After graduating college, I had a lot of reflecting to do about life - society - my past - and myself. Through combining age old English essays, I reflect on what my thought processes in life really mean, if any of these girls whom I blame for my destitute life is truly to blame, and begin to start shaping the idea that I'm the villain in my own story. Not in a totally evil or terrible way, but it wasn't others who cased and hurt me in unimaginable ways, but it was merely myself and my expectations that caused incompatibility and disappointment.