The time has finally come for me to say goodbye to Mothering Anxiety. It has been an amazing 3 1/2 years, 167 episodes, thousands and thousands of plays. Take a listen as I share why I have finally decided to say goodbye and what to expect from “Mothering Anxiety” in the near future.

I feel that I’ve tried it all. Supplements, Exercise, Breathing Techniques, Therapy. And all though all of this has helped, it’s only helped temporarily. The truth is, my Anxiety came back because I was repressing instead of feeling. I was putting aside things I thought I was “over.” If you don’t fix what’s inside of your head, no amount of anything is going to be a permanent solution. This time around, I have been forced to deal with stuff I didn’t want to deal with, things I wasn’t ready for. But in the end, I am grateful because it has brought me closer to the One who has been with me through it all. Take a listen as I talk about my journey of no longer being able to repress my abandonment issues and finally being in a place where all is forgiven.

I wish there was a nicer way to say this but it is a reality check I have needed for myself. Many times, it has been me & ONLY ME, digging my own grave. Many times, I made myself a victim in Motherhood. Yes, motherhood is hard but thinking negatively, being angry, allowing my own triggers dictate my mom, I was making it harder on myself. Take a listen as I talk about how the victimhood of motherhood can make it harder especially for those of us who deal with Anxiety as we add on to the millions of battles we fight in our head every day.

After not being able to breastfeed my first born for longer than 2 months, I was determined to do it with my second.

I thought it would make things easier, save us money, & overall be better for both baby & I. And sure, all those things were true but I never realized what a toll it would take on my Mental Health.

Take a listen as I talk about my decision to finally wean after 17 months of exclusively breastfeeding and how I was able to wean.

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Now that I am in a better mental space, I can look back at the few months when my Anxiety was at its all time high and realize how I don’t remember much of it. There are so many moments that I feel were taken from me, moments that I need to grieve for mentally missing out on. Although, I am learning to give myself grace, I can't help but grieve the moments I lost because I was just trying to survive. Take a listen as I talk about needing to grieve moments with my children because I was battling deep Anxiety in my own head. To learn more about Mothering Anxiety Podcast please visit our website: ⁠https://www.motheringanxietypodcast.com Products Mentioned in Episode: (Affiliate Links) Chamomile Tea: https://amzn.to/3SeBzQJ Hibiscus Tea: https://amzn.to/3Sih1a3 Spearmint Tea: https://amzn.to/48Qnb6K

Postpartum Anxiety. Something I was ashamed to admit for so long that I was dealing with. "What do you mean you can't handle being a mom?" "What do you mean you can't keep up with your kids?," were all judgements my own head was telling me. My mind was telling me that because I couldn't handle the one thing I was called to do, I was failing my children as a Mother. But there was a point when my physical symptoms made it nearly impossible to do anything but survive and wait for the anxiety attack to pass me by. Take a listen as I had to break the stigma in my own head that Postpartum Anxiety is not a dirty word and that asking for help doesn't mean that I have failed. To learn more about Mothering Anxiety Podcast please visit our website: ⁠https://www.motheringanxietypodcast.com

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This season of life has not been a fun one to experience but, it has taught me a lot of new things about myself and about life in general.

As I am currently battling Postpartum Anxiety, I have decided to take an entire season to focus on that and how I plan to overcome my Postpartum Anxiety.

Take a listen as I talk about what you can expect from me this season and all the tips, triumphs, and failures I will b e sharing. No intrusive thought, no physical symptom, no breakdown in the bathroom will be left unsaid.

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This years Holidays are going to look a little bit different. Not only am I dealing with PPA/PPD but I am trying to set boundaries on what’s going to work best for me and my family. We’ve always done things a certain way and that just isn’t working out for us anymore. We are trying to teach our kid’s differently about what the Holidays mean and we hope that those around us could respect the traditions we are trying to start. The traditions we had in the past are from people that are no longer with us so we decided it’s our turn to do what we know what will be best for our family. Take a listen as I talk about what Holiday Boundaries we have set this year and potentially for the years to come.

The days are shorter and the Holidays are quickly approaching. For many of us, this can be a reminder of family dysfunction and loneliness.

Take a listen as I talk about what I plan to do to combat seasonal depression this year including daily sunshine and setting healthy holiday boundaries.

I never thought that I would be back here, dealing with Anxiety after working on healing from GAD for the last 3 years. I thought I was just burnt out, I thought it was just me not being able to handle being a Mom of 2, but something more was happening to my body. Something I couldn’t physiologically I couldn’t control. Take a listen as I talk about what’s truly been going on these last couple of months and where my future is headed.

I’ve always felt as if I have never fit in anywhere and with anyone. Call it past trauma or my social anxiety but fitting in with others has always been something I have struggled with. Take a listen as I talk about the revelation I had as to why I know I don’t feel good enough for anyone’s time and what I am doing to work towards accepting myself as I am.

For almost 3 decades of my life I was whoever everyone else wanted me to be. I stayed quiet to keep peace, I hid to not stand out, I molded myself to make sure that I stayed on everyone’s good side. I feel that this only added to my Social Anxiety and now on my healing journey, I have no idea who I am. What part of me was part of my trauma, what part of me is part of motherhood, what part of me is actually me and not something I became to please others. Take a listen as I talk about trying to find out who I am and who I want to become.

I feel as if I’m stuck. As if I’m having some sort of existential crisis at the moment. I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know what direction I want to go in. For almost 3 decades my body has been in a fight or flight response and now that it’s time to relax and let peace in, I don’t know how and it’s making me feel stuck, as if what I’m doing isn’t good enough. Take a listen as I talk about my fears of not doing enough to glorify God.

I realized spelling it with an “I” is business. Anyways, we are BUSY. And not only busy physically with needing to do so many things, I feel that I’m also busy mentally. Having my daughter in school and having to mentally carry that load of homework, lunches, drop off/pick ups, afterschool activities have just added to my daily mental load. My brain is on overdrive BUT I am finding ways to cope and giving myself rest when my body needs it. Take a listen as I talk about needing to break another generational trauma of relaxing not equally laziness.

Did you know your body traps all of your trauma? I didn’t, not until I was recently diagnosed with TMJD and researched where and why this comes from. Sure, the reasons are plain and clear but when you dig a little deeper you start to see how your trauma was what caused these reasons to begin with. Take a listen as I talk about my new journey of having to heal my physical body as I learn more and more about the body keeping score.

We’ve all heard about “Self Care” but what is “Soul Care?” What feeds your soul? What are things that you do for not just your physical being but your inner being? For me, that’s spending time with God. For me, that’s laying it all out for him. My worries, my other thinking, my anxieties. It’s making myself vulnerable and just letting him take the reigns. Take a listen as I talk about the 3 different ways I take care of my Soul.

Lately, I’ve been having doubts about my ability to speak up on Mental Illness. I have been hearing in the back of my head “You’re Not Good Enough, Who Do You Think You Are?” Take a listen as I try to tackle my thoughts of insecurity and what I plan to do with my Podcast.

My biggest apologies but honestly, after recording an episode titled “I Burned Out” & then going hiatus for 2 weeks. . . not so surprising right? I am in a rough season of life right now. My Anxiety has been at its all time highest, I’m extremely stressed out, and quite frankly, haven’t been doing well emotionally, physically, & mentally. It feels that all the things have piled up and I somehow forgot to take care of myself. Take a listen as I talk about what I’ve been dealing with for the last 6 weeks or so & what I think the lesson to be learned here is

This season of life is where I have been learning to let go of my perfectionism, to let go of my social anxiety. Let me tell you, it’s been ROUGH. I think I cry almost every day. Take a listen as I talk about the events of life that lead to my burnout that how now left me on autopilot and what I have learned so far during this time.

I give the new Barbie movie 10/10 but let’s talk about some points I got from it. This movie made me laugh and cry and by cry I mean bawl my eyes out uncontrollably which is not like me. This movie tugged on my existential anxiety, mom anxiety, and deeply rooted mommy issues. Take a listen as I talk about how my Anxiety made me interpret the Barbie movie and what I got out of it.