From before she could remember, Kylie was told exactly who she was & should be. The only problem:
It never felt like the truth to her.
So Kylie decided to find herself, herself.
Carrying a painful secret, she left her home and her faith on a journey to answer one question:
Who am I?
A question she’d confront head-on during MDMA therapy.
Chapters
(00:00) Intro clip
(02:42) What was it like growing up for you?
(05:45) What’s an example of you being taught something that caused you resentment?
(11:22) How did you make the decision to break out on your own?
(15:06) What was making decisions like out on your own?
(20:00) What was your first MDMA experience like?
(23:09) How the Tao Te Ching helped Kylie.
(25:09) Kylie’s experience with psychedelics before MDMA.
(26:28) MDMA comes on.
(27:21) “Spiritual” experience with MDMA begins.
(30:07) The feeling she’d “always craved.”
(36:38) What did you bring up? Kylie’s abortion story.
(38:50) What perspective did MDMA give you on your abortion?
(41:38) What did you feel when you relived your abortion?
(42:43) Kylie’s liminal experience: the voice of her child.
(51:00) What did you think of yourself before and after the MDMA experience?
(54:01) How did all this feel coming up?
(54:35) How did you tell yourself the story of the abortion?
(57:54) Kylie lives another life (and dies).
Secret Wilderness' theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field.