Recently I decided I'm going to start going to AA meetings again. This decision has stirred up a lot of inner conflict - especially around my identity as it relates to addiction, sobriety, and what it means if I utilize AA meetings for support. I've never felt comfortable identifying as an addict. I've definitely struggled with some severe addiction in the past. My late teens and early twenties were riddled with extreme bipolar swings entangled with heavy alcohol and drug use. And even after my 30 day stay in a rehab facility in Georgia back in 2018, it wasn't long at all before I was drinking and using drugs again. It wasn't until 2020 when I started working with a my Reiki Master Teacher in high-level energy mentorship containers that I was able to really start changing the internal landscape required for me to quit nicotine and stop relying on substances as a copying mechanism for the pain I was carrying within. Flash forward to moving out to Southern California this past May - I was warned multiple times about how much more prevalent using is in the social landscape out here. I quickly found all these warnings were well merited. I've been navigating this social landscape out here for about 6 months now - and I've reached the decision to start going to AA meetings to build sober community for myself. But like I said, this decision didn't come without some major internal conflict around what this says about who I am as a person who has struggled with addiction. This video gives a timeline of my history with addiction and a raw play-by-play narrative as I navigate what it means for me to seek support from AA meetings. By the end, I finally reach a satisfying meaning to it all—one that steps outside the polarizing 'black or white' thought patterns that have always felt too constricting for howI relate to my identity. Check it out and let me know if anything resonates with you. xoxo Steve ____________________________________ Priority Waitlist for Reiki Level 1: Principles of Practices of Energy Work: https://steven-warner.mykajabi.com/reiki-level-1-priority-waitlist As always - be sure to follow me on all my other platforms. Click the link below: https://steven-warner.mykajabi.com/sacralsteve And hop on my email list for first notice on all my exclusive offers, events, and updates: https://steven-warner.mykajabi.com/get-on-email-list