This second episode of the Journal is a follow up to the second episode of the Conversations. Here, I read to you, my dear listeners, an expounding to my return to the Bible, the reason behind my "falling out" from faith and from my belief systems, and my hopes in finally finding meaning for this paradoxical life. I hope you enjoy and learn from this episode. Thank you so much for listening.

In this episode, I talk about my journey in Life - my first encounter with the transcendent, the evolution of my faith and belief system, the different events that had profound effects on me, the loss of meaning, the subsequent descent to hell, The Fall, and my rise in search for meaning. This is a very long episode divided into several segments so that you can listen to them at your own convenience. This episode will provide a background to this podcast as well as a historical context for future episodes. Thank you for listening!

Journal of the Wandering Mind is my new format where I read to you, my dear listeners, my thoughts I've written down in my Journal. In this first episode, I share to you my ideas about how our perception plays a role in the conception of language and how I perceive the world has helped me express my Self through poetry.

In this first episode, I share my reflections on pain as a result of losing in competitions, on what envy means, on the notion of comparing, and just plainly admiring round, shiny, and smooth pebbles. (P.S. I have a confession to make: for my very first episode, I have made 3 versions of this episode alone! And, this is the 3rd version! I have made the very first version a week before last week and I also made the 2nd one last week but I found both prior versions unsatisfactory. It is only today I realized that when I am not doubting myself, when I am not forcing myself, and when I feel like conversing I produce a whole better version with fewer uhm's and shorter dead airs. I really enjoyed making this version. I felt confident and spontaneous in my speech. In my 2 previous versions I labeled them as Journal Log #1 but I decided to go into Conversation since the former sounded too boring and the latter sounded more inclusive and open. True to its title, I left the recording as it is to allow for the impression that I am having a conversation with you, save for the back ground music too lighten up them mood and for that 1 second I cut from the very start of the recording so that the whole episode duration would become a beautiful 55:55 recording from the annoying 55:56 originally. I hope you enjoy!)