I just want to wish everyone a happy day and a great weekend. Be kind to yourself and try to do something you enjoy. You deserve it. Whatever you are going through right now, hold on and keep going. Things will get better! Sending love to all. 

I seem to be having issues publishing this. I thought I had done it at the end of October, and then again last week since it didn't look like it was published, so I'll give it one more try. 

I just realized that I never added the actual podcast to this post. So sorry. Today I plan to put up my outdoor holiday decorations since it's going to be close to 70 degrees outside. I live in New England so that's warm for November. Everyone enjoy the day. I will probably be back tomorrow. Time to get into the holiday spirit, it's not going to be easy so I'm off to get started. 

I've been away for a while and am in a better place than I was the last time I was here. I hope things continue to get better for all. Sending hugs and love to all who need it. Can you believe it's October, the holidays are coming quickly whether we are ready or not. 

Worried about my daughter and feeling helpless. I can't even go see her in the hospital or send her anything. 

Feeling blah, down, and anxious lately. There always seems to be something to worry about. 

I believe that my anxiety started when I was younger, I didn't even know what anxiety was, but I felt it. It all started with my stalker; i never found out who he was, but he surely changed my carefree life and made me more fearful. 

It's been a difficult couple of days and I'm not at my best. I'm terrified and don't know what I should do.

My thoughts on the weather, the Challenge, and my life in general today. 

It's the day before inauguration day in the U.S. Hopefully, everything goes well and the country moves toward healing and not a greater divide.  In other news, I want to get back to clearing out the basement and doing things around here. Speaking of news, I think we would do a lot better if the media reported the news and stayed impartial and truthful. These days you never know who is telling the truth. 

I feel that I have to make some changes in how I live my life. I have to put more focus on my happiness and making myself feel good. I have to be less focused on how everyone else feels and that's hard, it's how I've lived for all these years.

I don't like feeling this way. Time to find a way to turn things around and change my thinking.

I won't let this Cricut project win. I usually give up on things, but I'm determined to stick with it. 

Dirty windows and plans for the day.

I am rethinking my decision to make a YouTube Channel. I don't think that I can handle the drama and the attacks that come with it.

Today is my daughter's birthday, I have to pick up her cake today. I hope it's a good and happy day for all. 

I've been pushing myself to get out and get to the store, it isn't easy, but I have to go today. The longer I give in to these feelings the harder it will be to overcome them. Time to get dressed and get out. 

Walmart has Clorox toilet cleaning refills and the wand for $132.00 and their are only two left. Who is paying this much money? I get it, it's one of their third party sellers, but still....Go to BJ's, it's only $16.99 and you get more. I'm trying to get motivated for the day. It feels a bit blah since the holidays are over. I'm going to try to stay busy and productive. 

I have some anxiety this morning, but I'm going to try to enjoy the day. Deconstructed stuffed cabbage rolls are so good, give them a try. I put ketchup on mine and it's so good. Takes me back to childhood. My mom used to make them. Now I need an easier recipe for stuffed grape leaves. I have not made them in so long. I kind of want stuffed grape leaves and Armenian pizza. Maybe next weekend. 

Hoping for a safe healthy, happy year for all. Trying to start the year with positivity we'll see how that goes.