it’s been a minute since april. finals hit, summer went by, and now i’m back rambling about life.
friendships and why people drift
dancing people vs singing people
family, grandparents getting older, taking care of parents from afar
dealing with change and still showing up for the people you care about
just me thinking out loud and sharing what’s been on my mind.
In this episode, we’re diving into one of the most universal experiences—Imposter Syndrome. Whether you're in a competitive field, navigating social dynamics, or just trying to figure things out in life, that nagging feeling of “I don’t belong here” can creep in. We’ll talk about the different types of Imposter Syndrome, why it happens, and how it manifests in different areas of life—from work to relationships. Along the way, we’ll break down the "Not Like Other Girls" mindset, how comparison feeds our self-doubt, and how you can start fighting back against that inner critic. Tune in for some real talk, practical advice, and a reminder that you’re not alone in this.
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In this episode of Chronic Contemplations, Bella dives into the often-overlooked benefits of being single—emphasizing personal growth, self-discovery, and the freedom that comes with solitude. She shares her personal experience of being single, acknowledging that while it’s not always easy, embracing this time for self-reflection has been empowering. Bella also reflects on her own fears about vulnerability in relationships, discussing the importance of growth, emotional work, and the significance of connection.
Is being single really a negative thing, or can it be an opportunity for growth? Listen in as Bella challenges societal norms about relationships and offers advice on navigating both solitude and the complexities of connection. From vulnerability to building meaningful relationships, this episode is an honest conversation about what it really takes to make connections—whether it’s with yourself or others.
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In this episode, Bella reflects on the quieter, more consistent forms of love—whether it's familial or romantic. Inspired by the show When Life Gives You Tangerines, she shares her thoughts on love that isn't always loud or dramatic, but still has a deep impact. It's the love that shows up in small moments, sacrifices, and simple acts of care.
Bella also talks about the song You’ll Be In My Heart, sung by Niki and written by Phil Collins, and how it’s stuck with her as she thinks about her parents and the sacrifices they’ve made for her. It made her reflect on how they’ve always been there, even when things weren’t perfect, and how easy it is to take that love for granted.
This episode is about the quiet, constant love that often goes unnoticed but is always present. Bella shares how family relationships shift over time, and how that love—though subtle—is the foundation of so much. If you’ve ever been moved by a simple song or thought about how much your family has shaped you, this episode is for you.
Tune in to hear more about the importance of recognizing the love that’s always been there, even if it isn’t loud, and how it carries us through life.
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Ever wonder why you react the way you do in relationships? Why some connections feel effortless while others leave you anxious, distant, or stuck in a cycle of push and pull? It all comes back to attachment styles—the way we learned to connect (or struggle to) based on our early experiences.
In this episode, I dive into:
💭 The 4 attachment styles—secure, anxious, avoidant, and disorganized
🔄 My personal experience with disorganized attachment (aka emotional whiplash)
💙 The 5 love languages and how they impact the way we give and receive love
🛠️ How to recognize your patterns & start moving toward secure attachment
Relationships take work, but understanding yourself is the first step. Let’s unpack it together.
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After over a year away, I’m finally back—and honestly? Coming back feels strange, but necessary. In this episode of Chronic Contemplations, I dive into something that’s been weighing on me: the difference between living life and just watching it happen.
Lately, I’ve felt stuck in observer mode—scrolling, consuming, waiting. Watching other people chase their dreams while I put mine on pause. And maybe you’ve felt it too—that sense of floating through your days instead of really experiencing them. So today, I’m unpacking what keeps us in that passive state, why it’s so easy to fall into, and—most importantly—how we can start actively living again.
If you’ve been feeling stuck, disconnected, or just waiting for the “right moment” to start, this one’s for you. Let’s talk about how to stop watching life and start living it.
Find us on Instagram @chroniccontemplations and listen on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and Amazon Podcasts. Let's get lost together!
Lost in the life-maze? Bella's ripping down the walls and asking the big question: "What do I even want?" Join her wild ride through values, and passions, and embrace the detours on the way to your true desires. Laughter, relatable stories, and zero pressure to have it all figured out. It's a quest for authenticity, one wild step at a time.
Find us on Instagram @chroniccontemplations and listen on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and Amazon Podcasts. Let's get lost together!
Bella delves into the intricate world of productivity paradox in this episode, navigating the delicate balance between conquering to-do lists and tiptoeing along the edge of the rut valley. Is she destined for workaholic tendencies, or is she simply mastering the art of a healthy hustle? Join her as she dissects the thin line between peak achievements and the looming specter of burnout anxieties in this brief yet relatable podcast installment.
Follow us on Instagram @chroniccontemplations and catch us on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and Amazon Podcasts for more relatable thoughts and tips. Stay tuned for next week's episode as we continue our journey through the twists and turns of life.
Ditch the traditional New Year resolutions! Episode 5 explores the flaws in generic goals, emphasizing the impact on well-being. Dive into the unpredictability of personal growth, turning challenges into self-discovery. Get practical tips for a flexible, personalized roadmap and discover mindfulness in future planning. Celebrate small wins, stay present, and raise a metaphorical toast to your transformative journey. Join our community, share your vision, and let's make it a year of authenticity and growth.
Dive into the essence of living authentically and with integrity in a world that often pulls us in different directions. Explore the impact on well-being, relationships, and decision-making. Join us on a journey of self-discovery and empowerment.
Dive into the world of film scores with our latest episode. We explore the subtle yet powerful narratives that music adds to cinema, focusing on iconic soundtracks like "Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End." Analyze the intricacies of film composition, dissecting techniques that shape cinematic experiences. We also spotlight other notable scores, including "How to Train Your Dragon" and "Kung Fu Panda." Critically discuss Marvel's approach to film scores and explore their impact on visual storytelling. Share your thoughts on your favorite film scores and join us in appreciating the often-overlooked artistry of cinematic music.
Episode 2 of The Chronic Contemplations Podcast, "The Art of Hyper Fixations," peels back the layers of obsession, exploring the intense and prolonged focus that defines hyper fixations. From the global phenomenon of K-pop to the high-speed world of Formula 1, join Bella in uncovering the narratives, psychology, and unexpected connections that make hyper-fixations a dynamic force in our lives. We dive into the captivating forces that drive these fixations, their impact on creativity and personal growth, and the intricate tapestry they weave into our experiences. Tune in for an engaging journey into the art and psychology of hyper-fixations, and share your own experiences with us!
Dive into the captivating world of Spotify Wrapped on The Chronic Contemplations Podcast with Bella! In this episode, we unravel the deeper meanings and psychological insights embedded in this annual music recap phenomenon.
Explore how your musical preferences reflect your psyche, why certain tracks evoke emotional connections, and the powerful role of nostalgia in shaping your identity. Frame Spotify Wrapped as a unique digital diary, documenting the soundtrack of your year and marking personal growth milestones.
Delve into the therapeutic potential of music, examining how specific genres and artists serve as emotional anchors during challenging times. Uncover the social and cultural influences embedded in Spotify Wrapped, creating a sense of community through shared playlists and collaborative listening experiences.
Join Bella as she navigates the intricate psychological landscape of Spotify Wrapped, inviting you to reflect on your own Wrapped results and share your insights on social media. Tune in for a psychoanalytic journey through the music that defined your year!
In this debut episode, Bella introduces herself and the origins of the "Chronic Contemplation" podcast. Inspired by the struggle to articulate thoughts, she dives into her influences, from TikTok's Vin Giang to the conversational vibes of Emma Chamberlain and the deleted podcast by YouTuber Kelly (Youjin).
Bella shares her aspirations for the podcast, a space for brain-dumping hyper-fixations and exploring deep thoughts. Join her as she reflects on the timing of starting this journey in college, and get a glimpse of what to expect from future episodes. Welcome to the unfiltered and contemplative world of "Chronic Contemplation." Thanks for tuning in!