Those not totally in the perfect white light on keeping the commandments and those not completely in the dark abyss. Those in the middle ground, light grey, grey, and dark gray.

This is for you!

You come home from the mission thinking the fire will last forever…

But then real life hits.

The Spirit feels distant. Your prayers go quiet.

Porn slips in. Shame creeps in. Doubt? Loneliness? Confusion? Sin. All of it.

This episode is for every RM who’s ever thought:

“What the H, E, double Hockey stick, is wrong with me?”

Spoiler: Nothing’s wrong. You’re just stepping into real faith and Testimony. The messy kind.

We talk about why your testimony might be shifting, what parts of the gospel may fade or evolve after the mission, and why God doesn’t want a perfect robot. He wants a warrior, a Moroni, David, Esther, Ruth etc.

Plus: An awesome Mike Tyson’s quote