Family...Nation...Faith....All have tumbled. I'm fully disillusioned from this world and I wonder what the point of anything. What the point of loyalty. You really know who are the people worthy of keeping around during times like this. People love to be around you if you are doing well, but if you are in a struggle, suddenly everyone is rude, harsh, and impatient with you.

Everything is fake. There's literally no point caring. Like seriously, its all a big bait. The only thing you should care about at this point is not being sent to prison. Beyond that, everything is free game and the rules dont exist. Those same people who seem to care or orbit around you would sell you to the rive the second the fire got hot.

If there was one thing I learned from this experience is that I should only care about myself. Don't fear god, don't fear shame, don't fear anything.