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𝗜 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶𝘀 𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘆 𝘁𝗼 some poeple to  𝗿𝗲𝗺𝗼𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝘂𝘁 the person they loved in their 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗶 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗶𝗱. 𝗜 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗮𝗺𝗲. 𝗜 𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 are 𝗱𝗶𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗿𝗲𝗻𝘁, 𝗶 𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗶 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗱𝗶𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗿𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗼𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂, 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶 𝗳𝗲𝗹𝘁, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂... you 𝗱𝗶𝗱𝗻𝘁 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗮𝗺𝗲, 𝗼𝗿 𝗺𝗮𝘆𝗯𝗲 i hope like 𝘆𝗼𝘂're  𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆 𝗽𝗿𝗲𝘁𝗲𝗻𝗱 and wish that sometimes i could tell you that 𝗵𝗶𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗯𝗲 𝗮 𝗴𝗼𝗼𝗱 𝘄𝗮𝘆, 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗿𝗮𝗻 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝘄𝗲 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗳𝗶𝘅 𝗮𝗻𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗹𝗹. 𝗕𝘂𝘁 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝘀𝗮𝘆 𝗶𝘀 𝗶 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 live in 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝘄𝗮𝘆, 𝗶 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻t like we're  𝗶𝗻 𝗯𝗮𝗱 𝗿𝗲𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗽  𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿, 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝘃𝘆 𝗼𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝗹𝘂𝗻𝗴𝘀, 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝗶 𝘁𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗿𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗲𝗿. 𝗬𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝗯𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗺𝗲 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝗼𝗹𝗱 𝘄𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗯𝗲 𝗼𝗽𝗲𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗼𝗽𝗲𝗻 𝗮𝗴𝗮𝗶𝗻, 𝗶 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗳𝗶𝗿𝘀𝘁, 𝗶 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗯𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸. | anchor.fm/dea-cantika

because i was never been a princess i don't need to be saved by any prince i don't even know his name and his emerald palace far, across the ocean or maybe right, under the sky--- with ten thousand step,  upstairs. because i was never been a princess i don't need to be saved from any poisoned apples, or a castle--- that was once isolating me i'm none of them because i was never been a princess i don't need to be saved i saved princes. and his egoism, and his childish side, and his tough mind~ and his stupid optimism; that he was the one who had the absolute rights to save the weaks because  i was never been a princess i put my armor on and went into my own battlefield and i won the war, built my own fortress that only me in because i was never been a princess you don't need to save me you can show me your everything  and it's alright just to be who you are because i was never been a princess, go to my palace and stay in because i'm the queen. | anchor.fm/dea-cantika

i am someone with my door closed when people come home and then knocked out i do make them wait to convince either they actually coming for me, or not but they don't have enough patience they left just before i wish i'll be more open -this time. they don't know how much i'm struggling with my trauma to let people in and you can't use me just for your wasted love, my darling. i know well what it feels, to not become part of somebody's life that i wish to be it i know well what it feels, to just being removed by the one that you once loved, more than you did to yourself and i'm just union of pieces but still i try to love me. | anchor.fm/dea-cantika

i knew that losing you had been something that haunt me a lot, my time like stopped and my lungs felt empty. it was something that i never thought we'd passed before but however we did. losing you had been something that made my life more make sense called a living because when there a few were come, then there a few were'll  go. and somehow, it makes me learn a priceless lesson that we can't keep everyone we love to always being there in our life whatever we try to did it. losing you had been painful but losing you had been something that waking up much of my sanity, that makes me not just someone older but also someone that wiser, someone whom can bear more rain-storms on her palm of hand and makes them an allay. losing you had been a disaster, had been such a battlefield that breaks almost of every part of body- every part of soul, that could ran dry every blood in someone's veins of loving, but also something that makes a moment worth to remember, to be longing, and finally; to let go. to let go of things that didn't work out and to bury them in the depth place we called as memories. losing you had been a regret, but never more. Because i know, the amount of losses are still less than the amount that stays, and what i can do at this moment is not how to having guilt on them but how to always keep things that still exists and thankful of the way they are being here as long as the world permitted it. losing you had been a war but now that i had found a peace in it then losing you can never been a such more calming thing and it's just wonderful, the way we still find happiness among of sadness and take place of ourselves in it, losing you can never felt this right. the way they said that everyone deserves to being happy instead of sad, now i get myself in it, and also you; you deserved the same way as i feel. we deserved to being the best version of ourselves even if we can not ended up together nor united, and im glad-- that you're still being you with or without my affect, because letting go of you can never been this freer in my life.

Bagaikan laksana malaikat yang datang dengan kereta kencana, dia menjemputku dengan kepakan-kepakan halus disayapnya. Mengulurkan tangan sembari berkata, "Maukah kita terbang bersama?" Sayap-sayap putih itu berkilauan terkena cahaya. Ketika sang mega, langit itu bagaikan miliknya. Aku pun menghela napas, membuka mata, "Apakah semua ini nyata?" Namun dia hanya membalas dengan senyuman indahnya. "Peri kecilku, tunggu di sini, ya?," katanya. Seketika dia pergi tanpa lagi bersapa. Dan apakah kamu tahu? Setengah hatiku mati rasa. |