About Jessie Torres
My journey has been one of Sexual abuse with my father, the loss of My two brothers to murder, 30 years apart, and an 18 year marriage of mental, emotional & verbal abuse that left me completely apathetic, emotionless and spiritually dead. As someone who has lived with fear every day, I was driven to discover the truth of the reason I had not only experienced this, but how did I allow it. I have created a life of facing challenges over and over again. If it scared me, I put myself on the front lines , because I was afraid of everything. In my marriage I was so kept and controlled that I didn’t even know how to drive out of the city I was living in. I was terrified to do things on my own. My ex ran from everything and turned me financially upside down. I was in massive survival, however, from that survival, I had no other choice than to make things happen and take care of my kids and with a Fierce desire, I built a muscle of knowing and understanding that the limitation in our lives is only the “belief” that there is one.
Our limitless capabilities are within reach and our human potential is boundless and awaiting for our calling. Challenging myself to do things I was fearful of gave me a unique perspective as to how to see challenges in our lives. Learning to push through my own fears with Grace, taught me how to help others identify and push through theirs as well. I see trauma and our pain from our past, completely differently now.
I believe that there is a Divine Choreography in our lives and that God doesn’t waste the pain, only we do if we choose to. I believe that the depth of our darkness is converse to the height of our light and if you can see the other side of the story, you can be witness to the beautiful soul in the arena of your life as the brave one that got back up in the moments of deep despair. With that acknowledgement you can be witness to the courage, resilience, strength, determination, etc. that ALSO, took place in the darkest moment. When we are able to be witness to the gift the pain/trauma gave us, the muscle that we built, we can see ourselves as the Victor not the Victim. We can fall in love with that version of us versus judge the part of us that we felt was weak. We can forgive those that signed up with us to be the adversity in our lives so that we can build the muscle that we were called to build in our contract with God.
I see all of my past with grateful lenses. I do my best to live my life with a driven purpose of serving people to come home to their Divinity and magnificence. That they are the Divine perfection that they were upon taking their first breath and that nothing has changed except the belief. I see the world and people through the eyes of love. I had to find this deep within myself before I could see it in others. I had so much self hatred for being at fault of my dad’s abuse and then my marriage. I lived with massive amounts of shame and unworthiness. Survival was my home and getting by, was breathing. Now I live in acceptance of all the traits, actions and celebrate my resilient spirit.
My relationship with my children is one of the things I am most proud of as they are here as beacons of light as well. They are often my why, them and my Brother who passed and my brother that I still pray for and have visions of bringing him on stage with me one day. (I am updating this piece as my little brother that I was excited to bring on stage, was also murdered, November 2022) Another upper cut to my life, yet this time, I had to eat my own medicine and search for the light in my anguish. It is always there. I know that the depth of my pain was an example of how deeply I loved. With this as my driving force, I now live a committed life of passion, purpose and impact. I will do all I can to create the biggest impact that I can make in shifting humanity, in a way that I as one person can. I will help people identify what is preventing...