Coping Mechanisms and Alcoholism

18:33 The Journey to Recovery

21:16 Finding Community and Understanding

23:47 The Importance of Breath and Mindfulness

26:13 The Power of Sharing and Connection

29:23 Non-Negotiables in Life

32:07 Conclusion and Final Thoughts


To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠


Follow and connect with Ash on: 

⁠Instagram⁠ 

⁠TikTok ⁠

Website⁠ 

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2 months ago
58 minutes 28 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 136. The Healing Technique That Changed Everything for Elle McBride

In this inspiring episode, Ash is joined by Elle McBride, a Certified Havening Techniques® Trainer, who opens up about her personal journey through trauma and the healing work that has transformed her life.


Elle shares how discovering Havening became a turning point, not only in her own recovery, but in her ability to help others release the emotional weight of their past. Together, Ash and Elle explore the lasting impact of childhood trauma on adult behavior, and the role of community, self-compassion, and resilience in creating lasting change.


This is a powerful conversation about the deep human need for connection, and the practical tools that can guide us toward emotional freedom and healing.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Elle McBride and Havening Techniques

03:49 Elle's Personal Journey and Transformation

08:33 Understanding Havening Techniques

11:49 The Impact of Havening on Clients

16:28 Elle's Childhood and Early Influences

20:51 Near-Death Experience and Its Significance

25:45 Finding Purpose and Meaning Through Challenges

27:20 Finding Peace Through Struggles

34:34 The Power of Community and Connection

36:06 Understanding Childhood Trauma

44:02 Healing and Building Resilience

47:40 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life


You can connect with Elle through social media and her links listed below:

 Web:⁠ www.ellelouisemcbride.com⁠

House of Delta:⁠ www.houseofdelta.com⁠

Email: contact@ellelouisemcbride.com

Program Login:⁠ https://havening.podia.com/⁠

Train with Elle:⁠ https://www.houseofdelta.com.au/haveningtraining⁠

Instagram:⁠ @ellelouisemcbride⁠

Facebook:⁠ Elle McBride Official⁠

YouTube:⁠ Elle Louise McBride⁠

Insight Timer:⁠ Elle Louise McBride⁠

TikTok:⁠ @ellelouisemcbride⁠

LinkedIn:⁠ Elle Louise McBride⁠


To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠


Follow and connect with Ash on: 

⁠Instagram⁠ 

⁠TikTok ⁠

Website⁠ 

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2 months ago
50 minutes 17 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ask Us Anything: Surprise Elopement & Honeymoon Edition!

In this heartfelt episode, Ash sits down with her now husband Damian, one week after returning from their surprise elopement and European honeymoon. You guys sent in the questions, and the couple didn’t hold back in answering them. From how they met, to making the decision to elope, what really went down on the wedding day and their favourite memories from the honeymoon, they discuss it all. The conversation also touches on the changes that come with marriage, their future goals, and the keys to maintaining a happy and healthy relationship.


The episode highlights are:

00:48 The Elopement Surprise: A Love Story Unveiled

02:31 How They Met: A Serendipitous Encounter

05:28 Navigating Relationships: Trust and Vulnerability

09:06 The Proposal: A Moment to Remember

10:39 Planning the Elopement: From Bali to Europe

16:24 The Wedding Day: A Dream Come True

21:45 The Honeymoon Adventures: Exploring Europe

27:05 Reflections on Marriage: What Has Changed?

32:22 Lessons Learned: The Importance of Routine

35:53 Courage and Change: Embracing New Beginnings

38:21 What They Love About Each Other: A Deep Connection

42:14 Future Goals: Traveling and Growing Together

44:39 Non-Negotiables for a Healthy Relationship

50:19 Closing Thoughts: Gratitude and Authenticity


To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website.


Follow and connect with Ash on:

⁠Instagram⁠

⁠TikTok ⁠

Website⁠

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3 months ago
58 minutes 13 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 134. Healing Out Loud: Carlo La Marchesina on Grief, Growth and the Gifts of Sobriety

In this episode, Ash welcomes back Carlo La Marchesina for an honest conversation about the realities of recovery and the power of emotional resilience. Carlo shares his personal journey, reflecting on the recent challenges he’s faced including grief, loss, and betrayal, and how these experiences have shaped his approach to life and healing.


Carlo opens up about the daily routines and non-negotiables that keep him grounded after 17 years of consistent sobriety, emphasising the vital role of both physical and mental health. He speaks to the transformative power of vulnerability and emotional expression, and how leaning into community has been essential to his ongoing recovery.


Carlo also discusses the importance of faith and spirituality as cornerstones of his journey, and the inspiration he draws from others walking similar paths. This episode is a testament to the strength found in connection, the courage to feel deeply, and the hope that comes from living authentically one day at a time.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Behind the Smile Podcast

02:38 Carlo's Journey in Recovery

05:14 Daily Life and Routine in Recovery

07:59 The Importance of Physical and Mental Health

10:52 Morning Rituals and Mindfulness Practices

13:27 Vulnerability and Emotional Expression in Recovery

16:22 The Role of Honesty in Long-Term Recovery

19:10 Navigating Grief and Loss

22:04 Challenges Faced in Recent Years

24:37 Finding Purpose in Helping Others

27:21 The Impact of Environment on Recovery

30:22 Coping with Betrayal and Trust Issues

33:06 The Role of Faith and Spirituality

36:12 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

38:49 The Importance of Community and Connection

41:36 Final Thoughts and Reflections on Recovery


You can connect with Carlo through Facebook or the Harmony House website.


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3 months ago
1 hour 18 minutes 3 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 133. Breathing Back To Life: Healing, Purpose, and the Power of Vulnerability with Bryce Maher

In this inspiring episode, Ash sits down with Bryce, founder of The Breath Code, to explore a journey marked by adversity, healing, and purpose. Bryce opens up about his early battles with addiction and the lingering shadows of childhood trauma, revealing how these experiences shaped his path and ignited a search for deeper meaning.


Through raw honesty and vulnerability, Bryce shares how breathwork became a lifeline, helping him reclaim his mental health and reconnect with himself. He discusses the power of sharing our stories, especially for men who are often taught to hide their struggles, and how vulnerability can be the first step toward true transformation.


Now dedicated to guiding others, Bryce explains how The Breath Code empowers individuals to break cycles of pain and find their own path to healing. This episode is a testament to the courage it takes to face our past, the strength found in community, and the profound impact of breathwork and self-discovery.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Behind the Smile Podcast

02:18 Bryce's Journey: From Pain to Purpose

05:19 The Struggles of Addiction and Mental Health

11:05 Childhood Trauma and Its Impact

18:22 The Turning Point: Rock Bottom and Recovery

23:55 Discovering Breathwork as a Healing Modality

31:38 The Power of Breathwork in Men's Mental Health

37:15 Ayahuasca Experience and Personal Growth

46:14 Navigating Life After Addiction

51:56 The Importance of Sharing Stories

57:23 Non-Negotiables for Authentic Living


You can connect with Bryce through The Breath Code and his personal instagram. 


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3 months ago
1 hour 2 minutes 55 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 132. The Raw Path to Wholeness: How Blythe Langford Transformed From the Inside Out

In this episode, Ash sits down with Blythe Langford, a holistic business mentor, trauma-informed healer, and the definition of resilience. From drowning in debt to building a salon empire, surviving cancer, and radically transforming her life through sobriety, raw veganism and fasting, Blythe’s journey is nothing short of extraordinary.


She shares the bold rituals and unconventional healing practices that have cracked her wide open, revealing a life of deeper purpose, clarity, and connection. With raw honesty, Blythe reflects on the beauty and burnout of the salon world, her ongoing dance with grief and growth, and her mission to reclaim the salon as a sacred space for transformation.


This conversation is a powerful mix of spirituality, strategy, and soul, touching on business as a healing vehicle, turning pain into purpose, and Blythe’s vision to create a retreat and recovery haven for those ready to truly rise.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Blythe Langford's Journey

02:00 Life on the Farm and Daily Rituals

05:54 Hiding Behind a Smile: Blythe's Past Struggles

09:50 Transformative Experiences: Cancer and Lifestyle Changes

13:59 The Power of Fasting and Raw Veganism

19:10 Urine Therapy: A Unique Healing Practice

25:01 Blythe's Hairdressing Journey and Business Acumen

35:48 Transformative Experiences in Business

42:03 Navigating Personal Trauma and Business Challenges

51:52 The Journey of Healing and Self-Discovery

56:53 Future Aspirations and Impactful Projects


You can connect with Blythe through her website or Instagram here.


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3 months ago
1 hour 10 minutes 44 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 131. The Ego Collapse: How Losing Millions Gifted Him a New Perspective, with Kyle Stagoll

In this episode, Ash is joined by Kyle Stagoll, a crypto trader whose world came crashing down overnight with the collapse of FTX, one of the largest cryptocurrency exchanges in history. What started as a story of rapid success turned into a sobering fall, as Kyle faced the unthinkable: losing everything he’d built.


Kyle speaks with raw honesty about the emotional aftermath of that loss, the depression, the isolation, and the shame that followed. He opens up about how childhood wounds shaped his drive for external success, and how hitting rock bottom forced him to confront the patterns of self-sabotage that had quietly followed him for years.


But Kyle’s story doesn’t end in the wreckage. Through deep self-reflection and a commitment to personal growth, he began the slow, steady climb back, this time with a different compass. He shares how mindset work, neuroplasticity, and a redefinition of success helped him rebuild a life grounded in purpose, presence, and freedom.


This is a powerful conversation about loss, resilience, and the healing that happens when we stop performing and start showing up as our true selves.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Behind the Smile

03:04 Kyle's Journey: From Success to Setback

05:58 Life After Loss: Coping with Depression

08:57 The Impact of FTX: A Financial Catastrophe

11:57 Navigating the Aftermath: Rebuilding Life

15:07 Reflections on Resilience and Growth

25:07 From Rock Bottom to Resilience

31:30 Childhood Influences and Family Dynamics

35:46 Overcoming Self-Sabotage in Trading

39:59 The Power of Mindset and Neuroplasticity

43:17 Redefining Success and Self-Worth

47:14 The Importance of Freedom and Giving Back

51:40 Lessons Learned from Financial Losses


You can connect with Kyle through Instagram, YouTube, Facebook and LinkedIn. 


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3 months ago
56 minutes 46 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 130. Burnout, Betrayal & Healing Through the Body, with Psychotherapist Rachel Pfeiffer

In this episode, Ash speaks with Rachel Pfeiffer, a psychotherapist and yoga teacher, who shares her journey of healing from trauma, the importance of self-care, and the intersection of psychotherapy and yoga. Rachel opens up about a traumatic time in her life when her identity was not only stolen but exploited, resulting in a landmark court case and subsequent sentencing.


She also shares her insights and experiences with burnout, the significance of relationships, and how she continues to show up authentically. The conversation explores the complexities of trauma, the healing process, and the role of movement and breath in supporting mental health.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Rachel Pfeiffer

02:27 Daily Life and Finding Fun

06:43 Hiding Behind a Smile: A Personal Story

14:58 The Impact of Trauma and Healing

25:59 The Journey to Becoming a Psychotherapist

30:54 Understanding Psychotherapy vs. Psychology

35:10 The Journey to Becoming a Yoga Teacher

39:30 Integrating Yoga and Psychotherapy

44:01 Navigating Relationships in Therapy

49:00 Embracing the Messiness of Life

57:02 Non-Negotiables for Authentic Living


You can connect with Rachel through her website or Instagram here. 


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4 months ago
1 hour 1 minute 34 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 129. The Son of a Bank Robber Who Chose a Different Path, with Peter Norris

In this episode, Ash is joined by author Peter Norris, a CEO, world-class athlete and the son of one of Australia’s most notorious bank robbers.


Peter’s early years were shaped by instability, violence, and addiction, but what unfolds in this conversation is not just a story of survival, it’s one of profound transformation.


Peter opens up about the pivotal moments that changed the trajectory of his life: the unlikely mentors who showed him kindness, the brave choices that led him away from generational trauma, and the deep belief that no matter where you come from, you can choose a different path.


Now a powerful leader and passionate advocate for vulnerable children, Peter shares how fostering has helped him heal parts of his own past, and how writing his memoir became a cathartic and courageous act of service.


This episode is a testament to the strength of the human spirit, the impact of compassion, and the radical power of choosing to break the cycle.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Peter's Journey

02:55 Life as a Criminal's Son

05:48 The Impact of Addiction

08:57 Childhood Memories and Trauma

12:11 The Search for Normalcy

14:56 The Role of Family Dynamics

17:59 Early Signs of Criminal Influence

21:06 Coping Mechanisms and Resilience

24:10 Reflections on Intuition and Trust

26:54 The Absence of a Mother

29:55 Life in State Care

33:08 Turning Adversity into Motivation

36:03 Navigating Early Life Challenges

39:15 Lessons in Leadership and Kindness

42:11 A Pivotal Decision at 13

46:56 The Impact of Family and Routine

51:17 Fueling the Fire for Success

52:50 The Journey of Fostering

54:56 The Power of Lived Experience

55:43 The Birth of a Book

01:00:35 Bravery and Authenticity in Life Choices


You can visit Pete’s website here.


Or purchase the book here.


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4 months ago
1 hour 11 minutes 57 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
Ep 128. Sobriety, Spirit & Showing Up Fully: Sheridan Rose Shaw on Leading with Heart

In this heartfelt episode, Ash is joined by Sheridan Rose Shaw, an award-winning creative director celebrated for her work in the hairdressing industry. She shares her powerful journey of recovery, identity, and self-acceptance.


Sheridan speaks openly about her path to sobriety, the transformative impact of breathwork, and the complex reality of parenting while navigating her own healing. 


Together, Ash and Sheridan explore what it means to live a life beyond just sobriety. They discuss how to navigate recovery while living a big full life, showing up authentically and the courage it takes to lead with vulnerability and purpose.


Sheridan also opens up about the struggles she faced getting clean in her early 20s, and the reason why she continues to put in the work today, never taking her recovery for granted. 


From honesty and spiritual growth, to creating meaningful experiences for others and embracing opportunities with an open heart. This is a raw and empowering conversation about resilience, passion, and the beauty of coming home to yourself.


The episode highlights are:

00:00 Introduction to Authenticity and Recovery

02:55 Sheridan's Journey in Hairdressing and Sobriety

06:00 The Role of Breathwork in Recovery

09:02 Parenting and Relationships in Recovery

11:58 Living Life Beyond Recovery

14:56 Judgment and Community in Recovery

17:57 The Photo: Hiding Behind a Smile

22:16 Navigating Personal Transformation

23:30 The Challenge of Authenticity

24:47 Faking It in Client Services

25:50 Compartmentalizing Emotions

27:18 Reflections on Past Struggles

30:32 The Journey of Recovery

32:51 Understanding Rock Bottom

35:13 Embracing Sensitivity as Strength

36:26 Leadership and Team Dynamics

39:03 Creating Meaningful Client Experiences

40:34 The Power of Passion and Purpose

42:34 The Role of Substance in Pain Management

44:50 The Drive for Continuous Growth

50:19 The Power of Unconditional Love

52:11 Facing Fears and Embracing Change

54:42 The Journey of Self-Discovery and Hard Work

56:15 Learning from Failure and Resilience

01:01:09 Navigating Relationships in Recovery

01:07:20 Spiritual Growth and Connection

01:17:35 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life

You can connect with Sheridan through her Instagram or her Salon Mamawest. 

To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website ⁠https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources⁠

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4 months ago
1 hour 20 minutes 19 seconds

Behind The Smile with Ash Butterss
In a world full of social media promoting "perfect lives", many of us are afraid to show our true authentic selves. The good, the bad and the ugly. Behind the Smile with Ash Butterss is a podcast that aims to reveal the truth that lies behind the masks we wear. After making the decision to get sober in 2020, Ash set out on a mission, quitting her corporate job and diving deeply into the world of self-development and recovery. Her mission is to smash through the stereotype that surrounds mental health, trauma and addition, to help people live a fulfilled life connected to their purpose.