Lana was running for her life.

Just a few minutes ago, just taking a breather outside a bar, she had seen something she probably shouldn’t have.

A car pulled up.

A group of bikers approached it.

A conversation about “guns” and “prices” started.

& Lana didn’t want to be around for the end.

As the night air whipped past her head, her gears were in overdrive. Now it wasn’t just the shady characters at the bar she feared. Now it seemed everyone wanted to hurt her.

You see, Lana wasn’t in a normal state of mind.

The reason for the breather at the bar was because the LSD & weed were getting to her. Her mind was running long before she literally was. & once it started going, it felt impossible to stop.

While she did calm down that night, panic attacks & anxiety haunted Lana for years after.

At first, she blamed the LSD.

Later, she found another reason

Chapters

(00:00) Intro.

(02:57) Growing up out of place.

(05:33) First LSD experience.

(08:29) Going to Italy.

(11:33) The bad trip.

(21:33) Being a nurse during COVID.

(24:36) Ayahuasca: Finally facing her fear.

(28:48) Peyote: Finding the origin of anxiety.

If you’re experiencing difficulty after a psychedelic experience & are looking for help, consider contacting the Fireside Project. They provide free, confidential support. Go to https://firesideproject.org/ or call their free hotline at 623-473-7433.

Secret Wilderness' theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field.