Have you ever felt like you were doing everything right—following the rules, checking all the boxes—yet somehow, you still felt… lost? Disconnected? Wondering if God was even listening?
Or maybe you’ve spent years chasing success, believing that once you reached the top, you’d finally feel whole… only to realize the emptiness never really left.
We’ve been there. And we know we’re not alone.
Welcome to The Wrestle—a podcast about the struggle, the doubts, and the turning points that bring us closer to God.
We’re here to have real conversations about faith—the kind that go beyond surface-level answers. We’ll talk about what’s truly available to us as followers of Christ… and how to overcome the very things that keep us from Him.
Because The Wrestle isn’t a sign that you’re failing—it’s an invitation. An invitation to dig deeper, to ask the hard questions, and to find the peace and purpose that only God can give.
So if you’ve ever felt like you’re wrestling with your faith… you’re in the right place. Join us as we break down The Wrestle—together.
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Have you ever felt like you were doing everything right—following the rules, checking all the boxes—yet somehow, you still felt… lost? Disconnected? Wondering if God was even listening?
Or maybe you’ve spent years chasing success, believing that once you reached the top, you’d finally feel whole… only to realize the emptiness never really left.
We’ve been there. And we know we’re not alone.
Welcome to The Wrestle—a podcast about the struggle, the doubts, and the turning points that bring us closer to God.
We’re here to have real conversations about faith—the kind that go beyond surface-level answers. We’ll talk about what’s truly available to us as followers of Christ… and how to overcome the very things that keep us from Him.
Because The Wrestle isn’t a sign that you’re failing—it’s an invitation. An invitation to dig deeper, to ask the hard questions, and to find the peace and purpose that only God can give.
So if you’ve ever felt like you’re wrestling with your faith… you’re in the right place. Join us as we break down The Wrestle—together.
Tatiana is joined by Justin and they discuss the theme of joy, emphasizing that it is found through experiencing Jesus. They reflect on how recent interviews and personal experiences highlight the importance of turning to Christ for peace and joy. They discuss the challenges of maintaining an eternal perspective during hard times and the significance of the atonement in finding joy. They also encourage you to seek God's love and guidance, assuring that joy is attainable through faith and turning to Christ.
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Tatiana is joined by special guest, Suzanne Rentmiester, and they discuss Suzanne's journey of faith and healing. Suzanne shares her struggles with generational trauma, negative self-talk, and the impact of her verbally abusive mother. Suzanne's turning point came in 2019 when she began the ARP program and the "He Did Deliver Me from Bondage" book. Through daily scripture study, journaling, and confession, she learned to reconcile with others and embrace the atonement's process of repentance and forgiveness. Suzanne emphasizes the importance of facing your personal storms and trusting in God's healing process, which transformed her from a victim to a thriver.
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Tatiana is joined by special guest, Bekah Sien, and they discuss Bekah's journey through a difficult marriage and the impact of the 12-step program. Becca describes her initial resistance to seeking help and how she eventually found solace and strength through the program. She emphasizes the importance of surrender and the enabling power of the Atonement. Bekah also highlights the transformative effect of personal revelation and the joy found in recognizing God's presence in daily life.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin and Krisha, and they discuss the biblical story of Alma and Amulek, emphasizing the importance of heeding God's calls. The conversation highlights the struggle between comfort and spiritual growth, using examples like Amulek and Enos. They reflect on personal experiences of faith, the challenges of trusting God's timing, and the need to align desires with divine guidance. The episode concludes with a reminder of the eternal nature of testimony and the continuous refinement of faith.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin and they discuss the wrestle with faith and the importance of overcoming personal obstacles. Tatiana shares a personal story about her high school swimming experience, highlighting how pride led her to miss opportunities for joy. They transition to discussing step six in the book "He To Deliver Me From Bondage" by Colleen Harrison, emphasizing the need to let desire work in you and yield to Christ's sanctification. They reference scriptures from First and Second Nephi, stressing the importance of asking questions and seeking divine guidance. The conversation concludes with a quote from President Nelson, encouraging you to come unto Christ for healing and guidance.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin and Krisha, and they discuss the concept of perfectionism and the need to admit weaknesses. They reference the book "Deliver Me from Bondage" by Colleen Harrison, which encourages honesty and vulnerability in confession. The conversation underscores the transformative power of grace, the importance of trusting in God, and the mutual support that comes from sharing personal trials and experiences.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin and they discuss being human and having weaknesses by acknowledging that we are merely mortal. They emphasize the importance of acknowledging human weaknesses and sharing them with trusted individuals like therapists or priesthood leaders for spiritual growth. They reference Colleen Harrison's book "He to Deliver Me from Bondage" and highlight the need for sincere repentance. The conversation includes personal anecdotes and scriptural references, such as Alma 22:18, to illustrate the process of overcoming sins and drawing closer to God. They stress the significance of complete honesty and the transformative power of the atonement.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin and they discuss the concept of "Woe unto the uncircumcised of heart" from Colleen Harris's book "He Did Deliver Me from Bondage." They emphasize the importance of a written inventory to examine and address destructive behaviors inherited from past generations. They share personal anecdotes and examples, such as the story of the roast from "The Four Agreements," to illustrate how traditions and experiences shape our actions. They stress the need for self-awareness, curiosity, and grace in understanding and changing these behaviors. The conversation concludes with the promise of healing and joy through honest introspection and divine guidance.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin and Krisha, and they discuss the journey of faith and the principles of the book "He To Deliver Me From Bondage" by Colleen Harrison, which follows a 12-step program similar to AA. They share personal experiences with faith, repentance, and the importance of writing by hand in the process. They emphasize the significance of honesty and the role of the Spirit of Christ in guiding and healing. They also highlight the transformative power of writing down thoughts and feelings, and the importance of recognizing and owning your truth to find peace and purpose in faith.
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Tatiana is joined by special guest, Lowell Beck, and they discuss his lifelong wrestle with faith, particularly after his father's mental decline and eventual death despite priesthood blessings promising healing. Lowell reflects on his faith journey, emphasizing the importance of holding onto what is known about God and trusting in His plan. He finds solace in scriptures and teachings, particularly Elder Holland's 2020 conference talk, which helped him reconcile his father's suffering. They advise others to persist in faith, as understanding and peace will come in time.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin and Krisha, and they discuss the struggles and doubts in faith, emphasizing the importance of self-reflection and emotional maturity. They explore the concept of step four in the 12-step process, focusing on taking an honest inventory of personal actions and their impact. They highlight the discomfort of confronting past mistakes but stress the importance of owning your role in events that transpire. The conversation also touches on the role of repentance as a panacea for personal growth and the need for continuous self-improvement to draw closer to Christ.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin and Krisha, and they discuss more of the principles of King Benjamin's promise, emphasizing the importance of being friends with Christ and seeking His atonement. They delve into step four of the process, which involves making a fearless written inventory of one's past to recognize personal weaknesses and sins. The conversation highlights the significance of repentance, the analogy of heart surgery, and the need to trust Christ as the ultimate healer, urging you to confront your mistakes and denials to find true peace and purpose.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin, and they continue their discussion on divine promises as part of the struggle to grow in faith. They explore the concept of wrestling with your faith as a sign of deeper commitment and a call to ask hard questions. Tatiana shares a personal story about kayaking with a young girl with social disabilities, emphasizing the importance of teamwork and grace. They discuss certain promises of the gospel, such as retaining a remission of sins, growing in knowledge, and not injuring others. They also highlight the need for parents to teach and discipline their children with love and understanding, drawing parallels to Christ's parenting style.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin, and they discuss many of the promises that come from living the gospel. They emphasize that the wrestle is an invitation to dig deeper and ask hard questions. The conversation highlights internal changes that come from seeking Christ, such as always rejoicing and retaining a remission of sins. They share personal stories, including Tatiana's experience with a young man from South America who improved his life through the gospel. The discussion underscores the importance of gratitude, praise, and the transformative power of internal changes in your relationship with God and others.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin and Krisha, and they discuss the struggle and doubts in faith, emphasizing the importance of deep, authentic conversations about God. They continue to explore King Benjamin's final sermon, focusing on the need to believe in Christ's wisdom and power, and the necessity of repentance. They highlight the significance of asking sincere questions and being open to change, drawing parallels King Lamoni and Nephi. The conversation underscores the transformative power of forgiveness and the importance of personal revelation and repentance in achieving a deeper connection with God.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin and Krisha, and they discuss the concept of remembering one's own nothingness and God's goodness, referencing scriptures and personal experiences. They highlight the necessity of daily prayer, repentance, and the sacrament for spiritual sustenance. The conversation also touches on the distinction between consistency and constancy, using examples from personal and professional life to illustrate the gradual, lifelong process of spiritual growth and the importance of God's mercy and willingness to change.
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Tatiana is joined by Tiffany Mansfeld, and they discuss their experiences with spiritual wrestling and faith. Tiffany shares her journey, growing up in a devout family, her parents' divorce, and her in-laws' decision to leave the church, which led her to question her faith. She describes her five-year struggle with these questions, her eventual decision to leave the church, and her later rebaptism. Tiffany emphasizes the importance of seeking spiritual experiences, asking for help, and maintaining gratitude. She also highlights the value of the 12-step program in her healing process and the significance of Jesus' presence in her life.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin and they finalize their 3-part discussion on the topic of Benjamin's promises, emphasizing the importance of trusting Jesus Christ and applying His atonement. They highlight the need to recognize and trust Christ, let go of guilt and resentment, and seek His presence daily. The conversation also touches on the idea that all truth and wisdom come from Christ, and that true self-mastery is achieved by turning ourselves over to Him. They also stress the importance of seeking Christ's power to garnish our thoughts and guide our actions, ultimately leading to a deeper relationship with Him.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin and they continue their discussion of Benjamin's promises, highlighting spiritual dyslexia, where individuals misinterpret commandments, leading to frustration and anxiety. They reference King Benjamin's sermon in Mosiah 4:14, emphasizing that the scripture is a promise, not a commandment, and requires faith in Jesus Christ. They share personal anecdotes, including Tatiana's experience with repotting plants to illustrate the importance of addressing spiritual roots. They also encourage you to seek and trust Jesus Christ, recognizing that true spiritual growth comes from a deep, personal relationship with Him.
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Tatiana is joined by Justin and they discuss the concept of spiritual dyslexia, where individuals focus on actions rather than the process of coming unto Christ. They reference Colleen Harrison's work, explaining that many Latter-Day Saints misunderstand scriptures like Moroni 10:32, which emphasizes coming unto Christ before denying ungodliness. They highlight King Benjamin's teachings in the Book of Mormon, where repentance leads to joy and peace. They stress the importance of seeking Christ first, as promises and blessings follow naturally. They also encourage you to pray and seek Christ, emphasizing that God's help is essential for spiritual growth.
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Have you ever felt like you were doing everything right—following the rules, checking all the boxes—yet somehow, you still felt… lost? Disconnected? Wondering if God was even listening?
Or maybe you’ve spent years chasing success, believing that once you reached the top, you’d finally feel whole… only to realize the emptiness never really left.
We’ve been there. And we know we’re not alone.
Welcome to The Wrestle—a podcast about the struggle, the doubts, and the turning points that bring us closer to God.
We’re here to have real conversations about faith—the kind that go beyond surface-level answers. We’ll talk about what’s truly available to us as followers of Christ… and how to overcome the very things that keep us from Him.
Because The Wrestle isn’t a sign that you’re failing—it’s an invitation. An invitation to dig deeper, to ask the hard questions, and to find the peace and purpose that only God can give.
So if you’ve ever felt like you’re wrestling with your faith… you’re in the right place. Join us as we break down The Wrestle—together.
