Don't Die With Your Song Inside: A self-compassion guide to sharing your gifts with the world
I was terrified to give my first public talk. My meditation teacher had invited me to speak to 30-40 people, and I made every excuse I could think of. I'm not ready. I'm not qualified. What if I mess up? What if they judge me?
But I finally said yes. And halfway through, stumbling over my words with my heart hammering, the door opened. A tall man walked in with wild hair and the biggest, most genuine smile I'd ever seen. He dropped down onto the floor three feet from me and just smiled. Like he was watching something holy.
His name was Nick Good. And he asked if he could stay in my garden.
Nick stayed for years. We meditated together every morning, sometimes for hours starting at 2:30am. And Nick wasn't like me. He wasn't careful. Wasn't planning. Wasn't waiting to be ready. Nick just did things.
If he wanted to travel, he went. No plan. No safety net. If he wanted to try something new, he tried it. No three-month preparation period. He was free in a way I wasn't.
One day Nick announced he was going to Hawaii with no money, no connections, no plan. Six months later, he was living in a two million dollar home on the North Shore of Kauai, doing exactly what he said he would.
Years passed. We built programs together. Life pulled us in different directions. Then one morning I opened Facebook. A message: Did you hear that Nick died?
Nick had literally messaged me that morning. The day he died. Reaching out for connection. And I'd been too busy. Too caught up in my head.
Nick died suddenly. Unexpectedly. Just four days before his 64th birthday.
I sat there in front of my laptop, the screen blurring. I couldn't breathe. It broke something open in me. I realized: We're all going to die. It can happen at any moment. We don't know how long we have.
Despite all my success, I was still imprisoned. Still waiting. Still perfecting. Still playing it safe.
Sitting there, tears running down my face for my wild, free, fearless friend, I made a decision: I would rather do things imperfectly and live fully than die with my gifts locked inside.
We don't have forever. Every day you wait to be perfect is a day you'll never get back. Every day you don't share your gift is a day someone who needs it suffers without it.
In this session, you'll identify three things you're meant to do—three gifts you're meant to share—if you had just five years left and no fear.
Listen to this episode and let me know what hit you. Email me at success@awakenedacademy.com with your thoughts, breakthroughs, or questions. If you're an Awakened Academy student, join the discussion in our private Facebook group. Not a student yet? You're welcome to apply anytime at awakenedacademy.com.
Show more...