Sitting and exploring uncomfortable sensations of experiences in body

Rather than escaping away, or finding something to consume - if we work at the fundamental level, we touch freedom and wellbeing.

A society of addictions, safety as the highest value is limiting and flat. A response to a world where we are not truly alive so we want to live longer and safer.

Views are skilful means, not to formulate a new ego structure around. Thought Is often disembodied, and hence out of true nature. An escape from embodied embedded reality. Stay in the body, it’s the portal to spontaneous expression of true nature.

In landscape

Reflections on surface mind, true nature, source nature.

Transmission is not one way. Learning occurs in dialectic. And, it’s the bond that’s the teaching. More than the content itself. The frequency of the energetic connection.

The joy of eating out after 15 months of pandemic. Generosity and being touched by service. Returning to the Dao, the deeper part, over the anxious scattered surface personality.

The joy of spending extended periods with elements, away from humans. And how it is transformative to the psyche and the sense of self.

Pain as the healer. Experience of learning from long deep pain

The closer you are to your Wholeness less likely you will engage in mindless addictive patterns. The more you enjoy addictive actions, the farther you are from Source.

I reflect on the return of strength in my body, and the reopening of multi perspective ways of holding my story, time, and space.

As I recover from a broken body in pain, back, shoulders, ankle, and feet - the lesson is emerging. Where were you? My body asks. When you were away, these injuries, these pains, this suffering kept getting accumulated. Finally, painful as it will be, the body like patched land awaits the penetration by the mind, and as this begins - i am lost, and I am found. A new being, and an old being. A snake shedding skin, in the half way. In the bardo of the dream.

In this Inquiry, I share my experience with excruciating and debilitating pain over the last two weeks. Pain as a portal to presence, pain as a pause from the body.

My ego mind thought my body, emotions. Feelings, time etc were for sale in market for highest bidder. No. Instead ego is here to serve the life force flowing in the body, not to rule it. My time is not for sale. My body is not for sale.

Roles that have lived out the juice. Eg ascetic. Job role of living in fear. Being single. In a small apartment. It’s time to let them all go. And fill up life with Dimensionality. Starting with change in apartment, life will begin to change. Better food. More movement. Some holidays. Retreats. And life will shift.

A movement with life force; not away from it. The sutric fantasy of ascetic; never settling; or connecting - has run out. There is a movement to enchantment; to aliveness; Soulmaking and soul expression

Rather than adopt the entire Cosmology, myths and images of the path, we pick up qualities that are helpful and Methods that we can practice to deepen into those qualities. And then we apply them to express the images and myths that arise for me. For my dynamic unfolding soul. And it will shift from ascetic, to hedonist, to caring, to creating etc. Whatever stages it emerges into. Rather than blindly follow path of Buddha or anyone else. And in the end the deep embodied expression of qualities will reach quality without a name. A life essence of me. This will be specific to me. This makes me - me. In that stage of the process - if my life and environment around dancing together - coarising. Dependency arising. Fully expressing.

Compounding is essential for anything to be useful and substantial. This requires effortlessness. If it’s hard work, it’s actually friction that will burn you out. When you enjoy something - subjective experiences of challenge and time is different. When you don’t enjoy something - the subjective experience elongates. 5 hours of inner exploration is very different from 5 hours of doing a task you hate.

We can’t have a sensible impact until we have harmonised inside out. Masses will never get it. Cultivate a soul garden and live the image