In this chapter of This Is It, I open up about my mental health — the shadows I’ve been walking through, and the light I’m slowly finding again. I also share a new piece I’ve written, a hauntingly imaginative poem-story perfect for Halloween. It’s raw, creative, and a little eerie… with a few extra thoughts and surprises along the way.
On today’s chapter, I talk about my recent trip to beautiful Montreal, Canada, a waiter who fancied me, the issue with Ottawa and the people in it, my happier moods, and an update on my dad’s cancer diagnosis now that he’s finished chemo. I also touch on my milestone streams on Spotify and share my views on dating and where I stand with that. See you in the next chapter.
As most of you know I’ve been alone for a while, I’ve been missing some furry companionship. And so I’ll be meeting a kitty sometime in September. Her names Pekoe and my friend owns her but needs to rehome her as she has some interesting qualities lol. Listen to this short chapter of my little life.
This chapter is about drifting away from things no longer relevant to my life and focusing on myself and my current needs. Actually doing things that are gentle for my mental health and wellbeing. Not being part of a lifestyle that doesn’t involve growth. This chapter is a short one. Please enjoy!
I’m calling this chapter Chemo Complications because that’s exactly what we’ve been facing. The treatments, the side effects, the unexpected hospital stays — it’s all taken such a toll, not just on him, but on everyone around him. I wanted to use this space to open up a bit about what’s been going on, how it’s been affecting our family, and the kind of emotional weight that comes with watching someone you love go through something so intense. It’s one thing to hear about chemo; it’s another to live through the reality of it day by day. This episode is raw and personal, but I hope it helps anyone else out there navigating something similar feel a little less alone.
Burnout isn’t just about being tired — it’s a deep, soul-wearing exhaustion that creeps in when we’ve been pushing ourselves too hard for too long, often while pretending everything’s fine. In this chapter, we talk about the slow unraveling that comes with overcommitment, lack of boundaries, and emotional depletion
Gosh where do I even fucking start. The past few weeks have been emotionally exhausting, mentally exhausting, soulfully exhausting and physically exhausting. I’m just exhausted my dads cancer has just been traumatic with a shit storm of complications and I’m burnt the fuck out. Listen in to this chapter without kids in the room
This chapter talks about my personal tips and tricks to anal sex, what’s the deal with anal douches, types of lubes to use. Toys you can use and the magical touch of massage. And how to communicate with your partner/s. Hope this helps.
This chapter marks the end of the story with Almost Lovers. He told me this week that he’s selling his house and moving seven hours away for work. That means no more visits, no more fun, and no more in-betweens. It’s bittersweet—and honestly, kind of crappy—because now I have to open myself up again and find someone new I can trust. But that’s life. We grow, we change, and with that, this chapter closes.
Welcome to Almost Lovers, where passion ignites through words, touch, and unfulfilled desire. In this chapter, we explore the electric connection between two people who have never actually crossed the final line, but have shared steamy moments of sensual kissing, intense foreplay, oral pleasure, and intimate massages. It’s a story of chemistry, anticipation, and the thrill of being consumed by desire without going all the way. Tune in as we dive deep into the world of almost lovers, where the heat never fades, and the tension builds with every kiss, touch, and word.
In this heartfelt chapter, we explore the incredible journey of my father, from his childhood and teenage years to the moment he met my mother. Join us as we reflect on his experiences, the challenges he faced, and the strength he showed after his cancer diagnosis. This chapter is a tribute to resilience, love, and the power of family.
I always try to be authentic, and be myself. Life isn’t always easy and we all have dark clouds and they aren’t always dark. Sometimes they are grey and sometimes we allow some sun to peak through to brighten our days. It’s best to not allow those dark days to stay.
Disclaimer: This chapter is raw, emotional and real.
As someone who looks positive all the time we to have an extra layer below that positivity. This chapter talks about how my depression is affecting me currently. I’m extremely being vulnerable and speaking honestly about how I’ve been feeling lately and I am extremely emotional in this chapter. I touch on topics of grief, pet loss and my dad’s cancer and other mental health issues.
Most don’t see this side of me. As I put a different layer on the surface for everyone else to see. Most people who have depression fake their smiles and fake being happy all the time. But lately I’ve been very drained energy wise, mentally exhausted and just over it. This chapter is rawest in its entirety.
Kleenex will be needed.
I recently came out as a lesbian, embracing my desire to live authentically and be true to myself. I’ve realized that I no longer have a sexual interest in men, and I feel ready to step into this new chapter of my life with confidence. It’s an important part of my journey, and I’m excited to explore who I am and what this new phase holds for me. Listen to a few stories within this chapter and sit back grab a drink or a snack and let’s dive in.
In this chapter, I’ll share the story of how my nipple pasties unexpectedly popped off during my performance at the historic Mayfair Theatre, where I was the show opener for Forbidden Films. Along with that mishap, I’ll dive into a little backstory about the beauty and history of the theatre itself. Built decades ago, the Mayfair holds a special place in the city, known for its vintage charm and rich history.
For more information about the theatre check out their website https://mayfairtheatre.ca/
My father’s cancer has progressed to stage four, and it has spread to other parts of his body. This is the latest update on what’s happening. This chapter covers the type of cancer he has and the next steps going forward, as well as how I’m coping with this new situation.
This chapter is all about getting creative with yourself. For me, it’s writing, as I feel it’s my best outlet. I’ve never been one to paint or draw, but I have a way with words. Over the years, friends have always told me I should publish a poetry collection in a book. While I haven’t taken that step yet, I’m excited to share some of my latest pieces of work in this chapter. It’s a personal journey, and I hope my words resonate with you.
I wrote a new piece for the next smutty storytelling happening in a few months time. This morning while I was in the shower these words started to flow in my head and I knew I might have an exceptional new piece.
Disclaimer: This piece is graphic in nature which also touches on sexual trauma, alcohol use and is very detailed. Listeners please be advised and if this isn’t for you please pass on this chapter.
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On this chapter I talk about keeping an open heart, a open mind. And letting the divine lead me to the right person in my, when it comes to getting an emotional connection with someone. Whether that be with a male or female. Dating can be so tricky when you’re trans. I’m still not using the so called dating apps. And there’s been a little leeway with someone I was getting to know last year. Listen in on this short chapter.
In this chapter we dive into the often-overlooked aspect of dating—taking responsibility for your own actions and decisions. In a world where it’s easy to blame others for relationship woes, true personal growth starts with owning up to your part in the process. Whether it’s recognizing patterns, acknowledging past mistakes, or being honest about what you want, taking accountability can change the course of your dating life.
Throughout this episode, we’ll discuss how taking ownership of your dating decisions—whether that’s choosing a partner, handling conflict, or deciding when to walk away—is empowering.
Taking responsibility for your choices and behavior in dating is about more than finding a partner—it’s about growing as an individual. After all, accountability isn’t just about accepting blame when things go wrong; it’s about owning your power to make things go right.