‘To The Heart Of It’ Podcast is the therapy you never knew you needed.
Ben sits down with guests and deep dives into questions that uncover the raw truths that lie beneath the surface...
Prepare to hear raw, real, candid, authentic stories, as you’re taken truly to the heart of questions and topics that really matter.
If raw, genuine vulnerability unsettles you, proceed with caution. These conversations may be challenging to listen to.
‘To The Heart Of It’ Podcast is the therapy you never knew you needed.
Ben sits down with guests and deep dives into questions that uncover the raw truths that lie beneath the surface...
Prepare to hear raw, real, candid, authentic stories, as you’re taken truly to the heart of questions and topics that really matter.
If raw, genuine vulnerability unsettles you, proceed with caution. These conversations may be challenging to listen to.

n this BRAND NEW Episode of 'To The Heart of It' - we have Geordie Shore star...Holly Hagan.Millions of people have followed Holly's journey, both in and out of Geordie Shore. But now she goes deep and detailed into life before, during and after the show. The REAL TRUTH about how the show affected her and what ACTUALLY went on Behind The Scenes!Now, as a married woman with a son; Holly also talks about her future goals and the challenges that come with this new character arc she pursues.Instagram: @totheheartofitpodcast TikTok: @totheheartofitpodcast LIKE. FOLLOW. SUBSCRIBE.------Chapters:0:00 - Trailer1:31 - Therapy & Emotional Regulation8:19 - Finding Self Confidence11:47 - Biggest Trauma16:21 - Dad Leaving20:23 - Early Years22:07 - Geordie Shore Beginnings27:37 - Rise of OnlyFans29:31 - School Life & Bullying35:25 - Dealing with Hate37:38 - What is Your Lack? Learning Business40:01 - Overcoming 'Old' Holly43:38 - How is This Shame Serving You?46:47 - Boundaries48:12 - Holly's Relationship Theory51:00 - Hyper-Sexuality Celebrated52:35 - PodFirst Sponsor53:30 - Gaz & Charlotte55:58 - Relationships in Geordie Shore58:52 - Trauma Rewatch1:00:06 - Fame & Club Appearances1:06:54 - Surgery Regrets1:18:20 - Changing Perception into Fitness1:25:41 - 'Proving' to People Online1:31:14 - Who Are You? 1:35:45 - Belief Systems & Building Community1:39:11 - Holly's 3rd Life 1:43:59 - Family1:49:27 - ADHD Diagnosis1:50:45 - Phantom Crying1:51:48 - Miscarriage1:56:24 - Anxiety1:59:55 - What's Next for Holly?2:01:55 - New & Improved Coaching2:05:08 - CNS Symptoms2:06:55 - Body Image as a Parent2:09:29 - Last Day on Earth