Some days healing feels like progress. Other days, it feels like hell.
In this episode, Mayhem gets real about what recovery actually looks like for daughters of narcissistic and emotionally limited mothers: the moments that make you question whether any of this work is worth it, and the deeper truth underneath the exhaustion.
We’re digging into what it means to keep going when the pain doesn’t ever seem to disappear.
You’ll hear:
Why healing the mother wound can feel endless (and why that’s normal)
How competence becomes armor and what happens when it stops working
Why calm can feel unsafe and joy can feel like betrayal
How grief and growth can coexist without canceling each other out
What it actually means to be healing, even when it still hurts
This is your reminder that healing isn’t about doing it perfectly. It's about staying with yourself, especially on the days you want to quit.
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When you’ve been the target of a narcissistic smear campaign, the urge to defend yourself can feel unbearable.
You want to explain, correct the record, and be believed. But here’s the truth: healing after narcissistic abuse isn’t about proving your innocence. it’s about reclaiming your peace.
In this episode of Mother Mayhem, we unpack what happens when daughters are scapegoated, misunderstood, or cut off after setting boundaries with a narcissistic or emotionally limited parent.
We talk about how to stay grounded in your truth without getting pulled back into the family system’s chaos You’ll learn:
Why smear campaigns happen and how they exploit fear, loyalty, and the need for belonging.
What to do when you’re misrepresented by a narcissistic mother, father, or sibling.
The difference between silence and suppression and how to know which serves your healing.
How to decide who has earned your vulnerability (and who hasn’t).
Ways to stay regulated when others spread lies or twist your story.
How to rebuild safety, self-trust, and peace after family estrangement or going no contact.
This is real talk for daughters who are ready to stop defending themselves and start living their truth
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What happens when you’ve survived the chaos but still don’t feel safe inside your own skin?
In this episode of Mother Mayhem, we unpack what it really means to reclaim safety, power, and self-trust after trauma, especially after growing up with a narcissistic or emotionally limited mother.
You’ll learn:
*Why your nervous system still scans for danger even when life is calm.
*How to tell the difference between trauma brain and wise mind.
*What integration actually looks like: when your body starts to believe what your wise mind already knows.
*How boundaries protect your peace (and why pushback means they’re working).
*Practical steps for rebuilding self-trust when control used to equal safety.
This is a look at the messy middle of healing, that in-between stage where trauma isn’t running the show anymore but it’s still backstage waiting for its cue.
If you’ve ever wondered why peace feels uncomfortable, why your body doesn’t believe your progress, or how to feel safe in your own story again, this episode is for you.
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Sometimes it isn’t about trauma brain or nervous system talk. Sometimes it’s just about life being messy and complicated and still leaving you asking, what the hell am I supposed to do with this?
In this episode, I answer two big questions from a daughter:
Trust after rupture: What do you do when someone you love, someone you thought was safe, lashes out, apologizes, and takes responsibility…but you’re still hurt and not sure where to put it? We talk about what it means when trust gets shaken in relationships, how to stop pretending everything’s “fine,” and why real healing comes from honest conversations, not band-aids.
Self-doubt at work: What happens when you’re offered a leadership opportunity you’ve always wanted but instead of celebrating, you’re stuck in fear of messing it up, losing respect, or not being “ready”? I share the real talk about stepping into leadership, owning your power, and saying yes to more without waiting to feel 100% confident first.
If you’ve ever struggled with rebuilding trust, navigating self-doubt, or stepping into leadership while carrying the wounds of being a daughter of a narcissistic or emotionally limited mother, we’ve got you covered today.
You’ll walk away with:
-Clarity on why ruptures in close relationships matter (and what to do about them).-Practical ways to rebuild trust without gaslighting yourself.-Real talk on how to step into leadership even when fear and insecurity show up.-Encouragement to stop waiting to feel “ready” and start saying yes to the life you want.
Because sometimes it’s not trauma. It’s just life. And you still deserve to know what to do next.
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What happens when you’ve spent a lifetime unseen, unchosen, and defined by someone else’s story?
In this episode of Mother Mayhem, a daughter asks: Who Am I, really?
Together, we explore:
Why daughters of narcissistic or emotionally limited mothers often feel dissociated or split from themselves
How dissociation shows up in daily life and gentle ways to come back into the present
Why listening and gathering resources without acting is a trauma response, not a failure
How to begin bridging head and heart after years of survival mode
What to do with rage and grief when confronting a mother won’t bring healing
How identity is reclaimed, not reinvented and why it’s never too late to begin
This episode offers both a clinical lens and a community one. It reminds daughters that healing happens in connection, not isolation.
If you’ve ever wondered who you are beyond the roles you were given, or how to carry rage and grief without being consumed by them, this conversation will meet you right where you are.
And if you’re looking to be a sponsor of the show or want to know more about connecting with other Mayhem daughters, you can find us at MayhemDaughters.com
Healing from childhood trauma isn’t a straight line. There’s a very messy middle. In this episode of Mother Mayhem, we explore what that messy middle really looks like for daughters of narcissistic or emotionally limited mothers.
We’ll talk about:
Regret in healing: Why it shows up, why it feels like such a gut punch, and how to reframe regret as a sign of growth instead of failure.
Relationships under pressure: How marriage, friendships, and partnerships can feel like they’re combusting when one person begins to heal.
The nervous system’s role: Why trauma brain makes joy feel unsafe, why peace is often the real goal, and why partners may misinterpret trauma responses as rejection or complaint.
The shock of change: How the people we chose in our fawning, conflict-avoiding, or numbed-out selves often feel destabilized when we start showing up differently.
Getting practical: From naming trauma brain in real time, to practicing repair, to re-choosing relationships with new self-awareness.
This conversation will help you understand why healing feels so raw, why regret can actually be a milestone, and how to navigate the bumps in relationships with clarity and compassion.
Whether you’re in the thick of regret, feeling misunderstood by your partner, or noticing how your healing is shaking up your closest connections, this episode will give you language, validation, and tools for the journey.
Resources & Next Steps
Learn more about the Mayhem Daughters community: MayhemDaughters.com.
Listen to earlier episodes on relationships and healing: Ep. 72 & Ep. 94
In this episode of Mother Mayhem, we’re talking about something every daughter eventually faces on the healing journey: the messy middle.
You’ve moved beyond survival mode: less hypervigilance, fewer shutdowns but freedom and peace still feel out of reach.
Instead, you’re navigating grief, anger, second-guessing, perfectionism, and the uncomfortable work of slowing down.
It’s confusing, frustrating, and messy. And yet…it’s where the deepest growth happens.
Together we’ll explore:
-Why grief and anger are essential parts of healing, not setbacks.
-How second-guessing shows up in the messy middle (and what to do about it).
-What it means to value rest, quiet, and connection without chaos.
-Practical ways to hold both grief and light through “Yes, And.”
-How to stop picking up every single thought trauma brain throws your way.
All of the questions in this episode came directly from daughters inside the Mayhem Daughters community.
If you want to have your own questions answered, hear from other daughters about their experiences, and find a safe, trauma-informed space to heal, visit MayhemDaughters.com
You are not alone in this messy middle. Let’s walk it together.
What happens when your body was never fully yours to begin with?
In this powerful episode we’re having a conversation many daughters have never had out loud about bodily autonomy, maternal boundary violations, and the silent, insidious ways that narcissistic or emotionally immature mothers can lay claim to their daughters' bodies.
We’re not just talking about “bad boundaries” here. We’re talking about unspoken abuse, the kind that hides behind phrases like “for your own good,” and leaves daughters confused, ashamed, and disconnected from their own bodies.
What it means when a mother claims ownership over her daughter’s body
Why so many daughters hesitate to use the word abuse, even when their bodies tell the truth.
Examples of physical invasiveness, coercion, and boundary-crossing framed as “care”
The nervous system responses (like freezing or bracing) that reveal stored trauma
Why healing often begins not with rage, but with quiet remembering and somatic truth
How to notice your body's signals and what it looks like to reclaim agency
This is not a checklist of symptoms. It’s a truth telling
This episode is tender. It may be activating. Go slowly. Bring water, take breaks, and, if at all possible, don’t listen alone.
Felt shame around sexuality, desire, or touch
Froze during intimacy, pelvic exams, or physical care
Been told you were “too sensitive” when something felt off
Had a mother who shared your private information, commented on your body, or touched you in ways that felt confusing or wrong
Struggled to name what happened because it wasn’t “overt” enough to count as abuse
You might relate if you’ve ever:
Felt shame around sexuality, desire, or touch
Froze during intimacy, pelvic exams, or physical care
Been told you were “too sensitive” when something felt off
Had a mother who shared your private information, commented on your body, or touched you in ways that felt confusing or wrong
Struggled to name what happened because it wasn’t “overt” enough to count as abuse
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Listener Note: This episode includes references to sexual trauma, emotional abuse, and boundary violations. Please take care of your nervous system and step away if you need to. You’re allowed to choose what you hold, and when.
Some daughters have lived through what many would call unthinkable: sexual abuse at the hands of their mothers. It’s a reality too painful to name, let alone process but that doesn’t make it any less real.
And if we want true healing for all daughters, we have to talk about the truths most people can’t hold.
In this powerful two-part episode, This week we talk to a daughter who has survived covert sexual trauma from her mother. Through her story, we begin to unpack the complex ways that maternal sexual abuse can occur.
I'll talk about:
What covert sexual trauma is and how it differs from more overt forms of abuse
How maternal sexual abuse distorts a daughter’s sense of self, safety, and bodily autonomy
Why daughters struggle with shame, confusion, and isolation around these experiences
How survivors can begin to reclaim their truth, their body, and their story
Why this episode, and this conversation, is a long-overdue step in healing the most silenced wounds
Whether this is your experience or not, listening with care will help deepen your understanding of the many forms the mother wound can take—and what it looks like to hold space for daughters living through the darkest parts of it
Visit MayhemDaughters.com for more information about joining group, our online community, or to share your story with the show.
What happens when you’ve gone no contact with your narcissistic mother… but your body still doesn’t feel safe?
This week, we hear from a daughter who has done all the right things. She’s named the abuse, set boundaries, gone to therapy, built a support network… and yet she still lives in fear of accidentally running into her mother.
Together, we explore what it means to feel stuck in trauma responses even after estrangement, and how daughters of narcissistic or emotionally limited mothers can begin to trust their bodies, honor their fear, and create protection without self-abandonment.
Why going no contact doesn’t always mean your nervous system feels safe
The difference between trauma brain and trauma wisdom
What to do if you run into your narcissistic parent in public
How to make a realistic safety plan without shame
The cost of avoidance—and how to choose it consciously
Why messy, imperfect reactions are actually protection
You’ve gone low or no contact and still feel like your mother has a hold on you
You’re a high-functioning daughter who feels like you “should be over it”
You’re tired of being hypervigilant, but scared to let your guard down
You’ve ever walked through a store scanning the aisles—just in case
You want support that honors your head work and your heart work
Why do relationships feel so confusing and hard?
If you grew up with a narcissistic or emotionally limited mother, you may have learned to associate closeness with danger and distance with safety.
This week,, we're talking about relational trauma, attachment wounds, and how childhood trauma shapes the way you show up in adult relationships.
We'll explore:
What relational trauma actually means and how it differs from single-event trauma
How disorganized attachment can leave you stuck in a painful push-pull cycle
Why your nervous system reacts to love, intimacy, and connection as threats
What it looks like to relate from survival mode, and how to begin shifting out of it
Why healing relational trauma requires relationship and how to do that without overwhelming yourself
Gentle, trauma-informed steps to stretch your capacity for safe, connected relationships
Whether you’re someone who over-functions in relationships, avoids intimacy altogether, or struggles to trust your own feelings, I get it. You’re protecting yourself in the only way your system knows how.
Resources:
Listen to Episode 105 first: Why You Feel This Way: Trauma, the Nervous System, & the Healing Journey
This week, we’re moving beyond the trauma buzzwords to explain why you feel the way you do and what it really means to begin healing from relational trauma.
You’ll learn:
What trauma looks like for daughters of narcissistic and emotionally limited mothers
The everyday symptoms of complex trauma (even if you’ve never been diagnosed)
How the nervous system responds to childhood trauma and why it’s not your fault
A five-phase healing framework that honors your pace and nervous system capacity
Why this work starts with your relationship to yourself, before anything else
Whether you’re just starting your trauma recovery journey or deep in the process, this episode offers clarity, compassion, and a way forward.
If you’ve ever felt like your anxiety is “too much” or your grief is “too messy,” you belong here.
Today, meet a daughter of a covertly narcissistic mother who didn’t begin to connect the dots until after her mother’s death. What follows is an honest, layered conversation about complex grief, panic attacks that don’t seem to make sense, and the painful tug-of-war between loyalty and truth.
Together, we explore:
Why panic in adulthood is often a trauma memory, not a present problem
The link between narcissistic mothers and hypervigilant nervous systems
How “should” becomes a survival strategy and why it now feels like self-betrayal
What it means to grieve a mother who was never emotionally safe
How memory reconsolidation happens even after a parent's death
Why waking up to your story years later doesn’t mean the trauma wasn’t real
If you were the daughter who raised yourself, who became the emotional caretaker in childhood, or who still feels guilty for feeling relief after loss, this conversation will help you feel less alone, less crazy, and more understood.
Grief isn’t linear. Panic isn’t random. And your healing gets to make sense to you, even if no one else understands it yet.
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Have you ever wondered: Am I always in a trauma response? Is everything I feel just about my past? If so, you’re not alone and you’re not wrong for asking.
Today we break down the differences between trauma brain, nervous system dysregulation, and normal emotional responses.
When you’ve survived a narcissistic or emotionally limited mother, it’s easy to feel like every reaction you have is suspect. But healing isn’t about becoming unbothered. It's about knowing what deserves to bother you.
We also explore why some daughters feel overwhelmed by being chosen, even as they grieve the pain of being left. Whether it’s friendship, dating, or family relationships, many daughters of narcissistic mothers carry deep nervous system patterns that can make connection feel confusing or unsafe.
In this episode, you’ll learn: The difference between trauma brain and dysregulation, and why knowing the distinction matters Why not every reaction, frustration, or irritation is a trauma response. You'll learn how your nervous system protects you, even when there’s no immediate danger, and what to do when being wanted makes you shut down.
We'll also touch on how to tell if your response is about the moment or about memory.
And lastly, we'll explore how healing means you get to choose what matters to you instead of defaulting to what your trauma tells you should
We cover key trauma-informed themes like:
Nervous system regulation and trauma responses
Self-trust vs. over-pathologizing
How daughters of narcissistic mothers respond to intimacy and belonging
Feeling "too much" or "too sensitive" after trauma
Why grief, loss, and closeness can coexist
This episode is for you if:
You’re tired of feeling like your trauma explains everything You want to stop spinning when people pull away or lean in You’re learning how to hear your wise mind instead of only your trauma brain
Mentioned in this episode:
Mayhem Daughters, our online community for daughters
Simple Scripts for Saying Hard Things
This week, we’re talking about what happens when choosing yourself feels like betrayal, especially when you’ve been raised to equate love with loyalty, and loyalty with obedience.
Whether you're trying to navigate guilt, set boundaries, or claim your voice, this episode reminds you: you don’t have to choose between love and self-respect.
And as always, daughters, you don’t have to manage any of this alone.|
You can always join us for:
Mayhem Daughters, our online community for daughters
What happens when you find out the story your mother told you about your life… wasn’t true?
Today we’re talking to about:
How gaslighting from a parent distorts a child’s reality
What betrayal trauma feels like when the gaslighter is your mother
Why self-trust gets severed after emotional manipulation and medical abuse
How trauma teaches you not to believe yourself
The grief, rage, and confusion that surface when you start to see clearly
Gentle, actionable steps to start rebuilding your sense of self and truth
Whether your mother lied outright, withheld the truth, or used concern as a disguise for control, this episode will help you name what happened and take the first steps toward reclaiming your life.
You’ll learn:
How to recognize the subtle forms of gaslighting in families
What it means to anchor in the present when the past feels blurry
How to begin healing identity confusion and chronic self-doubt
Questions that gently guide you back to your own knowing
This episode is for you if:
You were made to feel like you were the problem
You’re struggling to trust yourself or your memories
You’re tired of shrinking, performing, or questioning everything you feel
You want to start healing from emotional abuse, parental control, and betrayal
Resources Mentioned:
Join the Mayhem Daughters Community : A therapeutic space for daughters of narcissistic and emotionally limited mothers.
Tuesday & Thursday Support Groups — Live peer support groups with Heather
A hundred conversations. A hundred chances to tell the truth. A hundred reminders that healing is possible—even when it’s messy, slow, and still unfinished.
In this episode, we’re not breaking anything down. We’re building something up. Together.
You’ll hear two powerful stories from daughters who’ve done the hard work of healing, of making peace with who they were, so they could become who they are.
These aren’t just feel-good stories. They’re proof. That the work works. That you're not alone. That your story matters.
Whether you’ve been here since Episode 1 or just found your way in, this one is for you.
For every daughter who’s listened quietly. For every daughter who’s whispered, “me too.” For every daughter building a life by her own design. Thank you.
Here’s to the next hundred.
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You're welcome: Mayhem Daughters, our online community of daughters.
What happens when going no contact with your narcissistic or emotionally abusive mother means losing more than just the relationship with her?
In this powerful follow-up to Episode 92, we hear from Coraline—a daughter who’s already done the impossible: named the abuse, broken the cycle, and chosen to protect her peace. But what happens when that decision triggers suicide threats, family pressure, and the fear of losing connection with your father or siblings?
In this episode of Mother Mayhem, we explore:
How narcissistic mothers use guilt, threats, and emotional blackmail to collapse your boundaries
What to do when your mother says she’ll kill herself if you cut contact
How to respond to family members who pressure you to "keep the peace"
The difference between being compassionate and being complicit
Scripts and mindset shifts to help you hold the line—even when it’s painful
Why no contact is not the end of your healing—but the beginning of your reclaiming
If you’ve ever felt trapped between your own well-being and your family’s expectations, this episode is for you.
Join Tuesday Group or Thursday Group: Weekly support for daughters of narcissistic or emotionally limited mothers
Explore the Mayhem Daughters community
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Have you ever been called ungrateful, selfish, or disloyal by your mother just for setting a boundary, speaking your truth, or simply because you exist?
In this episode of Mother Mayhem, we’re talking about what happens when a narcissistic or emotionally limited mother turns the tables and calls you the problem.
Whether she accuses you of betrayal, labels your healing as disloyalty, or punishes you for pulling away, the pain of these attacks runs deep and can leave daughters drowning in guilt, confusion, and shame.
We’ll unpack:
Why narcissistic mothers often accuse their daughters of being ungrateful or selfish
How emotional abuse and gaslighting distort your reality and erode your self-trust
What it really means when a mother can’t love, not because she won’t, but because she’s emotionally incapable
The difference between actual selfishness and the healthy self-protection daughters are entitled to
How to anchor into your wise mind when trauma brain tells you to go back and fix it
You are not the problem and in this episode, you’ll learn how to start believing that.
Join Tuesday Group or Thursday Group: Supportive spaces for daughters navigating the mother wound
Learn more about the Mayhem Daughters community
If this episode spoke to you, please consider leaving a rating or review. It helps other daughters find the show and reminds the algorithm (and me) that these conversations matter.
In this episode of Mother Mayhem, we’re talking about one of the most emotionally damaging tactics used by narcissistic and emotionally limited mothers: the silent treatment.
This episode explores the emotional and psychological effects of the silent treatment and provides listeners with strategies to heal and regain control of their lives.
When your narcissistic mother uses silence as a weapon, it doesn’t just hurt in the moment. It lingers, leaving you trapped in a cycle of self-doubt, anxiety, and emotional chaos.
Learn how to recognize these behaviors for what they are: emotional manipulation. Learn how to break free from the cycle of seeking approval and validation from someone who will never give it to you.
Key points discussed in this episode:
The Silent Treatment as Emotional Manipulation: Understanding how the silent treatment is used by narcissistic mothers to control, manipulate, and emotionally harm.
The Impact on Your Nervous System: Why silence triggers fight, flight, freeze, or fawn responses and how this affects your mental health and emotional regulation.
Breaking the Cycle: Practical steps to stop chasing approval and reclaim your peace.
Nervous System Regulation and Self-Trust: How calming your nervous system and rebuilding self-trust is crucial for healing from the silent treatment.
Moving Beyond the Silence: What to do when your mother’s silence ends, how to prepare for re-engagement, and how to protect yourself from falling back into old patterns.
Healing Strategies:
This episode provides actionable advice to help you:
Recognize the toxic patterns of behavior from your narcissistic mother.
Manage anxiety and emotional overwhelm caused by the silent treatment.
Focus on self-trust and emotional regulation to reclaim your peace.
Set boundaries and break free from the need for external validation.
Mayhem is here to support you as you navigate the complexities of healing from narcissistic abuse. The journey may be long, but breaking the cycle of emotional manipulation starts today.
If you’re ready to stop chasing approval and reclaim your peace, join us in Mayhem Daughters, our trauma-informed community where daughters of narcissistic mothers come together to heal and support each other.
Check out the Tuesday Group and Thursday Group, where you’ll find the connection, support, and guidance you need on your journey of healing.
Also mentioned: Simple Scripts for Saying Hard Things