It took me 2 years and dozens of calls from all around the world with friends and family to make this happen. Oh, and my wife nagging me to get off my ass and release it already!

So this is a 4-part series. In this first episode, I take you back to my childhood in Amman, Jordan where I was a tomboy (much to my mother's dismay), my teenage years where society's expectations of womanhood confused the hell out of me, how I got dragged to a plastic surgery appointment at 16 to "fix" my boobs, and how when I moved to Lebanon, I realised I'd much rather be with women than men.

Think of it as a collective memoir - highlights of my life told through the eyes of those who know me best.

And a Trigger Warning: This episode contains themes of sexual harrasment and homophobia.

Thank you to all who have recorded this episode with me: My mum, my brothers Zeid and Costy, Lina, Fash, Sushi, Ramz, Lara, Sara, and to my beautiful wife Kristina who helped me produce this. 

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