Did you miss me? Let's catch up, grab some wine and listen in on my six-month recap of the good, the bad, and everything in between.

Oh, and welcome to season 3.

TW: Mentions of murder, sexual assault, and cannibalism. Listener discretion is advised.

Who really killed JonBenét Ramsey? Is the new suspect that was arrested the killer in the Idaho stabbings? Why do we continue glorifying serial killers such as Ted Bundy and Jeffrey Dahmer when we should be spotlighting the victims whose lives were cut short? Help us navigate these questions as we take you through this episode with our theories and opinions that you may or may not like. 

I shouldn't be here right now, I shouldn't even be writing this to you all right now. But I've been shown throughout all the bad this year has given me that I can accept outstretched arms with my own stuck to my sides. Thank you for continuing to listen to the words that come out of my mouth that I courageously put out here. 

There will be more to come, I can promise you that.

Would you believe it, I finally have a guest on here. And just like the beginning of this episode, it's nothing short of crazy. We get into how we became friends, our many adventures involving bottomless mimosas and creating a human wall to pee at the club, and the reason for this title. Because just like this podcast, we're all still figuring it out. 

If there's one thing that's been there for me this year, it's books. Through my hospital stay, long work days, solo vacation, outpatient program, and move, there wasn't a time my bag didn't have a novel waiting to be opened. So, I thought I'd share with you all the (40) books I read this year and tell you which are worth it and which can be left on the shelf. 

TW: mentions of weight and depression in episode, listener discretion advised.

Because sometimes you need to sit on your living room floor and spill your thoughts out into your microphone for more than just your cat to hear. I talk about feeling lost in my twenties, the advice I would give myself starting my twenties, and dealing with some body image issues and self-confidence. I can't wait to hear this back in a year and give that girl the hug I can't give myself right now and tell her it's okay not to be okay.

I hope this helps anyone who feels the same way, that's all I've ever set out to do.

hi guys, I know it's been another long time since we last talked. But I want you to know how thankful I am for you. One Friday night, this episode was done on a whim after a dinner of soup and bread. I came into my office in my new apartment and told you about my summer of healing and how I've been doing with my mental and physical health. How being in an out patient program for my depression saved my life and made me realize how toxic Instagram really is.  How you can accept new friendships with shaky hands and Sunday brunches. How you can paddleboard with MS and not fall off in the lake. How a small feline's purr can melt your heart in the morning and evening. How you can have really good days and really bad days. How even through everything you've been through, you still find a reason somewhere in you to keep going. This was scary to come back and do so thank you for allowing my words to be the soundtrack you listen to.

hi, I know it's been a bit. Just know I love you and you taking the time to listen to any part of this episode means more to me than you can ever imagine. I'll see you again as soon as I can.

p.s. being honest is powerful

TW: Mentions of sexual assault 

Here are some links for resources and ways to donate and help. I'm here for you and love you.

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TW: Mentions of suicide and sexual assault in this episode.

If this episode is all over the place, then I'm not sorry. Because sometimes that's how life and especially love can be. And that's what I talk about in this episode. We go into the difference between saying the word "love," versus feeling it and I let you in on a little confession. What that is you may ask? Well, listen and you'll find out. 

Are you surprised I actually lived up to my promise for a new episode this week? Don't worry, unlike that guy, I keep my promises. In this episode, we talk about a lot of things ranging from new shows I've been watching to a new segment called rate my mental health for the week. I go into the idea of learning to appreciate the simpler things in life and how the person I am now is a lot better for me than the person I was living in and for last year. I hope you can take something from this ramble of a chat and I will see you all again next week, that's right you heard that.