This one started as a draft…. something I wrote and almost didn’t share. It made its way to my newsletter, then here. Not Everything Needs a Title is just me, speaking from that quiet, uncertain space……
We don’t really talk about guilt enough. That quiet heaviness that follows us around after a mistake, the late-night thoughts that whisper we’ve failed again, the feeling of praying but still wondering if Allah hears us when we’ve slipped so many times. In this episode of Fragments of Us, I sit with that reality, the guilt that sits with us, and reflect on how it shapes our hearts, how it can weigh us down, and how it can also lead us back to Allah. This is a reminder for anyone who feels unworthy, tired of falling, or unsure if they can still be forgiven.
I’m so excited to share something new with you, a fresh series on the Hijabi Diaries called 𝐅𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐔𝐬. This first episode,
𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑭𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝑷𝒆𝒕𝒂𝒍, is where it all begins.
If you’ve been following my work through deen_journals on instagram, you already know how much I love curating reflective stories, soft pieces of life, faith, and memory that remind us of Allah in the simplest ways. & now I’ve started curating personal stories, just for you; (your experience; my words). This series is an extension of that heart. So if you enjoy the reflections here, you’ll find even more at Deen Journals, where we gather these fragments in writing, journaling, and shared reminders. May these little pieces of us become a source of comfort and reflection for you too. Amīn
after holding onto this topic for a long time, I’m finally speaking on it. This episode was sparked by a deep, soul-stretching conversation with my friend Ilham, the kind where you put yourself in someone else’s shoes and speak from a place of honesty, not ego.
it’s a reminder that Allah has written a unique path and provision for each of us, you don’t have to take what isn’t yours to shine.
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They say, “You’re too young to cover like that.”
I say, “𝐈’𝐦 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞.”
In this episode, I share what it means to wear the Niqab in my 20s, want love without apology, and walk proud in a world that doesn’t get it — but that’s okay.
Because the one who’s meant for me will see me… even behind the veil.💗🌸
This episode is for the girls who are always holding it down. Always listening, always giving, always trying to be okay — even when they’re not.
It’s about that quiet kind of tired. The kind that sleep doesn’t fix. The kind that builds up from always being “the strong one.”
I’m sharing some thoughts on what it really means to feel overwhelmed, to trust Allah while also feeling confused, and to admit you’re tired — without guilt.
And towards the end, I introduced something close to my heart — Becoming Her. A book for the Muslim girls who are just trying to be seen, trying to be good, and trying to make sense of it all.
If you’ve ever felt like you’re holding too much, I hope this episode holds you too.
May Allah Heal Us All, Amīn 💗
Becoming “Her” >>>
Please make Du’a for my late MOTHER, when you come across this Episode.
**اللَّهُمَّ اغْفِرْ لِ(مَرْيَمَ نْدَانُوسَا دَابُوجِي ) وَارْحَمْهَا، وَعَافِهَا، وَاعْفُ عَنْهَا، وَأَكْرِمْ نُزُلَهَا، وَوَسِّعْ مَدْخَلَهَا، وَاغْسِلْهَا بِالْمَاءِ وَالثَّلْجِ وَالْبَرَدِ، وَنَقِّهَا مِنَ الْخَطَايَا كَمَا يُنَقَّى الثَّوْبُ الْأَبْيَضُ مِنَ الدَّنَسِ. اللَّهُمَّ أَبْدِلْهَا دَارًا خَيْرًا مِنْ دَارِهَا، وَزَوْجًا خَيْرًا مِنْ زَوْجِهَا، وَأَدْخِلْهَا الْجَنَّةَ، وَأَعِذْهَا مِنْ عَذَابِ الْقَبْرِ وَعَذَابِ النَّارِ.**
*Allāhumma ghfir li-Maryam Ndānūsā Dābogi warhamhā, wa ‘āfihā, wa’fu ‘anhā, wa akrim nuzulahā, wa wassi’ madkhalahā, waghsilhā bil-mā’i wath-thalji wal-barad, wa naqqihā minal-khaṭāyā kamā yunaqqath-thawbul-abyadu minad-danas. Allāhumma abdilhā dāran khayran min dārihā, wa zawjan khayran min zawjihā, wa adkhilhāl-jannata, wa a’idh-hā min ‘adhābil-qabri wa ‘adhābin-nār.*
O Allah, forgive Maryam Ndanusa Dabogi, have mercy on her, pardon her, grant her ease, honor her resting place, widen her grave, and cleanse her with water, snow, and hail, as You purify a white garment from stains. O Allah, replace her home with one better than her home, and replace her spouse (m with one better than her spouse. Admit her into Paradise, and protect her from the punishment of the grave and the Fire.
Amīn.
This one’s for the quiet souls, the ones who move in the shadows, giving without taking, We’ll sit with the weight of humility, the beauty of anonymity, and the power of actions done purely for the sake of Allah SWT. No applause, no recognition—just the raw truth of what it means to act when no one’s watching. 💗🌸
What are YOU grateful for? Especially during this Blessed Month ?
Let’s pause and reflect on the power of Shukr. In this episode, we dive deep into how fasting awakens our hearts to Allah’s countless blessings—both seen and unseen. From the food on our tables to the Imaàn in our hearts, gratitude transforms how we see the world and how we live in it. Join me as we explore practical ways to cultivate gratitude, turn it into action, and draw closer to Allah during this blessed month. 🌸🌙💗
As a lover of words and a literature enthusiast, I couldn’t resist penning and sharing this episode with you. 💗🌸
If you’ve ever struggled to look in the mirror—to see your worth, your growth, or your light—this episode is for you. Join me on *Hijabi Diaries* as we reflect on our spiritual journeys, make beautiful Ramadan Du’as, and celebrate the beauty of becoming who Allah created us to be.
With a special Salam from my best friend, Kulu, this is your moment to pause, reflect, and reconnect with the One who sees you perfectly, even when you don’t. 💕
Just pouring my heart on “Hijabis” as normal human beings.
Displaying our bodies in a way that is haram will not bring us closer to finding a spouse. In fact, it can often lead to the opposite – a lack of self-respect, a lack of dignity, and a lack of true fulfillment……. 💗🌸
Hop on the Episode, and get the full tea.
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Assalamu Alaikum, Habibty! Welcome BACK!!!
Today’s episode is a reflection of my Hijab journey and the bonus journey (The Niqab Journey)… Alhamdulillah! Let’s acknowledge that every Hijab story is unique. Yours, mine, our sisters' – each one a testament to Allah's guidance and love."
And I hope that YOU, are encouraged! You’ll breathe through it, In Sha Allah 💗
In this episode, Bilqees explored the spiritual significance of hijab, and how it's often misunderstood in today's world. Also discussed how hijab is not just a piece of cloth, but a symbol of faith, identity, and resilience, also talked about how hijab can be seen as an obstacle, but how it's actually an opportunity for growth, self-expression, and connection with our faith and community.💗