I think if I'm honest, at some points, I would stake my life on me - because I'm a control freak. I'm the only one who can get it done and get it done right. So I often think I'm the end all and be all.  

I think I've assumed that if I take the "right" steps in life, I will have success. 

If I get married, it will be forever and I will have children - all the children I want. 

And if I have children and faithfully bring them to church, they will choose to believe as well at some point.  

That's why I panic when we do things differently or not the way I envisioned.   

So weird. Do you have anything? Can you really trust it 100%??? Is there anything?  How strong is your belief?