Why do good things feel so terrifying sometimes? Why does joy make us hold our breath instead of exhaling? In this episode, we’re talking about the quiet, sneaky ways we brace for the end before the ending ever comes. Let’s talk about how betrayal, scarcity, control, and anticipatory grief all trace back to fear and lack of trust, and how pre-grieving doesn’t actually protect us. Using the famous “regrets of the dying” as guideposts, we’ll look at what people wish they’d done more of (being present, taking chances, trusting love) and how you can start doing those things now while you’re still very much alive. I share a personal story about love, trust, and waiting for the other shoe to drop, plus practical, weird, Merriment-Making ways to start living the “middle” instead of fearing the end. This episode is a soft rebellion against living half-alive. For more absurd ways to feel more alive, join us in Everything Sucks, Now What? Positive Pulse - Uncustomary.org/PP Everything Sucks, Now What? - Uncustomary.org/EverythingSucks