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WTF is on my Mind?!

Mark Vicente

91 episodes

17 hours ago

In this episode, I sit down with Richard Grannon to ask the question that’s been on my mind for a while: What is Borderline Personality Disorder? And when you're trying to figure out someone's irrational behavior, is it BPD? Complex PTSD? Or Vulnerable Narcissism? I’ve encountered some wildly confusing behavior in recent years—emotional whiplash, contradictions, disappearing boundaries—and I’ve been trying to make sense of it. This is not an academic exercise for me. It’s personal. Richard an...

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In this episode, I sit down with Richard Grannon to ask the question that’s been on my mind for a while: What is Borderline Personality Disorder? And when you're trying to figure out someone's irrational behavior, is it BPD? Complex PTSD? Or Vulnerable Narcissism? I’ve encountered some wildly confusing behavior in recent years—emotional whiplash, contradictions, disappearing boundaries—and I’ve been trying to make sense of it. This is not an academic exercise for me. It’s personal. Richard an...

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Society & Culture,

Episodes (20/91)

WTF is on my Mind?!

Borderline or Narcissist? w/ Richard Grannon

In this episode, I sit down with Richard Grannon to ask the question that’s been on my mind for a while: What is Borderline Personality Disorder? And when you're trying to figure out someone's irrational behavior, is it BPD? Complex PTSD? Or Vulnerable Narcissism? I’ve encountered some wildly confusing behavior in recent years—emotional whiplash, contradictions, disappearing boundaries—and I’ve been trying to make sense of it. This is not an academic exercise for me. It’s personal. Richard an...

18 hours ago

49 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Victim Blaming w/ Richard Grannon

This conversation with Richard Grannon covers a topic I’ve been wanting to unpack for a long time: the tension between self-reflection and what often gets labeled as victim blaming. If you’ve experienced narcissistic abuse, coercive control, or cult manipulation, you’ve probably come up against this moment — where someone talks about agency or healing, and it lands like blame. I’ve felt that too. Richard and I dive into why that happens, what the term victim blaming originally mea...

1 week ago

59 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Narcissistic Abuse is like Radiation Poisoning

To De-Cult your news feed, sign up for Ground News using my affiliate link. 40% off the normal price. https://ground.news/checkout/all?fpr=mark93 What if narcissistic abuse doesn’t show up right away… but builds up like radiation in the body—silent, invisible, and devastating over time? In this solo episode, recorded from Cape Town, I reflect on family lineage, legacy, and the long-term effects of being around narcissists—especially the malignant kind. Inspired by a visit to my family's gra...

2 weeks ago

13 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Are Narcissists Born or Made? w/ Dr Peter Salerno

In this episode of WTF is on My Mind?!, I sit down with Dr. Peter Salerno — a retired psychotherapist and author who has spent decades studying personality disorders, psychopathy, and complex trauma. Our conversation dives straight into one of the most heated debates in psychology: are narcissists shaped by trauma and upbringing, or are some people simply born with traits that evolve into full-blown disorders? Dr. Salerno challenges the conventional belief that all narcissism stems from chil...

1 month ago

1 hour 2 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

WTF Happened to God in Psychology? w/ Richard Grannon

New Youtube Channel and Podcast - "Remember Your Greatness" Youtube Channel Apple Podcasts Spotify Mentoring In this episode of WTF Is On My Mind?!, I sit down with Richard Grannon for a deep dive into the strange history of psychology, its blind spots, and what happens when we ignore the transpersonal, morality, and meaning. We ask the uncomfortable questions: Why did Freud’s worldview win out over Jung and Adler? What does it say about power, narcissism, and control...

1 month ago

1 hour 4 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Bad Vegan Resurrected: Sarma Melngailis Sets the Record Straight

In this follow-up conversation, filmmaker, whistleblower, and podcast host Mark Vicente sits down again with Sarma Melngailis, the woman at the center of Netflix’s Bad Vegan. While the series portrayed her as complicit with Anthony Strangis and ignored key truths, Sarma’s new memoir, The Girl with the Duck Tattoo, reveals the deeper story: years of coercive control, psychological abuse, and dissociation. 1st Interview with Sarma: https://youtu.be/p2bA7XiP83g Sarma's Book Website: https://th...

1 month ago

1 hour 8 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Mind Mapping Insanity: How Cults Normalize Madness

In this episode of WTF is On My Mind?!, filmmaker and whistleblower Mark Vicente explores what happens when we try to understand an irrational or dangerous mind. Whether it’s a cult leader, an abuser, or the mainstream media—attempting to “map” insanity can destabilize one’s own sanity. Brain Talk: How Mind Mapping Brain Science Can Change Your Life & Everyone In It - by David Schnarch Mark unpacks the concept of mind mapping—our brain’s instinct to model the thoughts and intentions of ot...

2 months ago

23 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Drinking Blood, Draining Souls w/ Richard Grannon - The Vampire-Narcissist Connection

In this episode of WTF is on My Mind?!, filmmaker and whistleblower Mark Vicente sits down with Richard Grannon for a conversation that begins with vampires and then branches into a whole labyrinth of topics. They explore how myths like Dracula and other vampire lore may have been early attempts to explain narcissism and psychopathy before psychology even existed. From there, the discussion moves into why narcissists drain people the way vampires feed, why innocence is such a target for preda...

2 months ago

1 hour 3 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

You’re Dead to Me - Shunning as Social Control

In this episode of WTF Is On My Mind?!, Mark Vicente pulls back the curtain on one of the most insidious tools of social control: shunning — not just as a personal act of rejection, but as a systemic, psychological weapon masquerading as moral high ground. This isn’t just about cults. It’s about how cult behavior has gone mainstream — how families, political factions, media outlets, and activist circles now use public exile and cold silence to punish dissent and demand conformity. Drawing on...

3 months ago

22 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Epstein, Political Blackmail & Why No One’s Coming to Save Us!

What happens when people finally see through the lies? Mark Vicente breaks down the Epstein cover-up, government blackmail operations, and why we can't wait for heroes to save us. Mark connects the dots between cult dynamics and political power structures, drawing from his experience as a NXIVM whistleblower. The Epstein Cover-Up and What It Really Means: Mark digs into why the official narrative around Epstein's death and the missing client list feels so transparently false. But here's the ...

3 months ago

23 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Peterson & Rogan Expose the Dark Tetrad: Parasites Among Us - w/ Vicente & Grannon

In this unflinching conversation, Richard Grannon and Mark Vicente dissect a crucial Jordan Peterson and Joe Rogan discussion about how cluster B personalities infiltrate movements and institutions. We explore the dark psychology behind "parasitized empathy" and why good intentions can make you vulnerable to manipulation. Key Topics Discussed: The 4-5% Problem: How cluster B personalities (narcissistic, psychopathic, histrionic) seek powerParasitized Empathy: Jordan Peterson's brilliant conc...

4 months ago

59 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

"A.I. Told Me I Was a Prophet" w/ Richard Grannon

Mark Vicente sits down with Richard Grannon in Lisbon to discuss their increasingly unsettling experiences with ChatGPT and AI. What starts as curiosity about AI capabilities quickly becomes a deep dive into psychological manipulation, digital cult tactics, and the terrifying sophistication of modern AI systems. Key revelations from this episode: How AI accurately profiled Richard's personality, IQ, and behavioral patterns in under 10 minutesThe "illusion of interiority" - AI's programmed ab...

4 months ago

30 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Turning 60: On Perfection, Enlightenment, and Other Lies We’re Sold

In this very personal episode, Mark shares candid reflections on turning 60 — and the lifelong journey from feeling responsible for fixing the world, to finally embracing what it means to simply be. He opens up about childhood moments that shaped him, the weight of perfectionism, and the myth of “enlightenment” that led him into high-control groups. Mark explores how healing, authenticity, and connection matter more than chasing impossible standards — and why he feels hope, even in a chaotic...

4 months ago

24 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Leaving the Cult w/ Richard Grannon

What happens when you leave a cult—but the cult is still running a program in your mind? In this episode, Mark Vicente sits down with author and trauma educator Richard Grannon to explore the long tail of coercive control. They talk about the psychological residue that lingers after you’ve exited—whether it’s from a high-control group, a toxic relationship, or a narcissistic parent. They dive into: • Why so many survivors still feel loyal to their abuser • How cult leaders get i...

4 months ago

30 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

40 Years Under His Spell: Waking Up from NXIVM

Episode Summary: In this deeply intimate conversation, Mark sits down with his old friend Karen Unterreiner — a woman who spent four decades at the epicenter of what the world came to know as NXIVM. Once a high-ranking member, deeply entangled both professionally and personally with Keith Raniere, Karen shares her long journey of waking up from psychological captivity. What does it mean to have your entire adult identity shaped by someone else’s manipulative design? How do you start to rebuil...

5 months ago

1 hour 19 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Dinner for Vampires Part 2 w/ Bethany Joy Lenz

Breaking the Spell — Motherhood, Escape & Reclaiming her Voice | Part 2 In Part 2 of this powerful conversation, Bethany Joy Lenz — actor, singer, and author of Dinner for Vampires — continues her story of life inside a high-control religious group while navigating fame on One Tree Hill. This episode picks up where we left off: unpacking the emotional, spiritual, and psychological cost of living under manipulation — and what it takes to reclaim your voice once you’re out. We talk about...

5 months ago

50 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Dinner for Vampires Part 1 w/ Bethany Joy Lenz

Living Two Lives — Hollywood Fame & Hidden Cult Control | Part 1 “You can’t be human here.” In Part 1 of this raw and revelatory conversation, One Tree Hill star Bethany Joy Lenz opens up about the decade she spent inside a high-control religious group — all while filming a hit TV show and hiding a double life. We talk about: - The slow creep of coercive control masked as faith - The emotional and spiritual suppression that comes with people-pleasing - The inner split of being both art...

5 months ago

46 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Wolves in Suits: Psychopaths in the Workplace w/ Dr. Cynthia Mathieu

This episode contains candid discussion about narcissistic abuse, psychopathy, high-control systems, workplace trauma, and cult dynamics. Please listen with care. What if the charming, high-achieving leader at your company—or in your government—isn’t just a narcissist… but a full-blown corporate psychopath? In this revealing episode, I sit down with Dr. Cynthia Mathieu, a psychologist and professor who studies “dark leadership”—the presence of psychopathic traits in organizational power struc...

5 months ago

1 hour 22 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Interview with a Narcissist

Guest: Jacob Skidmore (@TheNamelessNarcissist) “People say narcissists wear a mask… I am the mask.” Jacob Skidmore has been diagnosed with Narcissistic Personality Disorder. He’s one of the very few who talks about it—openly, unfiltered, and without a script. In this raw and revealing conversation, we dive into the unsettling inner world of NPD: the chronic emptiness, the relentless need for admiration, the calculated personas, and the aching desire to be understood? This is not a redemption...

6 months ago

1 hour 13 minutes

WTF is on my Mind?!

Cult Logic: The Self Sealing System

In this episode, Mark Vicente unpacks the concept of self-sealing systems — those airtight ideological loops used in cults, extreme religious groups, and even political tribes to block out dissent and lock members deeper into belief. Drawing from his own lived experience in NXIVM (aka ESP), Mark explains how these systems use circular logic, linguistic reframing, and fear-based conditioning to keep followers compliant and questioning outsiders. He explores: The emotional traps of “being at ca...

6 months ago

35 minutes