In this raw and unfiltered solo episode, Ash opens up about what really happened after returning from a powerful retreat in Bali. She shares the unexpected crash that followed, the darkness she found herself sitting in, and how she’s been navigating waves of depression with honesty and self-compassion.
Ash talks about the messy reality of healing, the role of the nervous system in moments of struggle, and the surprising strength that comes from leaning on community. She doesn’t sugarcoat the hard parts, but instead shows how vulnerability, connection, and small acts of self-care can carry us through even the heaviest seasons.
If you’ve ever felt like you “should” be further along or questioned why things feel so hard after big breakthroughs, this episode will remind you that you’re not alone, and that the path to healing is never a straight line.
The episode highlights are:
00:00 Introduction to the Retreat and Podcast
01:38 Vulnerability and Personal Reflection
02:34 Post-Retreat Struggles and Burnout
05:24 Navigating Depression and Emotional Awareness
10:14 Finding Comfort in Nostalgia and Self-Care
14:22 Understanding Nervous System Regulation
17:47 The Importance of Emotional Processing
20:53 Self-Compassion and Authenticity
28:51 Insights from the Retreat Experience
33:20 Looking Ahead: Slowing Down and Self-Care
To access your free guided meditations, head to the Freebie Page on Ash’s website https://www.ashbutterss.com/free-resources
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