Continuing this episode, to recap all the highs and lows of the holiday season… how has Jenny’s body dysmorphia come back and how is she trying to deal with it in a healthy way? What challenges did the holiday season bring Jenny financially and how is she going to move forward?

So happy to be back making content for you! I hope everyone has had a great holiday season! Let’s get back to business of living, our best lives, and loving ourselves successfully! Part 1 is all about socialization and part 2 is all about my struggles.

What do I have lined up for season two of the podcast? Shout out to all my international listeners! Happy holidays to all the codependents!

What is OCD? What are the treatments for OCD? Why should you consider behavioral therapy before allowing the doctor to prescribe you medication? What is your origin wound that causes your OCD?

What are the long term affects of sexual trauma? What are the 12 steps and 12 promises of SASA worldwide? What grudge did Alanis Morissette admit to having and how did it affect her? What are eight things you should never say to anyone suffering from PTSD, trauma, or grief? This Grudge - Song by Alanis Morissette LyricsFourteen yearsThirty minutesFifteen seconds I'veHeld this grudgeEleven songsFour full journalsThoughts of punishmentI've expendedNot in contactNot a letterSuch communicationTelepathicYou've been vilifiedUsed as fodderYou deserve a pieceOf every recordBut who's it hurting now?Who's the one that's stuck?Who's it torturing nowWith an antique knot in her stomach?I want to be big and let goOf this grudge that's grown oldAll this time I've not knownHow to rest this bygoneI want to be soft and resolvedClean of slate and releasedI want to forgive for the both of usLike an abandoned houseDusty coveredFurnitureStill intactIf I visit it nowWill I simply re-live itSomehow gratuitousBut who's still aching now?Who's tired of her own voice?Who is it weighing downWith no gift from time of said healingI want to be big and let goOf this grudge that's grown oldAll this time I've not knownHow to rest this bygoneI want to be soft and resolvedClean of slate and releasedI want to forgive for the both of usMaybe as I cut the cordVeils will lift from my eyesMaybe as I lay this to restDead weight off my shoulders will riseHere I sitMuch determinedEver ill-equippedTo draw this curtainHow this has entertainedValidatedAnd has served me wellEver the victimBut who's done whining now?Who's ready to put downThis load I've carried longer than I had cared to rememberI want to be big and let goOf this grudge that's grown oldAll this time I've not knownHow to rest this bygoneI want to be soft and resolvedClean of slate and releasedI want to forgive for the both of us Source: LyricFindSongwriters: Alanis MorissetteThis Grudge (Vancouver sessions) lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd. HOST JENNY E. allows you to get up close and personal inside her life, her heart and her messy vs. wise minds. With the hope of helping others heal, becoming aware of their codependence, and use real life tools for dramatic change. This is Jenny’s most personal podcast, politics-free, and a beacon of light to those still suffering from PTSD, narcissistic, sexual abuse, borderline personality, CPTSD, and codependence. Please rate and comment! Let’s share the podcast and get as many souls into recovery as possible! Vist: ⁠www.coda.org⁠ ⁠www.slaafws.org www.sasaworldwide.org Spotify: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/jennyredpill Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/confessions-of-a-co-dependent/id1680998955 If you'd like to contribute to Jenny's recovery from her accident, please cashApp $redpillrage  #narc #narcabuse #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #bpd #nod #veterans #vets #ptsd emdr #therapy #therapyworks #12steps #12stepstorecovery #recovery #shadowwork #alanis #morrissette #alanismorrissette #robertgreene #48lawsofpower #simonsinek

In this episode, I share my background in leader ship in public speaking, and why it is so utterly frustrating for me to be interrupted. Also, find out why a balanced throat chakra is so healing for a codependent. I’m also going to introduce you to one of my favorite corporate business coaches, who has some very important things to say about the art of listening. MORE ABOUT CHAKRAS: https://www.arhantayoga.org/blog/vishuddha-chakra-balance-how-to-balance-your-throat-chakra/ SIMON SINEK'S OFFICIAL SITE: https://simonsinek.com HOST JENNY E. allows you to get up close and personal inside her life, her heart and her messy vs. wise minds. With the hope of helping others heal, becoming aware of their codependence, and use real life tools for dramatic change. This is Jenny’s most personal podcast, politics-free, and a beacon of light to those still suffering from PTSD, narcissistic, sexual abuse, borderline personality, CPTSD, and codependence. Please rate and comment! Let’s share the podcast and get as many souls into recovery as possible! Vist: ⁠www.coda.org⁠ ⁠www.slaafws.org Sasa.org Spotify: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/jennyredpill Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/confessions-of-a-co-dependent/id1680998955 If you'd like to contribute to Jenny's recovery from her accident, please cashApp $redpillrage  #narc #narcabuse #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #bpd #nod #veterans #vets #ptsd emdr #therapy #therapyworks #12steps #12stepstorecovery #recovery #shadowwork #alanis #morrissette #alanismorrissette #robertgreene #48lawsofpower #simonsinek

-What is the clinical definitionBPD and what are its symptoms? Review of the "loud Mind vs the messy mind". How do we relax the effects of BPD and the accompanying coping mechanisms? What does it FEEL like to suffer from BPD? What are the 12 PROMISES of codependents anonymous?

So Unsexy - Song by Alanis Morissette

HOST JENNY E. allows you to get up close and personal inside her life, her heart and her messy vs. wise minds. With the hope of helping others heal, becoming aware of their codependence, and use real life tools for dramatic change. This is Jenny’s most personal podcast, politics-free, and a beacon of light to those still suffering from PTSD, narcissistic, sexual abuse, borderline personality, CPTSD, and codependence.

Please rate and comment! Let’s share the podcast and get as many souls into recovery as possible!

Vist:

⁠www.coda.org⁠

⁠www.slaafws.org

www.Sasa.org

Spotify:

https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/jennyredpill

Apple Podcasts:

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/confessions-of-a-co-dependent/id1680998955

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- What is the host/parasite relationship between the codependent and narcissist? - How does IDEALISM become a trap for the codependent? What types of narcissists are out there? Plus, a book review of Robert Greene’s 48 Laws of Power and why a codependent should read it to protect themselves against an abuser/scammer/manipulator.

Narcissus - Song by Alanis Morissette

Lyrics:

Dear momma's boy
I know you've had your butt licked by your mother
I know you've enjoyed all that attention from her
And every woman graced with your presence after
Dear narcissus boy
I know you've never really apologized for anything
I know you've never really taken responsibility
I know you've never really listened to a womanDear me-show boy
I know you're not really into conflict resolution
Or seeing both sides of every equation
Or having an uninterrupted conversationAnd any talk of healthiness
And any talk of connectedness
And any talk of resolving this
Leaves you running for the doorWhy, why do I try to love you?
Try to love you when you really don't want me toDear egotist boy
You've never really had to suffer any consequence
You've never stayed with anyone longer than ten minutes
You'd never understand anyone showing resistance
Dear popular boy
I know you're used to getting everything so easily
A stranger to the concept of reciprocity
People honor boys like you in this societyAnd any talk of selflessness
And any talk of working at this
And any talk of being of service
Leaves you running for the doorWhy, why do I try to help you?
Try to help you when you really don't want me to
Why, why do I try to help you?
Try to help you when you really don't want me toYou go back to the women who will dance the dance
You go back to your friends who will lick your ass
You go back to ignoring all the rest of us
You go back to the center of your universeDear self centered boy
I don't know why I still feel affected by you
I've never lasted very long with someone like you
I never did, although I have to admit I wanted to
Dear magnetic boy
You've never been with anyone who doesn't take your shit
You've never been with anyone who's dared to call you on it
I wonder how you'd be if someone were to call you on itAnd any talk of willingness
And any talk of both feet in
And any talk of commitment
Leaves you running for the doorWhy, why do I try to change you?
Try to change you when you really don't want me to
Why, why do I try to change you?
Try to change you when you really don't want me toYou go back to the women who will dance the dance
And you go back to your friends who will lick your ass
And you go back to being so oblivious
And you go back to the center of the universeSource: LyricFind

Songwriters: Alanis MorissetteNarcissus lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

HOST JENNY E. allows you to get up close and personal inside her life, her heart and her messy vs. wise minds. With the hope of helping others heal, becoming aware of their codependence, and use real life tools for dramatic change. This is Jenny’s most personal podcast, politics-free, and a beacon of light to those still suffering from PTSD, narcissistic, sexual abuse, borderline personality, CPTSD, and codependence.

Please rate and comment! Let’s share the podcast and get as many souls into recovery as possible!

Vist:

⁠www.coda.org⁠

⁠www.slaafws.org

Sasa.org

Spotify:

https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/jennyredpill

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https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/confessions-of-a-co-dependent/id1680998955

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This is just a little quick bonus episode. I’m not saying much just wanted to talk about having the courage to do things you’re scared of but also having the courage to walk away from things that don’t serve you. Hope you enjoy it.

21 Things I Want in a Lover - Song by Alanis Morissette

LyricsDo you derive joy when someone else succeeds?
Do you not play dirty when engaged in competition?
Do you have a big intellectual capacity
But know that it alone does not equate to wisdom?Do you see everything as an illusion
But enjoy it even though you are not of it?
Are you both masculine and feminine, politically aware?
And don't believe in capital punishment?These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I preferDo you derive joy from diving in and seeing that
Loving someone can actually feel like freedom?
Are you funny and self-depreciating, like adventure
And have many formed opinions?These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter
These are 21 things I choose to choose in a loverI'm in no hurry I could wait forever
I'm in no rush 'cause I like being solo
There are no worries and certainly no pressure in the meantime
In the meantime, I'll live like there's no tomorrowAre you uninhibited in bed, more than three times a week
Up for being experimental? Are you athletic?
Are you thriving in a job that helps your brother?
Are you not addicted?These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter
These are 21 things I choose to choose in a loverSource: MusixmatchSongwriters: Alanis Morissette21 Things I Want in a Lover lyrics © 1974 Music, Mca Music Publishing, A.d.o. Universal S

HOST JENNY E. allows you to get up close and personal inside her life, her heart and her messy vs. wise minds. With the hope of helping others heal, becoming aware of their codependence, and use real life tools for dramatic change. This is Jenny’s most personal podcast, politics-free, and a beacon of light to those still suffering from PTSD, narcissistic, sexual abuse, borderline personality, CPTSD, and codependence.

Please rate and comment! Let’s share the podcast and get as many souls into recovery as possible!

Vist:

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⁠www.slaafws.org

Sasa.org

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What plans did I have for my birthday and how did they change? How has working the steps allowed me to relinquish control and move on? What can we do as codependents to heal ourselves honor ourselves when others don't do so?

HOST JENNY E. allows you to get up close and personal inside her life, her heart and her messy vs. wise minds. With the hope of helping others heal, becoming aware of their codependence, and use real life tools for dramatic change. This is Jenny’s most personal podcast, politics-free, and a beacon of light to those still suffering from PTSD, narcissistic, sexual abuse, borderline personality, CPTSD, and codependence.

Please rate and comment! Let’s share the podcast and get as many souls into recovery as possible!

Vist:

⁠www.coda.org⁠

⁠www.slaafws.org

Spotify:

https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/jennyredpill

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It is your responsibility to manage yourself!

I had a nightmare last night that clearly illustrates the ridiculousness and severity of narcissistic abuse. Also, why do I call my own mother, Margaret White? How can you break free from the grips of religious abuse?

HOST JENNY E. allows you to get up close and personal inside her life, her heart and her messy vs. wise minds. With the hope of helping others heal, becoming aware of their codependence, and use real life tools for dramatic change. This is Jenny’s most personal podcast, politics-free, and a beacon of light to those still suffering from PTSD, narcissistic, sexual abuse, borderline personality, CPTSD, and codependence.

Please rate and comment! Let’s share the podcast and get as many souls into recovery as possible!

Vist:

⁠www.coda.org⁠

⁠www.slaafws.org

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There are things that I should’ve said about myself along time ago. There are things I should’ve made my friends and lovers aware of before I got too deep into their manipulation. I should’ve been able to say no one set boundaries a long time ago, but I am here today to stand on what I believe into unapologetically tell people who the fuck I am! As codependence I hope that you were able to take the same stance with everything and everyone in your life!

What dark psychology tactics are being used against you pre and post relationship? How is the Jonah Hill situation a perfect example of weaponized "therapy language"?

Do you OVER-VALUE yourself within the lives of others? What standards do you have for your friendships? How can you test for EQUITY and VALUE within a relationship? Can being in your "VILLAIN ERA" permanently cure your codependence? If something tragic happened to you, would your friends be there for you the way you would be there for them? Is expressing "unconditional love" even safe for a co-dependent? PLUS: proof that the "golden rule" cannot exist in reality... especially if you are a recovering codependent! * CONFESSIONS of a CODEPENDENT podcast HOST JENNY E. allows you to get up close and personal inside her life, her heart and her messy vs. wise minds. With the hope of helping others heal, becoming aware of their codependence, and use real life tools for dramatic change. This is Jenny’s most personal podcast, politics-free, and a beacon of light to those still suffering from PTSD, narcissistic, obsessive compulsive disorder, sexual abuse, borderline personality, CPTSD, and codependence. ⁠www.coda.org⁠ ⁠www.slaafws.org⁠ www.sasaworldwide.org FOLLOW, RATE AND COMMENT! WEBSITE: ⁠https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/jennyredpill⁠ Spotify:  https://open.spotify.com/show/66AWDlBm5v4W8DslBHqsK7 iTUNES: ⁠https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/confessions-of-a-co-dependent/id1680998955⁠ You Owe Me Nothing in Return Lyrics I'll give you countless amounts of outrightAcceptance if you want itI will give you encouragement to chooseThe path you want if you need itYou can speak of anger and doubtsYour fears and freak outs and I'll hold itYou can share your so called shame filled accountsOf times in your life and I won't judge it(And there are no strings attached to it)You owe me nothing for giving the love that I giveYou owe me nothing for caring the way that I haveI give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilegeAnd you owe me nothing in returnYou can ask for space for yourselfAnd only yourself and I'll grant itYou can ask for freedom as wellOr time to travel and you'll have itYou can ask to live by yourselfOr love someone else and I'll support itYou can ask for anything you wantAnything at all and I'll understand it.(And there are no strings attached to it)You owe me nothing for giving the love that I giveYou owe me nothing for caring the way that I haveI give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilegeAnd you owe me nothing in returnI bet you're wondering whenThe next payback shoe will eventually dropI bet you're wondering when my conditional policeWill force you to cough upI bet you're wondering how farYou have now danced your way back into debtThis is the only kind of love, as I understand itThat there really isYou can express your deepest of truthsEven if it means I'll lose you and I'll hear itYou can fall into the abyssOn your way to your bliss, I'll empathize withYou can say that you'll have to skip townTo chase your passion and I'll hear itYou can even hit rock bottomHave a mid-life crisis and I'll hold it(And there are no strings attached to it)You owe me nothing for giving the love that I giveYou owe me nothing for caring the way that I haveI give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilegeAnd you owe me nothing in returnYou owe me nothing for giving the love that I giveYou owe me nothing for caring the way that I haveI give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilegeAnd you owe me nothing in returnSource: ⁠Musixmatch⁠ Songwriters: Alanis MorissetteYou Owe Me Nothing in Return lyrics © 1974 Music, Mca Music Publishing, A.d.o. Universal S #narc #narcawareness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #bpd #npd #borderline #cptsd #ptsd #emdr #therapy #coaching #heal #healing #alanis #morrisstte #alanismorrisette #survivor #sexualassault #trauma #recovery #12steps #12stepprogram #12steprecovery #sa #ocd #did #obcessivecompulsive #personalitydisorders #disorders #therpist #counseling #journey

What are the similarities between religious abuse and grooming? How does the concept of "turning the cheek" prime us for abusive personal and professional relationships? Where else can we find spiritual grooming? Where else did Alanis Morrissette find the same thing? * CONFESSIONS of a CODEPENDENT podcast HOST JENNY E. allows you to get up close and personal inside her life, her heart and her messy vs. wise minds. With the hope of helping others heal, becoming aware of their codependence, and use real life tools for dramatic change. This is Jenny’s most personal podcast, politics-free, and a beacon of light to those still suffering from PTSD, narcissistic, obsessive compulsive disorder, sexual abuse, borderline personality, CPTSD, and codependence. www.coda.org www.slaafws.org www.sasaworldwide.org FOLLOW, RATE AND COMMENT! WEBSITE: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/jennyredpill Spotify:  https://open.spotify.com/show/66AWDlBm5v4W8DslBHqsK7 iTUNES: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/confessions-of-a-co-dependent/id1680998955 BABA I've seen them kneelWith baited breath for the ritualI've watched this experience raiseThem to pseudo higher levelsI've watched them leave their familiesIn pursuit of your nirvanaI've seen them coming to line up from Switzerland and AmericaHow long will this take, baba?How long have we been sleeping?Do you see me hanging on to every word you say?How soon will I be holy?How much will this cost, guru?How much longer 'til you completely absolve me?I've seen them give their drugs upIn place of makeshift altarsI've heard them chantingKali kali franticallyI've heard them rotely repeat yourTeaching with elitismI've seen them boasting robes andForeign sandalwood beadsHow long will this take, baba?How long have we been sleeping?Do you see me hanging on to every word you say?How soon will I be holy?How much will this cost, guru?How much longer 'til you completely absolve me?I've seen them overlooking God inTheir own essenceI've seen their upward glancesIn hopes of instant salvationI've seen their righteousnessMixed without loving compassionI've watched you smile asThe students bow to kiss your feetHow long will this take, baba?How long have we been sleeping?Do you see me hanging on to every word you say?How soon will I be holy?How much will this cost, guru?How much longer 'til you completely absolve me?Give me strength all knowing oneHow long 'til enlightenmentHow much longer 'til youCompletely absolve me?Ave MariaAve MariaAve MariaAve MariaAve MariaAve MariaSource: LyricFindSongwriters: Alanis Nadine Morissette / Glen BallardBaba lyrics © Concord Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group

Check out what one of our recovering codependents has said about the show! Would you like to be on the show? Please leave a voice note on Spotify and I will put you on! I would love to know if the podcast is helping you and what your goals are for yourself! Plus check out my motivations, and my only selfish desire.

ARE YOU FINALLY READY TO END THIS CYCLE?

The CURES for people pleasing once and for all:

1- Radical emotional honesty

2- Enter your VILLAIN ERA now (max 4 month period)

3- Simultaneously enter into your PRINCE & PRINCESS ERA for the rest of your life!

* CONFESSIONS of a CODEPENDENT podcast

HOST JENNY E. allows you to get up close and personal inside her life, her heart and her messy vs. wise minds. With the hope of helping others heal, becoming aware of their codependence, and use real life tools for dramatic change. This is Jenny’s most personal podcast, politics-free, and a beacon of light to those still suffering from PTSD, narcissistic, sexual abuse, obsessive compulsive disorder, borderline personality, CPTSD, and codependence.

This podcast is veteran friendly and there's content here for YOU too!

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LYRIC REVIEW:

Your Congratulations

I wouldn't have compromised as much 
So much of myself, for fear of 
Having you, hating me 
And I would've sung so loudly 
It would've cracked myselfAnd I became self-conscious 
Of anything exuberant 
I wouldn't have sold myself short 
I wouldn't have kept my eyes 
Glued to the ground If I had've known my invisibility 
Would not make a difference 
I would've run around screaming proudly 
At the top of my voice I wouldn't have said it was in fact luck 
I'm talking idealism here 
I would not have been so self-deprecating 
And I wouldn't have cowered 
For fear of having my eyes scratched outI wouldn't have cut my comfort off 
I wouldn't have feigned needlessness 
And I would not have discredited 
Every one of their compliments 
It was your approval I wanted 
Your congratulations

Source: LyricFindSongwriters: Alanis Morissette Your Congratulations lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

TIME to enter your VILLAIN ERA! That's right! We're kickin ass and takin names with no apologies! From this point on it's time to clean house and curate EVERYTHING in our lives from friends to entertainment. WE'RE NOT wasting anymore of our time! There is a valid reason we've been drained and it stops now! When we were in our people pleasing era, we gave our power away. This is why we need a bad guy to get it back!

* CONFESSIONS of a CODEPENDENT podcast

HOST JENNY E. allows you to get up close and personal inside her life, her heart and her messy vs. wise minds. With the hope of helping others heal, becoming aware of their codependence, and use real life tools for dramatic change. This is Jenny’s most personal podcast, politics-free, and a beacon of light to those still suffering from PTSD, narcissistic, sexual abuse, borderline personality, CPTSD, and codependence.

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