Most people think recovery is about getting your life back. For me, it felt like a breakup — a funeral for the person who kept me alive when nothing else could.

After 19 months clean, I’m learning that sobriety isn’t just about staying away from drugs — it’s about mourning the version of yourself that didn’t make it. The one who hustled, charmed, survived. The one who wore the armor that kept you invisible — and safe.

In this brutally honest solo episode of The Loudness McEvil Symposium, Jason unpacks the grief, identity loss, and quiet loneliness that come after getting clean. Because nobody throws you a funeral for the person you used to be.

Keywords: addiction recovery, recovery grief, homelessness, opioid addiction, identity after addiction, addiction storytelling, mental health recovery, healing from trauma, addiction truth podcast, recovery journey, rebuilding after addiction