Are you honest with others? How about yourself? Do you wonder why you can't change your life or find freedom? Why you can't hear, see, or even sense God? Maybe it's time for a giant dose of Truth. It took a beer, a lake, and coming to end of himself to finally tell God how he really felt. Ryan found out that honesty isn’t optional when it comes to change, transformation, freedom, or even speaking with God. He already sees through the masks we wear, the pol...

What happens when your entire worldview gets turned upside down? Will your faith hold steady? Can God still lead… still transform? Josh went from Pastor to Police Officer—two worlds that couldn’t be more different. One was filled with prayer and peace. The other? Sirens, shattered lives, and scenes he’ll never unsee. He used to offer counsel from a couch. Now, he was face-to-face with the darkest parts of humanity. Anxiety. Panic attacks. Sleepless nights. His life was unraveling—...

Has life ever taken a turn you never saw coming? Expectations—of God, of others, maybe even yourself—left unmet. Have you ever wrestled with the reflection staring back at you in the mirror, wondering who you've become? Doug has. More than once. He's walked through crushed dreams, heartbreak, and the silence that makes you question everything. When life falls apart and God is all that's left—is He enough? Will He show up? And what if... He does? If you’re struggling like Doug or I, it’s time ...

Aimless. Wandering. Angry at God, beaten down by life. Have you ever wondered if there was more, if there was a point, and if your life had meaning? A.K. found out that sometimes you need to tune out the noise to truly hear and see what's important. But, that's easier said than done, of course. Especially for police officers with quite a different view behind the scenes of life. Though, it can be done. Sometimes it just takes some extra help from places, people...

Why is this happening? Does God truly work all things for good? All things? Even death, destruction, pain, and addiction? What about murder? Ward found himself working as a police officer in the heart of the L.A. riots, witnessing horrors he never thought he'd see, including the loss of his closest friend and partner. To numb the pain, he turned to a nightly ritual of a giant glass of rum, just enough to escape—until it was time to face the world again the next day. Where was God in all of th...

How badly have you screwed up? Your life? Your relationships? Maybe even your faith? Have you done enough to make up for your past, the people you hurt? What does change, redemption, and transformation look like? Having spent much of his life in an undercover law enforcement role, Paul lost touch with his true self, impacting his life, relationships, and faith. His life takes a turn when he experiences a powerful moment where the literal voice of God reaches him, conf...

Do you struggle with anxiety, alcohol addiction, or marriage issues? Spirituality? How about pride? What is "Marine marriage"? Have you ever felt invincible? What's it like behind the scenes as a Marine? How does it feel to be responsible for protecting the President? What happens when you're so full of pride because of who you think you are and what you do, that nothing can stand in your way? Not even God... Then, it all comes crashing down. The accumulation of work and life causes suc...

Why are you here? What's your purpose? Is Spiritual life just a waste of time? Have you ever wondered what really happens behind the scenes of Christian life, a pastor's life, or church culture? We often see the “perfect” pastor on Sundays, but what about the struggles of addiction, mental health, and grief they face? What is moral injury and why does it affect us the way it does? In this episode, I sit down with Pastor and Chaplain Jared Altic for an open, honest conversati...

Have you been there? The struggle feels never-ending, and the hits just keep coming. Spiritual life seems so far away. You're addicted to control, because things will only spiral worse if you let it go. You have to fix it all yourself, even if you're a Christian. Jake thought he could fix everything—his marriage, his parenting issues, his health. He believed he had the power to make it all work. But even as Jesus was trying to lead him elsewhere, Jake wouldn’t let go. He was addicted. ...

Have you ever felt empty, like you had nothing left? Can spirituality make a difference? Jason was searching for something, but he didn’t know what it was. He thought he could escape his past, but he was addicted to who he used to be. As a firefighter with a good job, he seemed to have everything—except something was missing. He felt so empty. In his grief, he visited a Christian church, hoping to find what he was missing. But instead, he was turned away at the door. He was told he didn...

Have you ever felt like it couldn’t get worse, and then it does—even in a Christian marriage? Even with a spiritual life? Anthony and his wife thought their relationship couldn’t get much worse, and their personal lives weren’t any better. He found himself questioning, "Will it get better? Is there a way to save this? To save us?" Alcohol addiction became his escape. "What is marriage supposed to look like?" he wondered. Where is God in all of this? Christian marriage is already h...

Have you ever felt like Christian faith, spiritual life, or even the church, was a waste of time? Steve felt that way and walked away from faith long ago. He told his wife, "God, Jesus, religion—that’s your thing. I want nothing to do with it." Even after witnessing her miraculous healing, he remained skeptical. But then, something changed. Like a Christmas morning revelation, everything shifted, and Steve and his family would never be the same. If you’ve ever been where Steve or I have been,...

Am I loved? Who am I? Am I worthy? Do I even matter? Morgan believed Jesus called her to be a Firefighter, but it turned out to be the hardest experience of her life. As the darkness, pain, and questions piled up—both on the job and from her own co-workers—she felt like ending it all was the only way out. She grieved what she thought the job would be. It hadn't turned out that way at all. Is the spiritual and supernatural real? Does Jesus truly hear me in my pain and strugg...

Have you struggled with trusting God, wondering if He’s really leading you or if you can hear His voice? Am I doing things the right way? His way? Scott, a police officer and First Responder, found himself addicted to work. When his wife considered leaving, he realized choices had to be made—the right ones. Letting go of control, especially to an invisible God, was difficult. Scott had to choose, and everything rested in the balance. If you’ve ever been where Scott or I have been, it’s time t...

Are your addictions and grief taking over your life? Do you still have doubts and struggles about Jesus, Christian life, church, spirituality, theology, and faith? Is Jesus really leading you? Can He heal your addiction or even offer a new understanding — one that makes sense? Why are people on the podcast sharing their pain and being honest about their behind-the-scenes struggles with faith? Does it really make a difference, and can it help? Can you truly connect with Jesus? Will He ch...

Have you ever wondered if life is worth living? Are you searching for a reason to be here? Does any of this matter? Can Jesus, the spiritual life, truly heal me? For Scott, life as a firefighter and First Responder came with unique challenges—using meth to stay awake, nightmares, addictions, grief, and visions of death. The rage and anger he couldn’t control scared his loved ones, leaving him isolated and consumed by fear, depression, and darkness. Suicidal thoughts followed, and even an atte...

Have you ever questioned whether you should stay in your relationship? Does it feel like your marriage has nothing left? Can the spiritual life fix this? Did God care? Was Jesus truly leading it? Were you meant to be with that person? Have you just become roommates, living in the same house? For Kerry-Ann, it came to a point where she had to say goodbye to the man who's addictions and grief had caused so much pain—only to see him taken too soon, but in God's perfect timing. His ti...

Have you ever questioned the purpose of Christian life, the worth of faith, or if you could find healing for your addictions and grief through the spiritual? After two tours in Iraq, and facing the challenges of being a new husband and father, addiction and deep pain left Ryan with more questions than answers. With so much death, he wondered where Jesus was, why God allowed this suffering, and if Jesus could truly heal his pain and change his life. If you’ve ever been where Ryan or I have bee...

Have you ever questioned the purpose of Christian life, the worth of faith, or if you could find healing for your addictions and grief through the spiritual? After two tours in Iraq, and facing the challenges of being a new husband and father, addiction and deep pain left Ryan Bosler with more questions than answers. With so much death, he wondered where Jesus was, why God allowed this suffering, and if Jesus could truly heal his pain and change his life. If you’ve ever been where Ryan or I h...

Have you ever questioned if God is truly there? Wondered if Jesus even cares? Maybe you’ve thought that Christianity is just a story invented by the church. Is Jesus real? Is He even listening? Is the spiritual life even available to me? Addiction, grief, suicidal thoughts, childhood abuse, trauma, anger, a broken family—Adam Davis has faced it all. As a First Responder and police officer, those mental health struggles were only magnified by the weight of his job. Then, one night, sitti...