Grief isn’t just about losing someone — it’s about loving deeply and learning to let go. In this episode, Patrick explores grief as a sacred tool for healing, embodiment, and emotional release. You’ll learn how to feel what hurts without being consumed by it, and how mourning can become a doorway to peace, gratitude, and growth.

In this episode, I open up about my current process—working with dissociation, shutdown, and the fog that’s been with me since childhood. Instead of fighting it, I'm learning to let it run, to witness it with compassion, and to listen to what it’s protecting. Through somatic practice and inner-child work, I've discover how my shutdown can become grounding, how anger can return as life force, and how acceptance brings clarity and peace.   Key Topics in This Episode:[0:30] Observing my dissociation rather than resisting it[3:10] Recognizing that the fog is shielding long-held feelings of unworthiness[6:00] Understanding that my shutdown state can serve as a grounding presence[8:40] Engaging my anger and providing my inner child a space to express itself

I'm opening up about how childhood loneliness shaped my adult life and the patterns it creates—hiding in isolation, fearing connection, collapsing in conflict, and carrying shame that fuels addiction. I share what it feels like in my body, how it shows up in relationships, and how somatic work helps me meet it instead of run from it. Through sessions with my healers, I face the “void” inside, let long-buried emotions move, and reconnect with a sense of innocence and enoughness. This is my journey of transforming loneliness from a burden into a teacher, and discovering that true healing comes through connection, authenticity, and intimacy.   Key Topics in this Episode: [0:45] Childhood loneliness and building an inner world [3:15] Patterns of isolation, fear of connection, and conflict avoidance [11:20] Somatic healing sessions to face the “void” and finding my meadow [17:30] Releasing the weight of shame and rediscovering innocence   Connect with me on Instagram @patrickmagrann

In this episode, I'm discussing archetypes—what they are, how to work with them, and why they’re powerful tools for growth. I share how I embody archetypes like the King, Warrior, Magician, and Lover in daily life and I discuss integrating shadow aspects, embodying both masculine and feminine energies, and using these practices to deepen self-awareness, heal, and step into my higher self. Key Topics in This Episode:[0:41] What Are Archetypes?[3:50] Understanding and Embracing Your Archetypes[5:30] Connecting with Archetypes in Daily Life[8:30] Discovering the Energies That Serve You Best   Connect with me on Instagram @patrickmagrann

I'm opening up about my evolving spiritual beliefs. I'll reflect on how my connection to God began in childhood, dimmed through confusion and dissociation, and reawakened through my journey work. We'll explore the divine as presence, as a tree, and as a shared consciousness that lives within all of us and how the universe mirrors our inner world, how abundance is a reflection of divine love, and how concepts like reincarnation and soul missions play into my path.  Key topics in this episode: [0:40] Childhood connection to the divine and growing up Catholic [2:11] Years of spiritual disconnection and numbing [3:53] Belief in God as a unified consciousness (and a tree) [7:07] Holographic reality and the reflection of consciousness [9:24] Abundance as an extension of divine love [12:25] Personal soul missions and living by faith   Connect with me on Instagram @patrickmagrann

I share where I’m currently at in my healing journey—moving beyond the unraveling of old patterns and stepping into conscious ownership of the man I’m becoming. I talk about what ownership feels like in my body, how I’m integrating it through somatic and solo tantra practices, and how I’m learning to stay grounded in trust, even during chaos. I open up about my connection with my higher self, and how I’m embodying this fifth-dimensional awareness in my daily life.   Key Topics in this episode:[1:10] Cultivating ownership as a daily, embodied practice[2:40] Using somatics and tantra to process fear, disappointment, and power[7:32] Exploring my higher self and fifth-dimensional embodiment[13:45] Staying grounded and supportive in partnership through emotional leadership   Connect with me on Instagram @patrickmagrann

I share how Tantra has become a core healing practice for me and Stevie. I break down a simple but powerful partner exercise we use to express and witness raw emotion. This practice helped me unlock repressed anger, set healthy boundaries, and connect more deeply to my purpose. I also talk about how we use it in our relationship and how I’ve adapted it as a solo tool to process intense emotions like grief, fear, and disappointment. Ultimately, this work has helped me live more authentically—and even this podcast feels like part of that practice.   Key Topics in This Episode: [0:30] Introduction to Tantra and the Practice That Changed Everything [3:21] How Tantra Transformed My Emotional Expression [5:30] Reclaiming My Anger Through the Feminine Pole [11:25] Facing Disappointment: The Deepest Healing Tantra Gave Me   Connect with me on Instagram @patrickmagrann

I'm sharing my journey through ego death—how psychedelics helped me confront fear, release control, and open a deep connection to spirit. It's my story of surrender, trust, and discovering my most authentic self. Key Topics in This Episode: [0:30] Defining the Ego: Identity, mind, and protection [4:13] The Path to Ego Death: My turning point [6:26] Trusting Yourself Beyond the Ego [8:50] My First Ego Death: Chaos, fear, and surrender   Connect with me on Instagram @patrickmagrann

I begin my healing journey using the chakra system to guide deep transformation. I confront my shame, heal addiction, reconnect with my body, reignite passion, and reclaim my voice. As I move through each chakra, I learn to live with authenticity, courage, and trust in the universe.   Key Topics in This Episode: [1:20] Healing the Root Chakra: Safety, grounding, stability, basic needs. [7:47] Healing the Sacral Chakra: Emotions, pleasure, creativity, sensuality. [10:34] Healing the Solar Plexus Chakra: Confidence, willpower, self-esteem. [16:30] Healing the Heart Chakra: Love, compassion, forgiveness, connection. [17:30] Healing the Throat Chakra: Expression, truth, communication, honesty. [20:13] Healing the Third Eye Chakra: Intuition, clarity, insight, vision. [24:45] Healing the Crown Chakra: Spirituality, awareness, unity, enlightenment.

Welcome to the first episode of the podcast—a space for deep conversations around healing, growth, and transformation. This show explores powerful modalities like somatic work, men’s work, psychedelics, and more. Through candid storytelling and honest reflections, I’ll be sharing my own journey as a living case study of change—unpacking both the painful and empowering steps along the way. My hope is that by being seen in my path, others may feel inspired in theirs.   Key Topics in This Episode: [1:29] My Origin Story [7:13] Clinical Diagnosis and Addictions [9:32] The Beginning of My Healing Journey [16:53] Connecting with the Divine [19:13] Introduction to Somatics [22:45] Exploring the Inner Child   Connect with me on Instagram @patrickmagrann