I can't remember feeling little, and I'm in desperate need of a label, a definition beyond my name, the years I've lived or gender. a discussion- with whoever I was in the moment- about the not knowing how to exist without observing the fact that I do. And obsessing over it, my own existence- call it narcissism, call it pathetic, call it sleep deprivation. ▪︎follow me on Instagram @updatedwupasana , @ghostofwillow , cover art by Pragati BS Instagram- @pragatibs_

I left everything I knew, it's not as aesthetic as running off to Europe in your 20s and the beautiful Instagram reels that come along- it's pretty magnificent though, to see myself outside everything I thought defined me, but also quite lonely. Here is my renaissance- summarised. I will talk to you more often now (or not, you never know). ▪︎ follow me on Instagram @updatedwupasana , @ghostofwillow , cover art by Pragati BS Instagram- @pragatibs_

A recap of 2022 and a start to 2023! ▪︎https://www.savethechildren.org/us/what-we-do/emergency-response/refugee-children-crisis/ukrainian-refugees ▪︎ follow me on Instagram @updatedwupasana , @upasanaraghu_ , cover art by Pragati BS Instagram- @pragatibs_

talking about my recent struggle with none other than this temple that's withering through life, my body. TW: talking about body image issues and disordered eating (in brief), and loads of tears shed (cringe but needed to keep it raw and real) ▪︎follow me on Instagram @updatedwupasana , @upasanaraghu_ , cover art by Pragati BS Instagram- @pragatibs_

Another rant to remember: talking about my happy place- the train station, social media addiction, depression and hygiene, children and philosophy, AND A SPECIAL MESSAGE FOR DA BDAY GWORL MINOOOOO ▪︎listen to Slow Down by Laufey- https://open.spotify.com/track/4KLZOU5V5XuEkvytSgyW6u?si=Bqqz2GOSRG6JUD_HsrXA7Q&utm_source=copy-link , ▪︎follow me on Instagram @updatedwupasana , @upasanaraghu_ , cover art by Pragati BS

talking about midterms, anxiety about my future and career, my poetry, my new found interest in God and religion, and my coping mechanism- playing dress up and taking sexy pictures. Hope you like this one and thank you for all the support on the last episode as well! ▪︎Instagram- @upasanaraghu_ @updatedwupasana , my photographer best friend- @talur_photography

These days, I feel nothing but like a sylvia plath poem. This episode is me uncovering my rawest thoughts and emotions, and how the past few months have treated me. I talk about mental health, rehab, love and lust. And of course, there are a good set of sex jokes. • drug addiction helplines- https://indianhelpline.com/De-Addiction-Helpline/ • Instagram- @upasanaraghu_ @updatedwupasana

The timeline of how everything went down, how women empowerment changed how sexual misconduct is dealt with and how it helped put an end to so many criminals. Everything you need to know about the Me Too movement. ▪︎Aarti Mukhedkar Instagram post- https://www.instagram.com/p/CYsjqnKJaZ0/?utm_medium=copy_link , Petition- www.change.org▪︎Sources: https://www.learningtogive.org/resources/philanthropic-meaning-metoo-movement , https://feminisminindia.com/2020/02/03/india-metoo-movement-2020/ , https://www.indiewire.com/2017/12/golden-globes-2018-actresses-wear-black-sexual-harrasment-protest-1201907705/ , https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/MeToo_movement , https://www.vox.com/identities/2019/10/4/20852639/me-too-movement-sexual-harassment-law-2019

Talking about my 2021 and the world's 2021 lol. andddd- HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!! Have an incredible year, my loves! ▪︎follow me on Instagram- @upasanaraghu_ , @weirdotalking and follow me on Twitter- @UpasanaRaghu

Talking about the exams, my eMoTiOnS and mental state, art projects, Red (Taylor's Version), also about how I am the new ho ho ho Santa. ▪︎follow me on Instagram- @upasanaraghu_ , @weirdotalking and Twitter- @UpasanaRaghu

Talking about gender and gender identity, pronouns, internalized homophobia and moreee .... while on my period and in pain. And also yelling at neighbors and fireworks. ▪︎sources- https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gender_identity , https://www.instagram.com/p/CVQIcJUrCg4/?utm_medium=copy_link , https://wearerestless.org/2021/06/28/fighting-internalised-homophobia/ , https://withtherapy.com/therapist-insights/what-is-internalized-homophobia

Talking about ghosts, spirits, demons, aliens and Halloween!!! 🎃🎃🎃

Talking about sexuality, sexualities, my sexuality, questioning, coming out and more!

Talking about menstruation, the stigma surrounding it, period poverty and more! ▪︎help by donating to- https://period.org/donate , https://www.giveindia.org/program/Help-poor-women-get-access-to-sanitary-pads , https://www.homelessperiodproject.org/donate

Talking about the first week of offline school!! Spoke about all the pain and misery my foot and its sneaker put me through and all the awkward encounters. Also, this episode is just a love letter to my besties ▪︎go wish my friend a happy belated birthday lmao- @abhirami.b.h on instagram

Talking too much about my favourite character and my love for reading over the years, hope you enjoy!

Talking about toxic masculinity, it's effects and certain phrases we casually use that add to flame. Also talking about Harry Styles, his vogue cover and why everyone was so upset. Hope you enjoy!!

Talking about my experience with religion, my thoughts and beliefs, my opinion and views on God and questions I have on the subject. Hope you enjoy!

Talking about middle school trauma, love, friendship, women empowerment and laptop chargers and horny cars 🤠 hope you enjoy!

It's been so long since I did a poetry episode! I'm so proud of this poem, I hope you liked it. But speaking of women and allowing them to do whatever they want to- please please educate yourself on what's happening in Afghanistan and who the Taliban are. It's absolutely horrifying and so incredibly awful and sad. Help by donating if you can to- https://www.unicef.org/afghanistan/take-action , https://www.savethechildren.org/us/where-we-work/afghanistan , https://womenforafghanwomen.org/ . Sexual assault news from Pakistan- https://m.dw.com/en/pakistan-outpouring-of-anger-after-woman-assaulted-by-over-400-men/a-58893578