Who I am - my personality - are not separate. I share a short anecdote about how I'm not separate from being autistic, and share the HUGE news released in 2025 that impacts all autistics every day. I discuss the neuroscience behind how autism involves increased glutamate from reduced activity in an enzyme called EAAT2, reduced GABA, reduced GABA sensitivity, and reduced vitamin D, this study here: https://www.frontiersin.org/journals/psychiatry/articles/10.3389/fpsyt.2025.1562631/full

In this episode, I unpack my suspicions about how the autistic brain might produce oxytocin differently from the allistic brain, and what that could mean neurologically and behaviorally. Connect with us with PATTERNS not with PERFORMANCE.

Additional Note, discovered later on: Active B6 (aka P5P) is a crucial co-factor for L-Tryptophan -> Serotonin conversion, so ensure this cofactor is met for optimal conversion. This episode explores how I found solutions to my lifetime of sensory issues which I accepted as normal. L-Tryptophan allowed me to create enough serotonin in a rate-limited lower risk way to be able to nearly resolve sensory issues & might have strong potential to benefit the autistic brain.

In this episode, I share personal experiences with psilocybin macrodoses, explore how mushrooms reveal the underlying structure of your own neurology, and discuss harm reduction strategies and key risks to be aware of.

Endometriosis is a condition resulting from the appearance of endometrial tissue outside the uterus and causing pelvic pain. Endometriosis is a common comorbidity with being autistic that significantly impacts the body and brain, and causes massive issues with electrocution-type pain, bloating, organs being tied together - and a history of this pain being ignored throughout hundreds of years for women everywhere.

In this episode, I share a few of my experiences of body shame abuse, list a few things that perpetuate further problems, explain how people's fears and projections from their protector parts creates trauma, and share ways that you can break out of body shame abuse trauma circuits.

In this episode, I explore a therapy modality called Internal Family Systems (IFS) and how helpful it is! EMDR (Eye movement desensitization and Reprocessing) is also a fantastic addition to IFS in order to resolve trauma.

In this episode, Adam Grant and I have a funny, light-hearted discussion about the ways autistic and ADHD people accommodate others, the social barriers within the workforce and interview process, and some strategies that can be used by neurodivergent people in the workplace. Adam and I present our viewpoints about the struggles of indirect language and the harmful outcomes that indirect language causes. We discuss also what it's like to translate from a systematic bottom up processing to translate that into a top down understanding. Adam discusses some of the systematic barriers as a manager working in tech, with masking, rejection sensitivity dysphoria struggles, and the inherent translation layer between neurodivergent people and others. We discuss the importance of accountability, we ways people protect their reputations, and how easy it is to fall into self-rejection traps from the misunderstandings involved in the double empathy problem. Adam shares his desire to connect with others and learn from them and share what he has learned, but he's concerned that doing so could make others feel belittled. He talks about how often neurodivergent people have to figure out their own strategies in isolation, how challenging it is, how alienating it can be too. My goal is to give everyone a reminder that you are allowed to be yourself, that your problems are not in isolation - there is always and will always be another person going through similar challenges to what you're experiencing.We also discuss the purpose of small talk, how most people get dopamine from small talk, and hopefully making small talk a little more palatable! Adam explains how you can 'read breadcrumbs' to form better relationships with others.We talk about a few different books, including 'How To Win Friends and Influence People' by Dale Carnegie, and how helpful it was for both of us to use as a guideline to social interactions. We also discuss the value of mimicry to help people to feel safe, comfortable, and included with others. Thank you so much, Adam Grant, for being willing to publicly share your struggles, sharing your experiences as a tech manager, and bringing such a wonderful humorous discussion into our lives! It has been a pleasure having you on podcast!If you enjoyed listening to Adam share his ideas, checkout his YouTube Channel below for more work tips! ~https://www.youtube.com/@AdamGrantDotInfo

In this episode, I shared my heartbreaking experience with accidentally joining a cult, leaving a cult, and the red flags associated in general with cults. Dallas Dance Collective / Ecstatic Dance Dallas is NOT a safe organization allowing people to dance. It is an organization that people use to violate women, people, and ignore boundaries. Trust the patterns. Get out. Help is available. I discuss specifics about the man who touched my inner thigh, the other instances of red flags in this organization, and what you can do to protect yourself against sexual assault and cult dynamics.

In this episode, I interview two wonderful people, Grace, and Dash, about their experiences in what it is like to be autistic trans women. They both discuss a little bit about what it was like to discover that they were autistic, and share first hand what the transitioning process has been like, some challenges with it, and share their wonderful journey to self love and self acceptance. :)

In this summary, I discuss some of the up to date research regarding the idea that neurotypical brains commonly synchronize together, whereas autistic people do not synchronize in that same way to neurotypical people. I also explore and ask different questions about how this type of synchrony can occur between two neurodivergent individuals. I also discuss the five types of brain waves that can be filtered out of EEG sensors, and how those EEG readings can sometimes be used as biomarkers when it comes to ADHD and OCD. In summary, I study the big picture of how to bridge the gap of communication between allistic and autistic people, studying and questioning the current deficiency view of the way society calls autistic individuals. I also ask you to consider - what aspects of the way you socialize are based on a subconscious framework that has gone on unanalyzed for your entire life?

In this episode, I interview a wonderful lady named Christina who is diagnosed with ADHD, and also is suspected autistic level 2. Her own daughter's diagnosis became the catalyst for her own self-understanding. At age 40, she shares how she lived her whole life up to this point without knowing why and how she was different. She grew up in the 80's when autism research wasn't well-established and well-known. She shares a snapshot about her experiences with socializing, the struggles of connecting with others around her, and some medication struggles as well. She explains her unique perspective; her desire to connect with people yet the dichotomy of trying to do it in an environment with no autism awareness. In particular, she explains what it feels like from a first-hand perspective to be nonverbal, the ways others misunderstood her intentions in those non-verbal states, and how often she became a target as a result. We also discuss the ideas of parallel play, social interactions, sensory issues, dissociation, masking, the effects of masking and how it can cause burnout. She doesn't drive, for a long time she couldn't make eye contact, and she learned to mask from a call center. She struggles a lot with spatial awareness and directional sense. Supporting her daughter who is also autistic, who she can recognize her own self's traits within, she inspires us all with supporting her daughter's diagnosis, supporting her from a first hand perspective, and the beautiful beginning for her own self love and acceptance. :)

Today, I interview a lady named Melissa. Melissa is self diagnosed with autism & she shares many of her struggles with sensory issues, social challenges, and shares a snapshot of how she experiences and goes through life. We discuss many topics like masking, fitting in, the social stigma of being autistic, the cultural disconnects associated with speaking differently from people around you, along with Melissa's ideas for what she wishes society could do differently to better accommodate autistic people.

Warning: Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria Trigger. If you have a deep rejection wound and are not ready to shift it; this will be triggering. In this episode, I explore the very common rejection wound with specific examples and ideas around healing it. Most autistic people suppress their autism - often at a subconscious level - because they know that somehow they're different but they get trapped in a rejection wound and they feel like they have to hide their autism in order to be accepted by society. I'm here to tell you there is a way out - self love, self expression, and recognition that everything you experience is your subconscious patterns on display. Recognizing total oneness and taking responsibility of your experience is what can liberate you from these painful rejection patterns.

In this episode, I propose that we as a society begin to redefine what social awkwardness means. I discuss the typical definition of social awkwardness and offer an example for you to consider. Maybe we shouldn't judge the differences of others & instead should look within to truly understand why you feel uncomfortable around others who are different. What is it about a flat tone of voice that is so frightening to you? Why do you feel so compelled towards creating more conformity; when variety is where true growth occurs? Why do you feel uncomfortable past the plateaus of deeper thinking?

In this episode, I discuss what Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria. Most autists have a deep rejection wound. A rejection of self and self expression because autistic traits are rarely understood by neurotypical majorities and are often immediately rejected. However, like everything in life, the outer is always a mirror of the inner world. If you can shift your inner world to confront your deepest fears and dive towards everything that makes you uncomfortable emotionally, you can become more aware of your own dysfunctions and heal them. The ego often loves to mask itself making it difficult to discover your own wounds. Read the book Heal Your Wounds, Heal Your True Self by Lise Borbeau to become aware of the 5 key wounds (Rejection, Injustice, Betrayal, Humiliation, and Abandonment) And listen to this episode to dive deeper into understanding and healing your own self rejections along with some examples of that.

In this episode, I examine all the ways that autism disabled my life - ways that I was never aware of until they were gone. Texture issues from autism restricted my deep breathing and impacted my sleep as well because I was unable to filter out noises. Now - I'm breathing deeply, I can sleep at night because my brain can filter out noises finally. My entire life has changed from this experience and I have hope for hundreds of thousands of other suffering autistic people. And above all - a new level of emotional human connection is available to me and I can feel the emotions from other people. Mushrooms - Psilocybin - is truly the medicine to cure the disabling aspects of autism without changing the underlying personality or the autistic strengths. I hope to create a new world from the inside out where both autism and Psilocybin are actively studied, legalized, analyzed, and fairly understood.

In this episode, I share my miraculous success story of how just 1 gram of psylocibin mushrooms has changed the course of the rest of my life, relieved 95% of my most disabling autism symptoms, and given me a framework for what freedom truly feels like. Life is so beautiful, such a gift for us to experience ourselves. :)

Today I interview an autistic lady named Rel. She grew up from a very different background and culture from me; yet we share many similar struggles with autism. In this podcast, we explore some of these similarities and differences to illustrate what autism in women truly looks like. Her Youtube channel is listed below if you'd like to hear more from her perspective! https://youtube.com/channel/UCUCmwzzNa5u3HibgVT25rXg

Autistics people very often have heightened affective empathy & sometimes there is a disconnect between feeling what others are feeling and knowing why they are feeling that way. I challenge the notion that autistic people have reduced cognitive empathy - because cognitive empathy can exist independently of facial analysis, social cues, and a display of empathy.