One of the hardest ones to publish for fear of ridicule and shaming.
But I know a lot of other people struggle with this topic.
By sharing, I hope the right people will know they’re not alone.
Here’s the deal:
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How does sex and love mix with performance artists?
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Us… This big group of wingbat rainbows, doing whatever the hell we want (with rules).
The creative mind and all of its cat wrangling…
Fleeting flings…
Deep-seated emotional ouchies…
Empty holes that need a hug…
The “Real” Thing…
… How do these interface with our primal instinct for smooches and cuddles?
In this episode, I talk about:
Recognizing My Attachment Patterns: I open up about my own struggles with attachment and how unresolved emotions from past addiction issues resurface in my relationships. It's like facing a recurring pattern—a "fractal" quality in emotions, where dealing with one problem opens the door to recognizing similar issues in other areas of my life, particularly with love and attachment.
Balancing My Performer and Private Self: I dig into the challenge of being a musician, how my onstage persona can feel like a mask, and how that impacts my sense of self-worth. There’s a particular post-performance emptiness that I often try to fill with relationships, which I’m beginning to understand can lead to a cycle of dependency.
Growth Through Honest Reflection: I share my journey toward deeper self-awareness, realizing how certain habits and behaviors reveal a need for validation that doesn’t actually satisfy. By embracing self-reflection, I’m finding ways to reshape my approach to love and relationships into something more genuine—moving from dependency to a place of wholeness, where I can grow with someone else without losing myself in the process.
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Yikes… My inner critic is flexing hard to retain my sense of pride on this one, dude.
Whatever.
Phok that guy.
Hugs,
Colin