It's been 6 weeks since my hysterectomy. This is a summary from surgery to now. 

My experience taking Testosterone replacement therapy and my opinion on why it should be covered by insurance. 

I lost a few friends last month as I developing my own interpretation of gender theory as it exists. I don't have the attention to read much, but I did listen to a variety of University Professor discussions from both conservative and liberal views. I find flaws in both views and flaws within historical activism, as our currently divisive opinions have always been divisive opinions within queer culture. For all you 28 year olds out there....these issues existed before you were born. Go seek out activists like Sylvia Rivera, as she spoke the year before she died, about how Pride was now a capitalist movement, and not about Pride. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hI2bxUSRF7I And I believe these issues will always exist, particularly in the modern age of social media. Corporations control the narrative by making us angry and trending on controversy. They take our money, as if they show us support, all the while, pushing for divide. A war tactic to seek power: divide and conquer.   My friends that I lost last month never had an issue with me before I posted about Non-binary identities. I thought they always knew my stance on it. They also always knew I supported them and encouraged their lifestyle or gender explorations. However, seeing it in writing, where people were calling me horrible names, they felt triggered, as if they were on the wrong side by associating with me. I even said: I'm still the same person you always knew. Nothing has changed, yet, here we are. I'd be happy to discuss what I meant with you in person. Those conversations never happened. Why? Perhaps the cognitive dissonance of how their views on gender contradict itself in some ways. They would have to face this dissonance, and reason with it. I believe that this is something most of us want to avoid. Because to be wrong or hypocritical or to lack understanding means we are imperfect - we have to sit in our discomfort. What better way to avoid this discomfort than to block someone on social media or uninvite them to your public events? Yet in the end, we are all losing because the ones in power are still in power. You and your feelings aren't helping the rights of others to be accepted among the mainstream. Your comfort from not having your feelings hurt and by posting on social media about how mad you are that Roe Vs Wade is gone, isn't going to help the fact that it is reality and people on the left are moving to the right. I consider myself a radical - my shadow self is a nihilist, anarchist, and wants to see the world be destroyed because it's pretty worthless. My inner child, the innocent that lives deep inside of me, wants to see us have full understanding and acceptance of one another. To be able to agree to disagree and still enjoy each other's company. I recently went to southern Mississippi, an hour east of New Orleans. My friend, who is a trans woman, invited me to karaoke. The contrast of the bar made me so happy that I was in a Utopia dream. We had queers, drag queens, trans, what have you, mixed in with red neck regulars. We were all drinking, singing, dancing....well it was mostly the queers singing and dancing, but we were all together in this quant local bar in a small town of one of the reddest states in America. It is my dream come true. That this could be possible everywhere we go. However, most of our lives are spent on social media, through text messages. And we feel safe with those who are like us. The downfall is that we will never expand our thinking if we just stick to what makes us comfortable and never have discourse with those who think or question different perspectives. Is this so radical for me to believe or is this just being a human? Because no matter the sides we take, I hope that we all want the same thing in the end: for us to all get along and live our best lives.  Gender has been a hot topic and I believe that our brains are incapable of evolving fast enough to accept transhumanism and beyond. We don't have a w

Roe Vs Wade was overturned and now the question is: What's next? Only the Oligarchy of billionaires know what's going to happen next since they force feed you your thoughts. What's the answer to the worlds' problems? Work on your own sanity through living a valued centered life full of mindfulness, while keeping to yourself. Or no? Got other suggestions?

Lia Thomas will no longer be able to swim against women. Is this a win for biological women? Perhaps not, as it encourages children to transition before the age of 12. My stance is that women need to perform against women that biologically had female puberty or did not have male puberty. However, this seems to not be the answer, either. 

I ask you to listen, ask yourself questions, open your mind, and allow yourself to grow by sitting in distress of your emotions. Cos this is an emotional topic. 

Be well. 

Juneteenth is a reminder of what American should not be...people lived as slaves out of ignorance, but not of their choosing. And their descendants still face the consequences of America's hateful past. 

My purpose with this episode is not to persuade or change anyone's minds. It's to have the opportunity to express my current truths and point of view. In no way, is this a stagnant opinion, nor does it represent anyone else but my own. I hope that this encourages anyone that listens to question their own realities and find secure ground to stand upon, as we meander through life. 

Born a woman, and having pride through the struggles I've faced as a woman, I find that current gender ideology and online activists are spreading hate and fear in order for their own truths to be accepted. However, as they do this, women are standing by, watching their past leaders' hard work to protect women as equals in law...disappear and be over taken by internalized misogyny...all in the name of inclusion. 

I offer no solutions, other than having a conversation. I yearn for solutions, where inclusion is, in fact, inclusive of all. 

In the first episode, you get an introduction to my mental health journey, starting in 2019 and how I became diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and ADHD. I will go through the DSM 5 and ICD-11 criterion and how I meet those criterion. I believe this introduction is a way to lay the foundation for how I view society through my personality, which often times feels abandoned or empty in relation to the world and society. 

The following episodes will touch on subjects that have been on my mind in regards to Western Culture and political and societal norms.