I got into a small accident today and my brain wanted to have a little conversation about that.
I have no idea what I’m doing with my life anymore.
wddlngduck@gmail.com
So many people have been sending me their scripts to read this year - and it’s only the second month of 2025… IM OFFICIALLY A FULL TIME PRODUCER GUYS!!
just a small celebratory thought for myself as a note of my amazing ability to make friends :)
Today we talk about a lot of things in a very low-energy space:
- work
- imposter syndrome
- the importance of resting
- self doubt
- being sick
- assertiveness + the end of wet noodleism
- not saying sorry for having strong emotions
Uhhh
- other things I can’t remember but I think I talked about books
i presented a speech in elementary school and my life has never been the same
WITHOUT FURTHER ADO
THE ONE THING YOUVE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR
I ACTUALLY TALK ABOUT CAMERAS IN THIS ONE
cheese + light trauma talk go great together
lots of thoughts, goals, what passive aggressive bullies sound like, and PROJECTS.
Being yourself is such a complicated topic, this is me trying to wrap my head around it, and talking about why I love talking and why I hate parties and how that can't possibly make any sense... but who cares, we're all complicated beings anyway.
yeah. i said film when talking about Waiting for Godot, i meant book, u know what I meant.
i did something! non-film related! it was very cool and i'm excited to do more things!
all about burn-out and taking a "vacation" from taking vacations from work.
read the title.
in which i cry, so i'm sorry about that.
being vulnerable is very difficult.
if you feel alone, lost or unwelcome where you are, this is for you.
and if you feel like no one loves you, i do, and i am here.
List of things I accomplished this year:
- Produced and finished production on JFA (largest project I've done so far)
- Directed a short film on 35mm Kodak stock in Italy!
- Got a full time job in a production office
- Went to California & Nevada
- Started Waddling Duck (my banner & soon to be Prod Co.)
- Made and met a lot of new friends (from all over the world)
- Signed on to 3 more large projects for 2024
- Learned to stay where my honesty and bluntness and openness and kindness and vulnerability are valued
- Tried something new: SILENT REVUE
- AD'd for the first time ever
OSWALD TEASER:
https://youtu.be/SCsbhYYoTYc?si=2XPApiLE7gPBnwpV
OSWALD ORIGINAL:
https://youtu.be/u0Hi779_Ta4?si=CJVGaOxxG9L-bnRg
What creative process, man, honestly, I feel like I'm bullshitting over here - my "creative process" has only just started to appear. I've always loved to write, and always loved to read, so it was a natural progression into journaling for, not only my mental health, but for documenting the ideas that popped up randomly throughout the day. Stories about my life, the traumas, the great points, scheduling my time to work on projects - it's all in there.
Note: I mention making a Pt. 2 of my Bullies episode. I'm not sure what that will be about yet, but I intend on it being hopeful. Just for anyone wondering. :)
I started a Production Company, woo!
In this episode, I talk about the positive feelings I've been having around filmmaking, going out to events, starting new and gigantic projects - and actually finishing some! I talk about what I've been up to recently as well.
You can find me here:
@wddlng on Instagram
@renzaa on Letterboxd
*Was testing out using my air pods as a microphone...I do not recommend it.*
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When it comes to talking about how I feel I can either be a bit of a cactus or a full on waterfall. With what happened in Italy - definitely been a cactus, but I wanted to try to express everything in a way that made sense to me in a bit of an intimate space. Stop reading now, go listen.
