Those not totally in the perfect white light on keeping the commandments and those not completely in the dark abyss. Those in the middle ground, light grey, grey, and dark gray.
This is for you!
You come home from the mission thinking the fire will last forever…
But then real life hits.
The Spirit feels distant. Your prayers go quiet.
Porn slips in. Shame creeps in. Doubt? Loneliness? Confusion? Sin. All of it.
This episode is for every RM who’s ever thought:
“What the H, E, double Hockey stick, is wrong with me?”
Spoiler: Nothing’s wrong. You’re just stepping into real faith and Testimony. The messy kind.
We talk about why your testimony might be shifting, what parts of the gospel may fade or evolve after the mission, and why God doesn’t want a perfect robot. He wants a warrior, a Moroni, David, Esther, Ruth etc.
Plus: An awesome Mike Tyson’s quote
You came home. You did everything right.
But why do you feel so lost, alone, or broken inside and maybe out. If you don’t then lucky for you, but you probably will later. This is normal and you’re not alone.
In this raw episode, I open up about the emotional crash that hit me two months after my mission—and the truth both men and women need to hear about identity, faith, sex, shame, and healing.
Whether you’re fresh off the field or still silently struggling years later, this one’s for you.
-What I wish I had done differently
-The dark spiral no one talks about
-Dating, intimacy, and post-mission pressure
-Rebuilding faith, confidence, and self-worth
You’re not alone. And you’re not broken.
You’re just rebuilding and this is where it starts. Here are my 5 tips I wish I would have done right after the mission.
I Thought Marriage Would Save Me… It Almost Destroyed Me Instead”
I went into marriage thinking it would fix everything.
My lust.
My loneliness.
My shame.
Instead, it cracked me open.
In this raw solo episode, I share the truth I never said out loud while I was married:
• How I gave up who I was to try and “keep” someone
• Why love without healing becomes silent resentment
• The exact questions I wish we asked before we said “I do”
Whether you’re dating, engaged, divorced, or in the thick of marriage—
This is for every return missionary who’s ever felt like forever came too fast.
💬 This one’s not for the perfect.
It’s for the ones still bleeding but still believing.
🎧 Hit play now.
And send it to the couple that needs it most.
You served your mission.
You gave everything.
So why do you still feel broken?
In this no-BS episode, I open up about my experience with masturbation, porn, and sex after the mission—and the shame spiral that almost destroyed me.
If you’ve ever thought:
“Why do I still mess up?”
• “Am I addicted… or just lonely?”
• “Is God still with me after all this?”
This episode is for you.
I break down:
✅ What sexual urges are actually trying to tell you
✅ Why suppression never works long term
✅ How to start forgiving yourself without giving up your values
This isn’t for the perfect RM.
It’s for the one still searching for peace.
🎧 Listen now.
You’re not alone.
And you’re not broken.
You finished your mission. The badge is off, but the questions are louder than ever.
Why am I home? What now? Where do I go from here?
In this episode, we talk about what no one tells you: how to go from mission mode to a meaningful life full of passion, freedom, and authentic purpose.
If you feel stuck, lost, or like you’re just surviving—this one’s for you.
We break down:
• Why identity feels fragile after the mission
• How to reawaken your gifts and explore your real interests
• Why purpose isn’t one destination, but a living direction
• Action steps to stop drifting and start building
You had a calling on the mission. Now it’s time to discover your calling at home.
Hit play. Your new chapter starts here.
Time to become the loving person you wish you had.
This is the love you’ve always wanted.
Calm. Confident. Safe. Real.
No more chasing. No more running. No more games.
This is what happens when you heal your attachment wounds—and finally become secure.
In the final part of this breakthrough series, we dive into:
- What secure attachment actually looks and feels like
- Why secure people attract healthier, long-lasting relationships
- How to become securely attached (even if you grew up anxious or avoidant)
- The daily habits, boundaries, and emotional tools of secure people
- What to look for in a securely attached partner
If you’re tired of the chaos and ready to build a love that lasts—this is your blueprint.
Because secure love isn’t boring.
It’s peaceful. It’s powerful. And it changes your life.
This is Part 3 of the series that’s helping thousands heal the way they love—and love themselves.
Listen now. Your healthy relationship starts here.
Ever feel smothered the moment things get too close?
If Love Scares You More Than Loneliness? You Might Be an Avoidant in relationships.
Like you want connection—but when it shows up, you pull away, shut down, or vanish?
You’re not cold.
You’re not broken.
You might be avoidant attached—and there’s a deep reason for that.
In this powerful episode, we expose:
- How avoidant attachment forms from childhood emotional neglect
- The 2 avoidant types: Dismissive (cool and distant) and Fearful (hot and cold)
- The silent heartbreak of being hyper-independent
- Why avoidants struggle to trust, commit, or open up emotionally
- How to heal without losing your freedom or identity
If you’ve ever said, “I don’t need anyone,” or been told, “You’re emotionally unavailable”—
this episode will hit home.
Because behind every wall is a heart that’s scared to be seen.
This is Part 2 of a raw 3-part series on Attachment Styles that’s flipping relationship patterns on their head.
No fluff. Just real truth—and real healing
Why do you chase love that hurts??
Mostly for ladies but many men who were overly mothered are this way too.
Like you’re always overthinking, chasing, or begging for reassurance?
You’re not needy—you’re anxious attached. And there’s a reason for that.
In this raw and eye-opening episode, we break down:
If you’ve ever felt like you’re too much, this episode will show you:
You were never too much.
You just learned to survive love the wrong way.
Start healing now.
This is Part 1 of a 3-part series on Attachment Styles that will change how you see yourself—and your relationships—forever.
Ever left a date wondering if it was a spark or just static?
In this episode of the RM Podcast, we delve into the subtle cues and glaring signs that differentiate a memorable date from a forgettable one.
From body language to conversation flow, discover the indicators that can help you assess your dating experiences more clearly.
Whether you’re new to the dating scene or a seasoned romantic, this episode offers insights to enhance your dating discernment.
Feeling lost after coming home from your mission? You’re not alone. In this powerful episode, we dive into how to rediscover your worth when the name tag comes off and real life begins.
Throughout all these episodes I’ll share personal stories, practical advice, a powerful quote from Elder Holland, and three journal prompts that can help you rebuild your identity with purpose, faith, and confidence.
Whether you’re struggling with guilt, uncertainty, or just figuring out your next step — this episode will remind you: your mission ended, but your purpose didn’t.
Listen now to get inspired, find peace, and start your next chapter with strength.
Rated PG-13/R no swearing though
In this raw and honest conversation, I break down my personal battle with porn, what finally helped me start letting go, and the hidden reasons most people keep falling back into it—even after a mission, even when you love God.
We’re talking real neuroscience, emotional triggers, why dopamine has you hooked, and what to do instead. I also open up about what’s working for me now, and how men and women are both affected more than you think.
Whether you’re 18 or 38, dating or married, this one is for you.
You’ll learn:
• The hidden link between stress, anxiety, and porn
• Why quitting isn’t about willpower—it’s about your nervous system
• How to replace porn with power
• A 30-day dopamine detox plan that actually works
• Why women are struggling with this too (and what that means for relationships)
Stats, stories, and steps forward—no shame, just truth.
Let’s walk this road together.
Dating after the mission is a whole new battlefield. You want connection—but not with someone who drains your energy, who just wants to hook up or make out, plays games, or doesn’t align with your values. In this episode, I reveal the 3 Levels of Questions every RM should use to screen for real emotional connection before investing time, energy, or your heart.
These aren’t just small talk tricks—they’re tools to protect your purpose, elevate your conversations, and attract the right kind of girl into your life.
In this episode, you’ll learn:
• The exact questions that reveal emotional maturity
• How to go deep without being weird or too intense
• When to walk away from a pretty face with no depth
• How to stop confusing chemistry for compatibility
If you’re tired of shallow convos, wasted effort, and girls who flake—this one’s for you.
It’s time to date smarter.
Masturbation talk! This episode is rated PG-13 almost rated R for men and women after their mission.
You served the Lord. You stayed worthy. But now the urges are back, and full force, and no one told you what to do after the mission. In this raw episode, we talk about what masturbation really means for returned missionaries. Is it sinful? Is it an addiction? Or is there more to the story? This one’s for the women and men who are battling in silence and ready to understand what’s going on in their body, mind, and spirit. Let’s have a dialogue about it and message me if you would like to.
Nobody prepares you for the aftershock of returning home. The mission is over, and now you’re facing temptations galore!
Should You Marry Right After the Mission? The Truth No One Tells You”
3 points for it
3 points against it
So you’re home from the mission—and suddenly, everyone’s asking when you’re getting married. Sound familiar?
In this raw and real episode, we break down the 3 biggest reasons why marrying quickly after a mission might be the best thing you ever do—and 3 powerful reasons why it could be the worst mistake of your life.
We talk about:
• Spiritual momentum vs. real-world readiness
• How cultural pressure can cloud personal revelation
• The difference between marrying from love vs. fear
• What guys AND girls need to hear before rushing to the altar
Whether you’re single, dating, or freshly RM’d and confused as hell, this episode is your wake-up call.
Let’s get brutally honest—because your future deserves more than pressure and assumptions
Why are so many good LDS men getting overlooked? Why are high-value women still single and frustrated?
In this unfiltered episode, we break down the 5 savage dating truths every return missionary man needs to hear—and every woman wishes they understood.
If you’re done with the dating games, ghosting, nice guys with no edge, and girls who say they want a priesthood holder but date bad boys—this is for you.
We’re talking:
• Why “being nice” isn’t masculine
• Why spiritual connection isn’t enough
• How men can lead with purpose AND power
• What women actually crave but rarely say out loud
• How both men and women can raise their standards without killing the vibe
Whether you’re dating, rebuilding, or wondering if love still exists in this chaotic world—this episode will wake you up, stir your soul, and help you see dating through a whole new lens.
Faith meets fire. Purpose meets polarity. This one’s built different.
Seduction isn’t about tricks—it’s about understanding attraction on a deeper level. In this episode, we reveal the top 3 ways to seduce men and women naturally, why men want women to stay the same while women want men to change, and how to create irresistible chemistry without games. Whether you’re single, dating, or looking to level up your romantic presence, this episode will change the way you see attraction forever.
🎧 Listen now to unlock your seduction potential!
Dating after a mission is WEIRD. 🚨
One day, you’re focused on baptisms and teaching discussions… the next, you’re supposed to flirt, date, and find an eternal companion?! No wonder so many RM’s struggle!
In this episode, we break down:
✅ The 5 biggest reasons RM’s are AWKWARD at dating (and why it’s not your fault)
✅ How to actually flirt and build attraction—without the awkwardness
✅ The ‘Mission Mentality’ that’s ruining your dating life (and what to do instead)
✅ A fun challenge to help you level up your dating game TODAY
🎯 Whether you’re fresh off the plane or still figuring things out years later, this episode is packed with real talk, practical tips, and a few hard truths you NEED to hear.
🔥 Don’t just listen—share this with an RM friend who’s struggling in the dating world!
Sex Before Marriage: Unfiltered LDS Truths & Real-Life Stories” Rated -R . Ladies listen up and guys too.
🚨 WARNING: This episode gets RAW and REAL. If you’re LDS (or even just curious) and you’ve ever asked yourself:
• “Should I wait for marriage?”
• “What if I wait and the sex is terrible?”
• “Does having sex before marriage ruin my future relationships?”
• “How do I talk about sexual desires and boundaries before marriage?”
Then this is the episode you need to hear.
As an RM (Returned Missionary), dating in the church comes with a ton of pressure. Temple marriage is the goal, but what about everything that leads up to it? Today, we’re diving deep into:
✅ Why the church pushes waiting—and what they don’t tell you
✅ The hidden struggles of sex in marriage (especially for those who waited)
✅ What happens if the sex is BAD after you get married
✅ LDS guilt, sexual repression, and how it affects relationships
✅ How to talk about sex, kinks, and intimacy before marriage (without breaking church standards)
✅ The truth about past partners, “second virginity,” and whether it really matters
💡 No fluff. No sugarcoating. Just the raw truth about dating, sex, and marriage in the LDS world.
👉 LISTEN NOW and
Returned missionaries often feel like they’ve already experienced the peak of their lives—but what if your mission was just the launchpad? In this episode, we break down the biggest mindset shift RMs need to truly start living, growing, and thriving after their service. Whether you’re feeling stuck, lost, or just unsure of what’s next, this conversation will give you the perspective and tools to make the most of the life ahead of you. Don’t let your best years be behind you—start building a future that excites you!
If you’ve ever felt like love is confusing, painful, or even unfair—this one’s for you.
Do you want a relation and connection or a partnership? OR do you want Love?
You’ve been told that love is about giving selflessly, but what if that’s only half the story? In this episode, we break down the biggest misconceptions about love— As a possibly recently returned missionary, you might be looking for ‘the one’ or questioning what true love actually looks like. This episode will challenge what you think you know and help you navigate love with wisdom, self-respect, and deeper understanding.
