I've hated my body for the longest time because it is what he used Why did my dad take what was mine? Leaving me sore and confused   I thought my body had let me down  I blamed it for my pain  The way I looked filled me with disgust  I couldn’t bear the shame!   Sex and sexuality brought out in me such fear even if I liked someone I couldn’t let them near   Weight was always an issue I think it’s’ because he was fat  I later used food to comfort myself  and ended up looking like that    For me, this was unforgiveable  I felt I looked ugly like him  I couldn’t control my eating  I didn’t know where to begin    I didn’t always succeed  but I got better every day  The more I learned to love myself  the weight just fell away    Then one day I decided  I’ll have no more of this  I tried bringing in love from heaven above  determined to find my bliss!    I can never take for granted  that my work is ever done  But I see the path before me now  and I'm determined to have some fun.