info@endabuse.com 1Timothy 6:10 Psalm 118:8 1 Samuel 16:7 1 John 3:5  John 6:1-15 Deuteronomy 4:29 Malachi 3:6 2 Corinthians 5:7 Hebrews 13:8 John 14:27 Psalm 91:2 Psalm 55:22   Just really felt burdened by the Lord that I wasn't sure what he was telling me, if he was telling me, or what he was going to do when I got to this place.  So, we decided to just see what the Lord has to say through me, in regards to what I see going on in the world that has been highlighted here in the last several days. What is sticking out to me like a sore thumb,  is it seems to me the evidence why I have trust issues. I don't think anybody on here who has seen any of my previous episodes would ever wonder why I have trust issues or blame me for having trust issues. I think that is just common sense. What I see unfolding before my eyes, is I'm clearly not alone. But it's not just one in three people or one in six people seem to be the statistics for those of us who have experienced childhood sexual abuse, but it literally seems to me that nobody on this planet trusts anybody else on this planet, and let me tell you what I'm talking about. There is so much going on, even here in Texas. We have a governor who will issue an executive order, and then we have judges who just decide they don't like that order, and they will just decide to do whatever they want to, regardless of what their authority tells them they can or cannot do. And so what it does is it puts people like the school boards, and other people directly affected by those orders in the crosshairs.  It just seems like every time there is an issue for anything that is then put into an order or goes to court, you have this judge that rules this way and then they take it to the court above them, and then that Judge overrules this judge.  Is just a struggle for power and the struggle for control. So, I totally understand that because, for me, I, do not like giving up control, I just don't.   I had things taken away from me at a young age, and I blindly followed a person who I should have been able to trust, and it did not end well for me.  That person was my authority. Therefore, I do not just trust easily. In fact, I usually don't trust at all.  I think some people start with okay if I meet somebody, I'm going to trust them until they give me a reason not to trust. It's the opposite with me, I don't trust you until you prove yourself trustworthy.    So it's just from different perspectives.