Following the blip I had last week, I was amazed by the positive and caring response I had from work, which gave me a much better viewpoint and helped me to recognise when i need support and also helped me realise that people have my back. I talk about what self care means to me and how i use these experiences to learn and to grow.

TW: today’a episode is very mental health-heavy - listener diacretion is advised. This week saw my anxiety peak and I knew I had to listen to what my body and mind were saying, rather than trying to muddle through. I’m ok, i’m healing and taking some time to breathe and recover from some highly stressful experiences and have been met with some very kind and supportive people which has helped. Always look after you ❤️

TW: mental health content - listener discretion is advised. This week marks two very difficult anniversaries of two very different losses and two very different responses to grief. I also wonder if this is the reason why I have struggled a bit this week or if I’m just very sensitive to how I respond to others. Please bear with me, recording this episode was a little more emotional than I first anticipated. UCM xxx

TW: Themes of mental health, depression, anxiety and past trauma (growing up with a parent with mental health problems) Listener discretion advised

Three months into my new job and I still feel ... a lot. Spending more time working alone also has some influence on how I feel; mainly second-guessing myself, wondering if I made the right decision.

Worrying about being "told off" Whats that about? I look more deeply into past childhood experiences and explore the role of the Empath - is is a psychosocial phenomena as well as a spiritual one?

And is there such thing as the "New Job Blues" and if so, why?

PS please excuse my TERRIBLE editing once again, being interrupted by my child and secondly for the UK weather warnings!

This week is Crohns and Colitis Awareness Week in the UK (I think!) and I share a brief story of my journey with IBD.

I am also aware of little "anxious espisodes" that have occurred and why my Irrational Brain has been pretty annoying at times!

I have also enlisted the help of a coach this week to make me more accountable for my overall health and hopefully set me in good stead ahead of my summer holiday.

As always LISTENER DISCRETION ADVISED - content contains themes of mental health, ulcerative colitis symptoms, anxiety episodes.

Listener discretion is advised: content includes mental health, anxiety, low self esteem and low self confidence. New job has had be feeling a little like an imposter, but why? Is it truly self doubt or is it just adjusting to the change and how i miss my old work family. Apologies in advance for continuity issues with the editing and my dog snoring in the background!

Listener discretion advised - this episode contains content relating to mental health, anxiety and self-esteem. So this week saw me move into my new role, which has obviously sparked an array of feelings and emotions. However, i have been pleasantly surprised! Not only by the reception i have so far received, but by how kind i have been to MYSELF for a change.

Tw: mental illness, trauma, So this week hasn’t exactly gone to plan, struck down with Covid once again and off sick gives you plenty of time to think (and overthink!) it also means that my last few shifts in my current job have been reduced which means the transition to starting my new role is going to be a little harder. Apologies for the poor editing - having to pause between sections for coughing fits!

TW: as with most of my content, I talk openly about mental health and mental illness; depression and anxiety and growing up with a mentally ill parent and its impact on me as an adult. Listener discretion advised. I also discuss how this applies in my professional life as well as my personal life and why i will always see myself as an Underdog and how i’m at peace with that. Lots of love UCM xxx

Listener discretion advised - themes of hospital admission and minor surgery

The day finally came and Snag was given its marching orders, after overstaying its welcome for TWO YEARS!

I talk about my surgery and the amazing team who looked after me

Still waiting to start my new job, but still very excited about it.

And finally some MORE lifestyle changes I need to address following my shocking weight gain and setting myself some goals to not only benefit me in the short term, but hopefully follow me through to a more sustainable healthy lifestyle!

Also looking forward to having my new tattoo - first one in over eight years!

Lots of love, always,

UCM xxx

So a quick update from the last episode and thankfully, no concerns and the brain fog has subsided!

Tonight's episode I give a full roundup of what's been happening health-wise

Also podcast-only exclusive on a new opportunity for me, that fills with me with a lot of excitement and a little bit of sadness too.

As always, thank you to my amazing listeners for your continued support <3

I’m baaaaack! Apologies for my lengthy absence from posting! Tonight’s episode I recap on my last esisodes and discuss the recent issues I’ve been having and what I think they could mean. HEADS UP content includes: mental health, reproductive health, menstruation and menopause. Listener discretion advised. Also expect some occasional swearing.

TW: contains content around mental health, poor self esteem and anxiety - listener discretion advised. Following on to my last episode, I’m doing ok. I started to see a new therapist, so seeing how that goes and building that rapport in such a short time. How my confidence still seems to be challenged and wondering how I can push through this rut I have become so stuck in.

TRIGGER WARNING: discusses issues on Mental Health, Anxiety, Stress, Depression, Grief, Loss, Suicide - Listener discretion advised.

Also contains some mildly explicit language

Life has this way sometimes of mounting up problems and situations which ultimately challenge your recovery.  I have had a bit of a barrage of challenges these past few weeks which have left me stressed out and feeling hyper-anxious over the smallest things.

Coupled with some "stuff" that I haven't felt able to deal with yet, has left me feeling vulnerable and has knocked my confidence to a real low.

I am okay, I am aware of it and looking into ways of managing it - thankfully I have been referred back to counselling through work, which should hopefully provide me with a bit of a reprieve, even if my sessions are limited - I am never one to turn down help, especially if it concerns my health.

I will keep you as updated as I can in the upcoming weeks, but I am doing ok and working through it as I always strive to.

Lots of Love

UCM 

XXX

Please forgive my absence once more from the airwaves of podcasting!

It's true what they say about things all happening at once, and in my case, the past couple of weeks have been no exception!

With drama galore, the past couple of weeks have certainly been a challenge on my health, wellbeing and at times .. sanity!

**TRIGGER WARNING** - as always, most of my content on my podcast discusses mental health - anxiety, depression etc.  Please note that this episode also discusses gynaecological issues - listener discretion advised.

Apologies - this is possibly one of my longest recorded episodes to date!

UCM

xxx

TW: body image, alcohol, depression, mental ill health, I pick apart how body image has impacted on my life and even how i continue to critique myself on my wedding photos. Why do i lack such confidence and why does it keep holding me back?

What a couple of weeks it has been! Me and Big G finally tied the knot and now I’m faced with this whole new feeling of deep contentment. Is this just a temporary rush of hormones or is this something that will stay?

The build up to the Big Day, my emotions, thoughts and feelings on how months have turned to days and how I’m feeling as the wedding fast approaches!

Tonight's episode, I share how I am currently feeling and how my routine feels different at the moment, with some changes to my job role and the upcoming wedding plans.

I talk about my current worries and how I know most are trivial and not worth worrying over - but I STILL worry about them nonetheless!

Listener discretion advised - The content of this episode contains themes of anxiety

As usual, expect a lot of waffle!  This is just how my brain works!

After a tough few weeks in work and with other factors going on in my personal life, I have found it very gruelling and testing on my emotional wellbeing. As always, listener discretion is advised as I do talk about mental health, anxiety, grief, loss, family issues, suicide and depressive illness.