If you have you consciously create and choose another reality, one that is closer to the truth of your higher being, then a strong focus and willpower is needed to embody the frequency of this reality on any possible level. It´s  the prerequisite for you to make it experienceable. On the way there, it often feels like 2 realities exist in us at the same time and it takes strength to hold both of them in your nervous system. What you still experience on the outside is the old, mostly unconscious manifestation and the new one is still taking physical shape, but already exists on another level. Everything in you may be oriented to this reality and there will be offers of your old self, which may also seem exciting and lucrative, but if you tune into it, they carry the old energy within themselves, wrapped in a new cover Then you need to stay true to your vision, even if you don't even have a clear picture in front of you, but only feel a vague energy of the new creation. Every conscious NO to the old creates space for the new and at the same time is a powerful yes in the field. It takes courage to resist these seductions and to recognise them as what they are, last temptations from the old field.

We live here on this planet in the constant conflict between our conditioned identities and their limitations and the inner call of our soul for freedom and thus authenticity. It feels like an inner tornness, like 2 levels, like 2 worlds. And that's exactly what it is..it's completely different frequencies and we can choose which ones we feed, at any moment, provided we are awake and determined. Our nervous system is the vessel, so we need to expand it over and over to be able to hold the light of the soul and let go of our programs. Authenticity allows us to embody our individual and unique expression of the one whole and bring it into the world. This attracts exactly the opportunities and people who can dance and create with you there. You can breathe and be and become wide and life lives through you.....

The body always knows the truth and you can use the body as a seismograph for your next steps, if something is serving you or not and if someones energy isn´t aligned with his words. The body always tells us the truth, sometimes it´s it's truth from the past and it´s functioning like a guard, so it´s reaction is not trustworthy for the now, as the body relives an event of the past. If we can understand this, we have the most precise messenger of the truth always with us. No guru or spiritual teacher can really know what the right next steps are for you, as we all are also human and see through our limited lense, even when we are so called not fully dreaming the dream of the separated self anymore. To be able to trust the body fully, we have to be in a regulated state of the nerves system. Only then will the body be able to give a clear message to us.  If we are not in a regulated state (and most of us aren't without even realizing) the body is in survival mode and will just respond out of this state, with has nothing to do with the now. So its message is not aligned with the present moment and will therefor send the wrong message to us. 

We play the game of separation here and consider ourselves to be this person we embody in this life, as if it were a state carved in stone. This first version of our avatar was never our conscious choice (from a soul perspective certainly it was), we were conditioned into this version of us. Many of us, including the people who look calm and relaxed to the outside, are often without knowing it, permanently in an unregulated state of their nervous system and see the world permanently from a survival mode. Here we have a very limited capacity for perception and can hardly imagine any other reality at all, here we are reactive machines one could say. But there are still countless of other realities of yourself, you can be anything you can imagine and what you long for. You only long for it because this version of you already exists in the quantum field, now at this moment, in a different frequency. You have your life in your hands if you choose to take full responsibility for your reality and focus on what you want to live, again and again, at every moment. You are this creator, you were never anything else, you just forgot how to play the game of life properly.

You probably know how to adapt almost automatically to the mood in your environment and dim your light when someone in your environment is going through a challenging time. This is a matrix program, "we suffer together and thus create a connection". We are often not aware that then no one is in the truth anymore. Our nervous systems automatically vibrate with each other, we as humans are social beings and compassion is a wonderful quality, but pity is of no use to anyone. You both lose yourselves in the illusion and thus feed the wrong self. True connection happens in the truth of your higher self, not in the ego. If you feel that you are losing yourself into the field of the other person to be in his suffering out of false loyalty, to supposedly support him, then wake up and come back to you. Keep the field clear and in truth, not in the apparent truth, but in the only one, keep the field with your true self. So you are the space that regulates without doing anything, without teaching, without robbing the other of his learning field, but you lead with presence. Here, and only here, can healing really happen, because here we are true seers.

Feeling separated and cut off from one's own depths, from one's inner source is the state of most people on this planet. To make the conscious choice to no longer feel numb or on the run and to feel more liveliness within oneself is and falls with the capacity of our nervous system to be able to maintain intensive states. If we were never held from our caregivers in strong inner movements as children, then we have never learned to hold ourselves in them purely biologically. We separate ourselves from our inner experience by thinking instead of feeling, working against it, breathing it away and distracting ourselves with various things and are therefore not at home in ourselves. Life seems to us as a consequence bland and sober, seemingly safe, but we feel no connection in ourselves and with the world. The good news is that we can learn and develop to stick to everything that appears in us. We can let what is shown in us flow unfilterled in the present moment without having to do anything with it. So we feel truly in our body and feel deeply alive, life pulsates in us, because nothing is really separated from us, we are life itself.

We all do it and have often done it as children, we drift into our dream worlds in the future... and dreamed away from the present moment, because it was simply much more beautiful there than what we experienced outside. That's how life could be endured. I have often wondered where exactly the difference is and how I can feel it when I dream away and fantasize and thus avoid the present moment, compared to the pure creation, where I create my reality as I would like it to be. One comes from the Ego, from our personality and thus from a point of lack and the other comes from our higher self, from our essence. If you catch yourself moving away from the present moment, then always come back to the now, don't let yourself be tempted to drift away into fantasy worlds and move away from the presence, this is simply avoiding life and keeping you trapped in the past.

Manifestation often feels like playing and that's a beautiful energy and a high state of being. We might think, we can play a bit with energy and see what happens and if it is even possible to manifest etc. This cosmic "game" has consequences and is very powerful. It has power and if your awareness and focus is powerful and strong, then you can move to another version of yourself in a very short time. In order to slip into a new reality, everything that no longer vibrates with your new frequency wants to leave your field, so that what is now attracted by you can come in. Are you ready to let go to be able to receive? We often underestimate this process and its impact. I am always fascinated by how quickly things are "torn" out of my life, sudden and unexpected scenarios arise, which are often also unpleasant and challenging, to make room for the new version of me and my desire. If I hold on and don't  surrender, then I am blocking the entire manifestation, because nothing can come in, as the space is already occupied. Where do you hold on to things, humans, identifications that are no longer meant to be part of your life and refuse to grow?

Do you know the magical moment in the morning when you only perceive space, peace and full potential? If you haven't fully woken up yet or rather before you fall asleep again? Fallin asleep into this perceived limitation of being a separate being with your name, your preferences and your story? If you are attentive and mindful, then you perceive it. That moment, where you are still a nobody, a space, pure energy between the worlds. Expand this sacred moment, every morning a little bit more, become this experience. This can be one of the keys for you to experience yourself tangibly as what you really are, pure divine consciousness.

Why do some of us constantly experience situations in life where they have to fight their way through again and again and can prove to themselves and the world how "strong" they are. According to the motto "Life, you can't get me small, I can overcome anything" (which of course attracts them even more situations to fight in their lives), but not as a wise and strong inner attitude to face challenges awake and resting in themselves, but as a declaration of war. Still others seem to attract situations where they suffer and feel like victims of life and circumstances and others where fear and doubt repeat themselves again and again. We ourselves, of course unconsciously, create again and again these situations in our lives, which appear "accidental" on the outs and with which we then have to deal. If we go back even further and explore which part of us this tailor-made scenario unconsciously serves and which identity keeps alive with it, then you have a chance to interrupt this cycle. This presupposes that you take responsibility for your unconscious manifestations and recognise yourself as the creator of your life.

Do you know the guilt and shame of taking time for yourself and even putting your relationship with yourself first? In the matrix, this is often called "selfish". I would reverse it exactly, not doing it is selfish. How can you be a light from an unconscious personality for yourself and thus also in the world? Is anything else on your daily to-do list really more important than becoming truly aware of "yourself" in yourself? Without going inwards and feeling what looks out of you, what perceives so called reality, what rests behind all the worldly events, it becomes almost impossible to experience this in a tangible way. You can read about it, read thousands of books, attend courses, learn techniques, but to experience it, tangible... truly, that's what makes the difference. That takes time and energy...and can there really be something that's more important than that? When you have found yourself in yourself, felt yourself, then you stop running, you run less and less and what you truly are becomes more and more real. But it takes your dedication and your time....the clear decision to put yourself first

What is your true purpose in this incarnation? And does that actually exist, the ONE mission? Or is it much more true that we always embody our "mission" when we are awake and conscious? That every breath, every action, every expression is where our mission is alive? How we touch the world, be touched by our own? If we are one with all that is, then we are connected with the one truth, we are then an expression of that one truth and is not that our only true "mission" that is then expressed in every action?

Consciousness is the only reality that exists. Whenever you are saying to yourself "this is me, this is how I am, I am that kind of a person", you are running a program, you are trapped in the Matrix. The only truth is "I am the I am", that´s it. You are everything and nothing, you are consciousness in a physical vehicle, in a human body. It is such a trap to put ourselves in a box with a name on and this is than our life. The worst is, that all of these programs has nothing to do with us. We are conditioned from our ancestors, parents, teachers, friends, society etc., and we don't even know that we have a choice to just decide to step out it. As all of it is unconscious, we are just letting these believes drive the bus, wich we call our life. You have the choice to free yourself, every single moment. So watch yourself, whenever you have the thought "this is me" or "I am that kind of a person", you are deepening the false self, the imposter in you. Be brave and let your higher self lead this incarnation, therefore let go of all identifications and become a nobody to be able to become everything. 

To feel yourself pur and vulnerable again, without masks and rolls, to perceive this raw core in you, that is intimacy for me. You allow yourself to see yourself completely, with everything that is there and to love and fully accept you with it. No judgement, no "wanting to get rid of it", pure acceptance for everything that is there. Then the protective walls collapse more and more, because there is nothing left to hide. You recognise this innocent and untouched core in you again and an incomparable closeness and depth to yourself arises. Only then can you be really close to someone else.

I invite you to courageously and truthfully question your deeper intentions behind your actions. And don't stop at the first answer you get, it's definitely  coming from your ego, dive deeper and deeper and be bold. Why are you really calling your friend? To hear how he oder she is doing? Or because you're actually lonely underneath? There is nothing wrong with it, but own it and take care of this loneliness with yourself first, let it be there, feel it and then let it go. Or why do you want to apologise to someone? Really for the other person? Or to be able to feel the superficial "peace" and "harmony" in yourself again, because you do not want to feel the feelings of guilt that have been waiting for your loving attention and embrace for ages. You are not a giver if you carry out your actions out of a deeper lack in your person. Then you take energy from the other to replenish yourself for a short moment, to get short-term satisfaction and deep inside you it continues to ferment... until the next opportunity that life offers you.

Are you living in the zone of magic? Do you know, it´s just a question of the vibration you are in, as your higher self IS pure magic, is where the miracles happen, is beyond logic, is infinite and abundant. As this is what we truly are, we can access this state at any moment. Most humans have forgotten about this, have forgotten about the truth, it seems they have lost access to that state, but that is a lie, it´s just hidden underneath the persona and their believes and story. Wake up and live your live out of your higher self and NOT out of a program in the matrix. It´s not complicated or just for so called "special beings", it´s for you and me, for everyone who is willing to drop the false self.

Be at peace with reality, even if it is challenging. If you are not at peace with the now, you are emanating more energy on what you do not want. Energy always follows the attention. You struggle with the movie on the screen instead of transforming the projection wich comes from within you and that is causing the story on the screen. What is, is already there, it has already manifested. How much sense does it make to fight against it? None at all.  If your vessel is full to the limit, how are new things supposed to get in there? Always remember, you don't get what you want, you will get what you already are! Therein lies the magic, the power and the change.

That sounds weird, doesn't it? But it is the same. What we all seek is within us, is always there, was always there and will always be there. You've heard that many times, I suppose. But mental understanding will not help you, only the true feeling and perception of your divine essence will open this truth for you. You can still read 100 spiritual books, travel to big gurus, search everywhere and there is nothing wrong with that. At some point it will exhaust you so much, soften you, let you resign ... hopefully. Then you are ready to stop, stop yourself as a person, stop your programs and give up. Give up the search and find out with all your being. Here and now...it's here, right now in this moment...

We all give ourselves the "drug shot" several times a day, the dopamine kick to cover up what is in us and hurts under the surface. This can be anything, we can even use a prayer to not feel what is alive in us and distract us. This is always a movement away from ourselves, we close ourselves up again and send what has made it´s way to the surface to get released back into our system. "No, you're not welcome, I don't want you, not yet, to overwhelming"....that's the message towards these parts in us. This is avoidance and blocks the natural flow of energy in you more and more. What you really are, the energy that naturally lives in you cannot come to light. Everything that lies above wants to be felt briefly, appear in your space for a moment without any judgement and then say goodbye. Your system is constantly trying to free itself from the old to make space for the truth...for ecstasy, love, joy and bliss. 

We are addicts, addicted to our identity, to the next drug shot, to be able to identify ourselves again and again with something, with something that keeps this person that we are playing here alive. As long as we fully identify with this character, we are prisoners. Only once you have looked at the stage from the perspective of the viewer, the pure consciousness, have focussed your gaze on your avatar, a choice begins, a piece of freedom begins, life begins. Everything that you can perceive can´t be you, as you would have disappeared already like thoughts, emotions, sensations...all objects, they all come and go, over and over, what lasts is you! Consciousness is the only truth thats existing!