We’ve all had moments that leave us at a total loss — for words, for direction, for what comes next. For me, that moment came when my baby died at 37 weeks. I know firsthand what it feels like to have the world stop and to wonder if you’ll ever find a way forward again.
Sometimes it’s the death of someone you love. Sometimes it’s heartbreak, illness, trauma, or failure. But being “at a total loss” isn’t where the story ends.
This podcast is about what happens after the unthinkable. Each week, host Katherine Lazar sits down with people who have faced life’s hardest blows and asks the real questions: How did you survive? What did it take to keep going? And how did you find a way to thrive again?
Because the truth is, we don’t survive these moments alone. It’s in the stories we share and the community we build that we find the strength to keep going.
Raw, unfiltered, and sometimes even funny, At a Total Loss is here to remind you: whatever’s left you speechless, you’re not alone — and there’s a way forward, together.
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We’ve all had moments that leave us at a total loss — for words, for direction, for what comes next. For me, that moment came when my baby died at 37 weeks. I know firsthand what it feels like to have the world stop and to wonder if you’ll ever find a way forward again.
Sometimes it’s the death of someone you love. Sometimes it’s heartbreak, illness, trauma, or failure. But being “at a total loss” isn’t where the story ends.
This podcast is about what happens after the unthinkable. Each week, host Katherine Lazar sits down with people who have faced life’s hardest blows and asks the real questions: How did you survive? What did it take to keep going? And how did you find a way to thrive again?
Because the truth is, we don’t survive these moments alone. It’s in the stories we share and the community we build that we find the strength to keep going.
Raw, unfiltered, and sometimes even funny, At a Total Loss is here to remind you: whatever’s left you speechless, you’re not alone — and there’s a way forward, together.
Alexandra is the founder of the clothing brand Alexandra & Wells, created in honor of her son, Wells, who tragically passed away in 2019 due to a negligent labor and delivery. In this deeply emotional episode, Alexandra shares Wells’ story publicly for the first time, along with the legal battle that followed as she sought justice for him.
Out of her grief, Alexandra built a brand that has reached and comforted thousands of loss moms around the world. Her iconic sweatshirt, Mother of an Angel, was the very first piece of clothing I bought in honor of my son, Brody. I needed the world to know he existed, and wearing it kept him close to me. For that, I will always be grateful to Alexandra and what she has created—something I know countless other mothers feel as well.
Her love for her son, and for all of our babies, shines through in everything she does. Alexandra is a true inspiration, turning unimaginable pain into a source of connection, remembrance, and love.
Find her clothing here:https://alexandraandwells.com/
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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own. I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!
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https://countthekicks.org/
https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/
https://www.pushpregnancy.org/
https://www.tommys.org/
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At a Total Loss
We’ve all had moments that leave us at a total loss — for words, for direction, for what comes next. For me, that moment came when my baby died at 37 weeks. I know firsthand what it feels like to have the world stop and to wonder if you’ll ever find a way forward again.
Sometimes it’s the death of someone you love. Sometimes it’s heartbreak, illness, trauma, or failure. But being “at a total loss” isn’t where the story ends.
This podcast is about what happens after the unthinkable. Each week, host Katherine Lazar sits down with people who have faced life’s hardest blows and asks the real questions: How did you survive? What did it take to keep going? And how did you find a way to thrive again?
Because the truth is, we don’t survive these moments alone. It’s in the stories we share and the community we build that we find the strength to keep going.
Raw, unfiltered, and sometimes even funny, At a Total Loss is here to remind you: whatever’s left you speechless, you’re not alone — and there’s a way forward, together.
