Emotionally unavailable men, through the lens of a verbal reading of “What men don’t want women to know”. For the woman who ever wondered why being mean made him text more, come closer, and why men enjoy “mean women” who “treat them badly”. The way dealing with these men can come with physical and mental pain, bargaining, and changing yourself to meet them where they are, and the regression that comes with that. Unpacking the lived experience of what it means to be a lover girl in the face of men who are on a quest of finding targets and victims to add to their roster. And more importantly, the misogyny that often is found in emotionally unavailable men.
This opens up with therapy vibes, then pivots to a male POV of why men operate as they do with women (Reading the chapter “Double Standards”). Then cuts to a breakdown of the literature, and an analysis of why emotionally unavailable men interact with women who want serious relationships. The episode ends with a personal and semi-recent story of my brush with emotionally unavailable men.
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Can you tell when someone has a premium membership to the boys club?
This episode contains a reading of the chapter “Men protecting men” written by Smith and Doe in 1998.
Opening up a sociocultural conversation on what the boys club looks like in 2025 in the military, your work place, your relationship, your friendship circle and identifying it’s male and female members.
For those affected by the benefits the boys club offers its members, this is a no sugar, straight up read, from one of the most controversial and hidden gem books on dating and men.
This is a discussion on men (and sadly, sometimes women) who protect cheating/cheater types, misogynist, exploitative men, and those assisting in making sure some of the worst men you know have friends, jobs, promotions, access to money and endless opportunities despite how menacingly they move through society.
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Loving the lie and not the man means the guy you created in your head, the version he showed himself early on to be (the classic first 2-3 weeks), or the person he tries to tell you he is, but actively shows you he isn’t. The lie hits like a drug whether we’re believing it, reliving it, or telling it to ourselves. This episode looks at the lies we tell ourselves and the lies we believe that are directed at us. How we find ourselves in self told lie loops, and when the lies go on for years. How they finally come to an end, and ways we can find the lies in advance.
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Yes, people pleasing has the opposite effect you think it has. If you call yourself a people pleaser as a badge of honor, this is an episode on why you're not having the impact you want to have. A honest look at how people pleasers are perceived, avoiding being passive aggressive, why healthy conflict can be good, and all the ways people pleasing can be deeply unsettling.
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Are we allowed to admit on the internet that we’ve been insecure at any point about our academic and career experiences?
Today’s episode is about what career insecurity looked like within me, what fueled it externally, how it symptomatically presented itself to others, as well as the stressors and aggravators to it.
For people who’s career insecurity reigns deep, why it’s not only you and some personal stories of my experiences with saboteurs from equal to higher levels.The toxic co workers, nepo hires, and toxic bosses who passed on theirs to me.
How to spot and avoid sabotage before it’s too late, and how to chip away at your insecurity if you don’t have generational background knowledge on career climbing.
A question that’s been stuck on internet users' minds since 2016, answered in thorough detail by two different women who came to their own conclusions among one another throughout their 20’s.
No secret investigations, just two unwilling participants who were subjected by republicans in hiding or liberal and leftist self proclaimed men for 8+ years who were red pill sick.
We talk about tactics used on us, the inexplicable feelings these men gave us while we were ignorant to the tactics, times they successfully played in our face, how they’ve evolved the ways we could have prevented it, clocked it sooner, and what about us made us prone to these men.
We end with remedies and solutions, as always, and make sure you guys have the answers thart we didn’t when we needed them most.
This episode is a continuation of the previous episode prior to this one.
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If you ever wondered if the guy who treated you like shit went on to become the dream man for the next woman - today’s special guest is the woman the Scorpio “changed” for 👀
“Strawberry” joins us today to tell us all about his new sugar daddy + financially generous approach to dating since leaving my home town, and what the changes look and felt like from her perspective as someone who had no idea who he was.
This one is for every woman who cant stopping thinking about how their exes or situationships went on to become a better man, who think that they “trained him to be better” and “become the perfect boyfriend” for all the women who came after them.
Why this isn’t true, and how these emotionally lazy men just slide back into their default setting = money.
We revel in his new identity shift, hear about the con man lie he shares with women about how he was MY BOYFRIEND for two years? (The breakup content begs to differ).
Just an all around, comedic, therapy and closure themed episode that goes back to the OG lore of the roots of this podcast.
Whether you were the one who centered a man and drifted from your friends OR your friends disappeared so they could center a man in peace (it happens, y’all). This is a firsthand perspective on what it feels like to be that friend who let men disrupt her circle, and how that isolation either happens to you or because of you.
We’re looking at all sides of it in this exact order, and closing it off with when it's time to cut the cord or how to close the gap, IF it’s reconcilable.
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For the naive who may not understand what insecurity and malignancy shows up as in friendship dynamics - this episode is about how being a “girls girl” will be weaponized by friend collectors and women aiming to level you with them.
This is about friendships in adulthood, why you can’t take on charity friendships, and how the stakes are more serious as your life decisions manifest into reality.
But dont worry - these types usually pick victims. So it’s nothing directly about you here - it’s just whoever they can get to say yes to them first.
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Walking you through the eerie, dead-on parallels between toxic relationships and toxic workplaces.
How they both love bomb, devalue, and try to drain you dry. If you’ve ever questioned why you
feel like you’re working harder just to be respected less, this is why.
I break down how these environments condition you to overextend, accept less, and fight to prove your worth until you finally leave or get left on read.
You can expect us to talk about red flags, real remedies, and how to mentally exit a situation before they try to discard you like a used-up tool.
I also give you my smoothie recipe for burnout brain (yes, we’re healing from the inside out) and strategies to stay sane without snapping or crying your way into a sad girl hangover.
And at the end? I go off-script with the chat about never going monster mode, and how eerily similar the playbook is between toxic bosses and toxic boyfriends.
Disclaimer: All commentary is based on broad workplace dynamics and not reflective of any specific company or individual. This episode is intended to help others navigate difficult professional environments with clarity, compassion, and strategy.
If you’ve been centering men to the point where you’ve lost yourself, this is a walk through of symptoms, signs, and what the other side looks like when you made it all the way out (no judgement zone).
I talk about the signs you might be a love addict, what it’s actually stealing from you, and why it’s so hard to stop chasing that high.
We go into why “chill girl” energy is usually just low self-worth in disguise, how love addiction becomes your whole personality, and how most of us are just addicted to hope, not actual connection.
You’ll also hear the exact steps I recommend to move on and rebuild. Not just from a man, but from the whole fantasy. This isn’t about being bitter or anti-love. It’s about finally making peace with your own life and letting that be enough.
This is for the women trying to decenter men, figure out who they are outside of being desired, and stop wasting their glow on bare-minimum energy.
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Why you’re not lazy or broken, and how to gently pull yourself out of task paralysis and flight mode after a nervous system shut down. This one’s for anyone who’s been deep in the slump from hell and is ready to feel human again.
For those who get the scaries before work (toxic work environment vibes) and feel genuinely guilty or like they’re doing something wrong by not centering work - let this episode be your reminder.
Not making your work your entire personality is a normal thing to do, and will save you from pain and heartarche if you get laid off or find yourself affected by lay offs (like I was and announce in todays episode)
The only person who should be centering the company is *MAYBE* the person who owns it, and the version of yourself that is clocked in and being paid to care.
Decentering work is about resisting the narrative that you need to be constantly “on” for your place of your employment (unless you work for Tesla and are a surgeon or nurse, sorry besties).
When you center yourself and claim back your personal priorities, you are well on your way to stop centering fixing a deliberately broken dynamic, and are headed back home to you.
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The ultimate glow is the one that comes from within. That's the one that doesn't involve the external validation that we've been socially nudged to seek out.
A New Years special, this episode covers topics about how men center other men, dating apps being a trap for women who center men, and personal stories of times I learned my own personal lessons the hard way. We also discuss what to do if you have friends who center men, and we send off 2024 together by the end of it.
Even the best get got. And you know it’s never on any shame here. This is a 2 hour, cautionary dating story-time about a man with dirty-john motivations, lying, deceptive tendencies, fake-charming qualities and scamming ways. Honestly? This story could have stopped one date in, so you know the willingness to be lied to here was peak. Alas, during the events and even up till right now, the plot was too good to stop.
You’ll scream, laugh, cry and hopefully not fall for the same traps I did
Events in this story originally took place in October 2024 and were shared as a 2024 Christmas Day story on a live stream on twitch. Walk down the path of how we got here through every moment of clarity, from first swipe to the bitter block.
Not knowing that you're perceived as a hot girl doesn't stop other people from thinking it about you, unfortunately. And there are some things hot girls just know after a life that's been well lived.
If you're new to being attractive or are on the path of going there (plot twist, we're all cuties), you can find yourself in the throws of bad faith actors, or overwhelming attention that has negative impacts. You might not even understand where that energy is coming from and why it's so pervasive.
Today's episode combines the experiences of fleeksie and guest star Fendi Faith to answer what seems like mysteries to those who found themselves in hot-girl territory.
Together in this episode, we catch those up to speed who are new to having sexual appeal, or those who are looking to own their status as a hottie, yes, even for those who have made it to this place against their own will.
This episode contains a bonus ending of unhot things to do as a girl and has zero tips for appealing to the male gaze.
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Toxic households can make you feel stuck, stagnant, and held back. Listen to this when you need to hear that you're not stuck, and why taking the first steps to get out and reclaim your individuality are the best immediately affirming actions you can make in leaving- and not just escaping, but ascending. There is more to life then the situation you're living in and today's episode is a reminder of that and actionable steps you can take.
Ever wondered where phrases like "High value woman", and narratives of women *Having* to settle after arbitrary ages in their early mid 20's came from? Meet Kevin Samuels, the now late youtuber who used his platform of over 1.4 million youtube and Instagram followers to spread these messages and many more!
Today's episode is humor themed, and is a brief glossing of how Kevin Samuels used his platform and time on earth to use women as punchlines and props in his content.
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For large transitions, and when you're scared you're not going to be ok. This episode recounts the events I mentally went through when moving out, and how I came to develop my sense of "I'm gonna be ok no matter what" over a 2 year time span, after moving out of my moms house.
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While I’ve always had an inclination for solitude, I still found myself occasionally buying into the narrative, during my youth and adulthood, where I believed it was one of the worst things that could ever happen to me. Today’s episode is about acceptance of isolation, whether it was self-induced or randomly brought upon you, and how to know when you found peace with it and can even celebrate it. This episode starts at 0 and goes to 100 around 12 minutes in.
