My life update.  Day 682 post narcissistic abuse.  

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This is a brutal day. And this too shall pass.

This is some really raw and vulnerable, very personal pain that I am pouring out in this episode with insights on why and how it happened as well as truly showing how when you look at the eyes of a Narcissist, you are looking into the eyes of evil. Once we realize why this is happening that is half the battle and we will heal and recover from narcissistic abuse and we will expand our consciousness and heal wounds of past ancestors as well as future generations.   Narcissistic abuse is part of our soul's journey and it's here to help you be the one to break the cycle of abuse and lack of self love.  I'm here with you as you go through it and I will never leave you. xoxo My healing mentor and the link to her episode of Thriver Tv that was a godsend tonight.  I hope it helps you too:  https://youtu.be/HNh4Hq8mZdM  My Site:  http://affairwiththedarkside.com My Etsy Store:  https://www.etsy.com/shop/realm222/  Story of The Sparklefly:  https://amzn.to/2YXZ7Lf Pennies From Heaven and Mashed Potatoes in the Sky:  https://amzn.to/2WaTuwl Ambiguous:  https://amzn.to/2HIgQRc (Erotica Short Stories for those that want some spice! I run the gamete with writing) Just The Juicy Parts  https://amzn.to/2MeVXkR My YouTube Channel:  https://youtu.be/AXHCRY04duE My GoFundMe:   https://www.gofundme.com/my-do-over  email me:  vortexgirl203@gmail.com Thank you!! You are loved!

Painful, painful stuff tonight. Narcissists - go no contact, stay no contact or pay dearly.

Day 590 post narcissistic abuse. I talk about still missing my narcissist, still not 100% coming to terms with him not being able to change. Trying to figure out how to just be happy on my own.

Ironically this episode had 22 seconds at the end. And that it’s day 588 abuse free! Love my number messages. May you all be healed of the wounds that narcissists have inflicted on you. May your days of suffering be minimal. May you know you’ll be okay. ❤️

Just a quick blurb on how narcissists would willingingly let us sit there and suffer when they could offer comfort or love in some form to ease the pain. They never will because they don’t care if you suffer. Why allow that? You deserve love and comfort just like you would give if it was needed from you! I hope you leave your narcissist.

Saying hi and inviting everyone who’s on a spiritual path to visit my new sister podcast that features only the happy side of life after a Narcissist! It can’t rain all the time! 😉 I hope you’ll come take a listen! anchor.fm/bellaLight88 See you there!

Day 548 away from narcissistic abuse, 98% no contact for months now. It’s a better day than most and my vibration is up! I hope this episode will inspire you and put a smile on your face! A no tear episode!! Only smiles, I promise.

Advice for you during your relationship with a narcissist. And details on how my mediation went yesterday. Healing from narcissistic abuse is a very difficult process so make it easier on yourself by following these tips I give throughout. H

If you have doubts about leaving, I hope this helps change your mind. 531 days since I left abuse and I’m still struggling to put myself back together.

Is it possible I still have a sex drive?!! Lol That I’m still alive in there somewhere?? That enough of the onion peeled away during these 516 days away from my ex narc that I’m ready to venture into the dating realm?? Maybe....

This entry is about by hearing and how that went but I also have a very special story from an elderly mentor who’s brilliant and has survived abuse and has a wealth of wisdom at her age. I hope you’ll listen to “The Compassion Cloud”, because I truly believe it’ll be beneficial in your healing journey. Life after narcissistic abuse.

I feel like the jaws theme is playing as my divorce hearing day approaches. So I’m letting out my fear through my words. Day 507 away!

My first divorce hearing getting closer I do an audio journal basically talking about how I’m feeling, and how much emotion and anxiety I have. It’s just so ironic narcissists love to ruin holidays and our first divorce hearing is falling on Valentine’s Day. It’s got to be just eating that one up LOL. So that and some other stuff....

As per the title fell off wagon and broke not contact, now I’m in hell wondering what he sent. The terrible struggle of the Narcissist addict. It’s real and it’s terrible. Part of surviving narcissistic abuse. I’ll get there one day.

Feeling some sorrow that had to be dealt with, lots of anxiety over having to go through divorce stuff today that upset me, and then I also give you quite a bit of history on my relationship with him. I was going to do a separate recording on that alone but I ended up doing it here instead. At least most of it.

Quick and tiny good night prayer message. Love to all! ❤️💤

I was journaling new moon intentions and my writing became sort of automatic and I feel I was given a message to pass along that offers healing and good things to come for all who are suffering. If you’re reading this, you’re meant to hear this. Love to all!