“I thought I was the biggest piece of shit walking on God’s green earth.”
In this gripping episode of Recovering Out Loud, Anthony sits down with Bo as he shares his raw journey through crystal meth addiction, terrifying psychosis, and over 50 stays in mental hospitals.

From feeling hated by everyone and hearing voices telling him he didn’t deserve to live, to finally discovering the spiritual tools that saved his life, this story is a brutally honest look at the cunning, baffling, and powerful nature of addiction.

This conversation is proof that even in the darkest moments, recovery and purpose are possible.

00:00 – “I thought everyone hated me”
02:30 – Discovering service through video creation
04:50 – Reliving stimulant psychosis through film
13:40 – Alcohol as the gateway to everything else
15:30 – “I went to the mental hospital 50 times”
18:05 – Rock bottom: broken mentally, physically, spiritually
20:15 – Daily reprieve and spiritual principles
27:00 – Resentment, relapse, and the gift of returning
33:00 – “The greatest gift is being of service”
41:00 – Living faith one day at a time
48:20 – Closing poem: I, The Addict