Why does this keep happening to me? Sovereignty, manipulation, and a portal to power

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Ritual Alchemist

Brittany Loeser and Ellee Best

13 episodes

5 days ago

Have you ever had that moment where everything in your life just stops making sense? Like the things you used to believe, the way you used to live—suddenly feels like someone else's life? That’s your intuition inviting you into a more authentic life. We’re Brittany and Ellee, two friends who walked straight into the unknown and are figuring it out as we go. Ritual Alchemist is a podcast about spiritual awakening, intuition, shadow work, and what happens after you decide to stop abandoning yourself. Real conversations and practical tools to help you navigate the mess.

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Why does this keep happening to me? Sovereignty, manipulation, and a portal to power

Ritual Alchemist

53 minutes 43 seconds

5 months ago

Why does this keep happening to me? Sovereignty, manipulation, and a portal to power

In this episode, we explore the polarity between what we call “dark magic” and “light magic”—not in the occult sense, but as energetic forces rooted in unconscious taking vs. conscious giving. We unpack nervous system regulation, church conditioning, manipulative tendencies that masquerade as kindness, and why radical honesty is essential to integrity and connection. You’ll hear real stories, practical reframes, and spiritual insight on how to patch your leaky bucket, release shame, and show up in your fullness. This is soul alchemy in action.

Timestamps

01:30 What is “dark magic”? The energy of unconscious taking

08:09 There is no arrival—why the work is lifelong

14:06 Self-sovereignty: owning your right to exist

16:00 Flipping the script on “Why does this keep happening to me?”

23:12 Church conditioning: manipulation disguised as righteousness

26:30 Everything you ever wanted… you’re here to give to yourself

43:05 Growth means changing your mind: evolution requires it
47:40 No arrival, only integration: you're always in process

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