In this deeply personal and vulnerable conversation, Eva is pulling back the curtain on her relationship with her partner, Tom, an incredibly special and unique human by all accounts.  He’s also the man she once had on a spiritual pedestal, who also happens to be 26 years older than her, a wildly private human. In other words… not your average “how we met” story. In this conversation with Kyley, Eva spill’s on all the odd and beautiful circumstances that come with their love — from navigating projections (“isn’t that the cliché of the teacher dating the student?”) to dismantling conditioning about what’s “right,” to learning how to actually let ourselves be loved without condition. It’s juicy, hilarious, and rooted in something much bigger than just romance: it’s about self-love, joy, and trusting life enough to let the good all the way in. The meet-cute that took seven years — from a Costa Rica retreat crush to living together in a surf shack in Brazil Love without conditions: how it feels to be in a partnership where both people are exploring whether there’s any limit to love or joy. Pedestals are prisons: how putting someone “above” you is unkind to them and to yourself, and what happens when you smash the hierarchy. Self-love as subtraction, not addition: letting go of self-condemnation, judgment, and the “I” story so Source can pour in. Being willing to be disliked — and why your joy might be the medicine that irritates someone right into their own healing. Living under the influence of good: the simple but terrifying practice of trusting life right now, in this moment.

This episode is an honest look at difficult relationships in all their paradoxical glory. It will touch anyone navigating complex family dynamics, caregiving, inner conflict, or the slow, radical return to self.

One of Eva's favorite conversations from last year! We sat down with Diana Harper—relational astrologer, poet of the cosmos, and philosophical firestarter—to explore a radically different take on healing, belonging, and what it means to be in true relationship.

Listen up if you’d like to know the secret of being really, truly, deeply alive. This episode, with non-profit founder and podcast host Ned Buskirk, is an emotional, joyful exploration of how rich life can be when we don’t look away from death. 

In this very special episode, we sit down with Eva’s personal mentor of two years, Amma Thanasanti. Formerly living as a fully ordained Buddhist nun for 28 years, today Amma guides others in the path of embodied awakening—bringing together deep meditation, nervous system repair, and attachment healing to help people feel truly safe, seen, and at home in themselves.

Eva did it! She drove across the country—with her plants in tow—and has arrived at her new home (for now). She updates us on the grief and glee of her epic adventure.

What does it mean to hold the unbearable complexities of the world without shutting down or lashing out?  In this rich, heartfelt conversation, Eva and Kyley sit down with Ellen Wong, entheogenic death companion and host of the Mum podcast, to explore how we can stay present with grief, righteous anger, and the impossible paradoxes of life. Together, we grapple with questions like: How do we show up when the world is on fire? How do we stay human when social media, activism, and politics feel polarized and violent? Is it possible to hold both fierce anger and deep compassion without collapsing into binaries? Ellen shares her profound perspective as a death doula, inviting us to develop an intimate relationship with death—not just at the end of life, but in the countless transitions, identity shifts, and ego deaths we encounter along the way. The conversation weaves through themes of grief, cancel culture, safety, attachment, social justice, ancestral wounds, and the liberating power of surrender. 💥 Expect tears, belly laughs, and a radically honest look at what it means to be alive in these times

This episode got meaty & esoteric fast. We wound up discussing free will and the grace of choicelessness with the brilliant and wise Victoria Jane.

This show is brought to you by our inner teenagers. With surprise and delight, we wound up reminiscing about the 90s, reveling in fashion-as-play and power, and generally invited our inner teen selves to run the show this week. Kelly - Instagram.com/kellymahalak Eva's instagram: @iamevaliao Book a discovery call with Eva Kyley's Instagram: @kyleycaldwell Join Kyley’s Facebook group: Monsters & Magic Grab your ticket for Magic Circle

It’s the Season 5 finale(!) and we’re celebrating by asking each other some big, weird, and delicious questions, including: -End-of-life wishes -What our teenage selves needed to hear -The worst snack food -Our super-hero figurine selves, and what they are bringing into battle ✨ Plus, all summer long we’re re-releasing some of our most beloved episodes—so whether you’re new here or a longtime listener, there’s magic coming your way. Meanwhile, we're scheming up BIG things for the fall, so stay tuned. We love you!!

This week, dharma teacher Cara Lai joins us on the show to explore the misunderstood power of yin (or feminine) energy—and what it really means to do less without abandoning yourself. We cover rest, rage, spiritual bypassing, chronic illness, and the sacred art of screaming in the woods and putting our boulders down. Also: why Ali Wong is the medicine for us all.

What if you don’t see anything when you meditate? What if your intuition doesn’t show up the way everyone says it’s supposed to? This week, we answer a question from Spiritual FOMO—someone who’s craving a deeper connection to their intuition but feels stuck when it comes to visualization. If you’ve ever felt like the only one not “seeing things” during meditation or wondered whether you’re doing it wrong—you’re not alone.

Can you truly love your body and still want to change it? This week, we answer a listener question from someone who deeply loves herself… but also kinda wants to change it. Does getting Botox or hitting the gym mean you’ve sold out your self-love? Is there room for both radical acceptance and the desire to feel even hotter? We dig into vanity, desire, body politics, and why self-love doesn’t have to mean self-stagnation. Re: body image: Hi Eva and Kyley! I love your show and here’s my question: Can I truly love myself and still want to look hotter? Like, I do love myself. I’ve done a ton of inner work around body image, self-worth, and all that good stuff. But also… I still want to glow up. I want to feel sexier, maybe lose a little weight, and I think about getting botox… And sometimes I wonder—am I being vain? Or betraying the self-love I’ve worked so hard for? Does wanting to look better mean I don’t accept myself as I am? Or is it okay to want both—to radically love who I am and also still want to turn heads when I walk into a room? Help. I’m confused and also slightly overthinking this. Thanks, love you both! Signed, Hot & Healing

What happens when astrology starts to feel like a rigid set of rules, instead of a tool for self-discovery? Sofia Adler joins us to talk about how astrology can create anxiety instead of insight, and how it can become a box we feel stuck inside, rather than a relationship to outselves and the stars that we are living. Sofia also shares about her current work with Emotion Code and energy work, and how it’s changing everything for her. If you've ever felt afraid of Mercury Retrograde or trapped by your birth chart, this one's for you.

This week, Eva brings a vulnerable and relatable truth to the table: she’s been struggling with the belief that she’s too rigid—too controlling, too particular, too unwilling to let go. Maybe you’ve had that inner voice too: Why can’t I just chill? Why do I care so much? Why can’t I just go with the flow like everyone else? But once we started pulling on that thread, things got interesting. This conversation is part therapy session, part spiritual detective work, and part reclaiming of the fiercely protective parts of ourselves. If you’ve ever been called “too much,” “too intense,” or “too uptight”… this one’s for you.

This week, our conversation about power takes us on a wild ride. We explore: • What we’re trying to be powerful about (and why) • How real power feels in the body and heart - Why power and surrender might actually be the same thing, or at the very least connected • and what becomes possible when we stop grasping and start allowing Plus: a fiery little detour into the systems of cruelty we’re witnessing in American politics, what it means to stay powerful living within them, and the difference between power and control. This one surprised us. We hope it does the same for you.

Why does pleasure feel so scary sometimes? Why do we crave it—and then push it away? In this episode, we’re diving deep into the paradox of pleasure: why it’s often the thing we most want and most resist. We explore how pleasure isn’t just about indulgence—it’s a spiritual practice, a doorway to presence, and even a tool for ego dissolution. Some of the questions we ask: • What does it really mean to let ourselves feel pleasure, instead of chasing it? • Why might pleasure be the thing we’ve been looking for all along? • What role does pleasure play in our spiritual journey? If you’ve ever felt afraid to want too much, worried that joy might be selfish, or wondered whether you’re “allowed” to feel good—this episode is for you.

Power is complicated—often seeming like a thing people used to hurt others. But as we discover this week, the truth of power is, for Kyley & Eva, actually tied to silly fun and creative expression. How can we tell the difference and how can we step into power that is generous?

This week Kyley and Eva talk about AI: - Eva's resistance and Kyley's exploration - How we're adopting AI into our lives and why - Ethical complexities of ChatGPT - What even *is* sentience and will we have sex with robots (the answer is yes)