in the season three finale, i take a look back at season three with sentiment. i also talk about letting go of the past in perspective, retrospectively.

let's get real about intimacy.

just about two episodes away from the end of season three, episode twenty four is all about contemplations and reflections on diving timing.

this is a life update of how things have been the past week. it's been a mess honestly, but being mindful of the things i am grateful for and letting go of the things i cannot control is so important.

the cat's out the bag yet again in this one, let's talk fan fiction and get real.

in this episode, i'm giving my advice on finding closure after getting your heart broken. there are only so many ways heartbreak can happen, and it gets quite overwhelming as it does consuming for me sometimes. when it comes to finding closure, it isn't so far down the road and with time it comes easily. (trigger warning: brief mention of self harm)

diving right in to episode twenty of For A Pessimist I'm Pretty Optimistic's third season, it's all about success and the journey of it, what builds it, what feels like breaking in it, and the open doors of opportunity as the dynamics of success and creativity flow. it's not easy, but it's worth it to keep going.

this was quite an emotional topic for me to touch on! in episode nineteen, i talk about my journey with antipsychotics that lead me to a point of decidedly quitting. (tw: psychtic experiences are uncovered in detail and may be triggering to some)

For A Pessimist I'm Pretty Optimistic is back with another mental health episode. In this one, I'm talking about coping skills for bipolar psychosis that I was able to research about and how things have been as of lately when it comes to where I am in my mental health journey. Things have been really tough when it comes to overwhelming and distressing mental disability episodes. Still, I think it's important that I remember that coping is a practice that I can confide in when I feel that my mood shifts and psychosis symptoms may occur.

This episode is fun-packed and I'm absolutely excited to be talking about the idea of She's Just Not Into Him and how it kicked off to be an original romance novel. What started as my last ongoing fan-fiction idea, I had said goodbye to my fan-fiction era by coming into this new beginning that was this romance novel in the making which is the start of my journey as an independent author.

in episode sixteen of season three, I talk about healing the inner child, this idea of the inner child and my present self colliding in some of my moments in life

episode fifteen of season three brings more about the aroace spectrum and how I've resonated with it through life. celebrating my aroace visibility is so important absolutely, so i'm very excited to be delving into the second part with more aroace terms from such a useful resource; https://www.oulgbtq.org/acearo-spectrum-definitions.html. I'm also a bit emotional to talk about how being acquitted with the orientation was quite the challenge along with the play of societal things, yet it was so essential to who I am expressively, so here I am (again).

post-holiday break and respective withdrawals later, episode fourteen follows promptly about a spontaneous spark of an idea to release a side project, a self-help + personal development blog (with undertones of spirituality,) by me. what seems a bit like a dark and depressing title, isn't all that it seems when the light at the end of the tunnel isn't so far. in one of the most significant episodes of season three thus far, I introduce the origins of Tears, Fears, And The Years and how it became another commitment in my writing journey and how grateful I'd be if you were to come along.

episode thirteen is all about the aroace spectrum as i delve into the aspects within it and how i resonate with them.

Episode twelve of season three has finally arrived. What a whimsical blur as time has taken its flight quite quickly. About halfway into the season, already, oh wow. Here we are! In this episode, I discuss sobriety and relapse and their impact on my life, my passions and ambitions as a writer, wards, and an update on deity work when it comes to walking away from Catholicism and proudly wearing my heart on my sleeve when it comes to devotion and working with infernal and angelic realms.

In episode 11 of season 3, I talk about coping with psychosis delusions and how they can be quite distressing, sometimes I may not even be aware of them occurring at all. Also, I touch upon how psychosis PTSD can really feel a lot like emotionally spiraling. I also talk about breaking repetitive cycles when it comes to this mental disability; truth be told it's not easy at all! For me, it was a lot of sitting with my shadow and breaking my fear of doing so, and understanding the barriers my psychosis creates are breakable. With just a smidge of courage and a will to carry on, anything is possible.

This is something I've been working to do for sometime! After sometime in the broom's closet, and revisiting the memory, from time to time, I was completely not sure how I could be able to do so. Learning about how I can has been a goal of mine since I had done an oracle card reading on myself that indicated I should be able to find a balance between both my spiritual and physical life.

I first got The Complete Cthulhu Mythos Tales when I was twenty years old, and I decided to pick it up in my bookshelf about three years later. Here is my honest review of At The Mountains Of Madness by H.P. Lovecraft! I also share my thoughts about the passing of this cosmic horror author, and how he came into personal growth when it came to facing his past racist views and coming into a positive transformation by squashing these racial biases as a work in progress in his later years as a writer, and thus coming into absolution when he had resurrected into spirit in the spirit realm.