There are many things acquired, and lost, during childhood. Memories get swapped, high cortisol takes over, and we begin to start a story of our understanding of ourselves based on how we were treated. The illusion of separation, that is part of our human experience, only perpetuates this story, and can lead us to believe that we are truly alone on this rock, left behind from….well, from what?
We may not exactly know what it is we crave when we look at the stars, stare longingly at the water, bask in the fullness of the Sun, and spend our loneliness in nature. All we know is that something gets rejuvinated within these power spots that make us feel at home, or atleast relieves the loneliness that we feel, even if it’s just a layer.
This episode is designed to be viewed as a permission slip to remember. The real truth is, that we are not separate. The Divinity of the Sun reflects the Divinity within us. The beauty of the water mirrors what we have inside. The grandness of the stars matches the long journey of life we have agreed to, and the fullness of the Universe teaches us its okay to be Whole. These truths are relevant information that gives us permission to be Free, and it is by observing the seen, and exploring these “hidden” realms that we begin to discover and understand the Divinity within us all.
Because the truth is, we were not left here alone, we have examples of Divinity and Creation to help us uncover the truth of ourselves as the Divine Child.
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Right now the theme is: The New. New systems, new ways of being, new connections and ways to connect with each other. The macro 'new', as we know, depends on micro factors of change, and so changes and transitions into one's True Self is needed now more than ever if we're going to make systemic change.
This episode is meant to be a soothing agent to the Self that seeks true knowledge, and wants to know exactly who they are, outside of the system, the old community, old relationship patterns and templates that may not have space for the new truth of who we are.
In this episode, Nicoleheals speaks and sheds truth on the current climate right now, and asks listeners to take a look into themselves to receive the truth. She highlights, most of all, that in order to do that, the transition into Self needs a truthful basis: that when we change, we are not doing it for anybody else's validation, and we are not changing into someone else. We are simply transitioning into Self.
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In this episode NicoleHeals talks about the infamous, Ms. Change (dun dun dunnnn), and why we may be scared of her due to our past. As children we were subject to the change of our care-takers that might not have truly *seen* us, and thus couldn't and wouldn't implement changes for our individual benefit.
The change we may have had to succumb to was unfamiliar, scary, and uncomfortable to our true Being, making us fear the process and mechanism of change in the present.
These changes on behalf of someone else's accord solidified our survival identity that we had to change into to suit our environment. The difference is now, Life may need you in a different way than you've been used to, and may implement certain changes to make you grow - into You.
You may be holding Life within you that needs a particular vessel to be birthed through, and the question is, will you trust Life and the process of change now that you know its for You?
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In today's episode we dive deeper into the realms of Compassion. Just like with any concept, idea, or way of thinking and identifying, there is a need to define it in a way that resonates within. In this episode, we surface the feeling of Compassion to unEarth a necessary inner-understanding, and then play around with it as a container that holds other energies, ideas, and definitions that can help us sharply recognize our own individual stance within it all.
By seeing, feeling, and understanding what Compassion naturally facilitates, we can surface it within, while simultaneously allowing it in our lives to grow, build, and sow necessary seeds for inner-alignments and ascensions.
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In the last episode of this series of getting into the nitty gritty of Self Respect, we talked about how the 'stronger' energies were there to help the body - in it's system of checks and balances - usher in and be able to *have* the softer, more vulnerable energies. In this episode, we're coming to see how it's clearly flipped.
These softer energies, compassion, vulnerability, humility, and grace (etc.) are actually here to bring in the stronger energies, well, because they garner their own strength. They provide the necessary balance needed in order smoothly coast in the stronger energies we need in order to be Self, like Self Respect.
In this episode, NicoleHeals talks about inner power, and the real, actual, and factual reasons as to why we may stray away from it, as it pertains to a disempowering past. By using compassion and remembering to give all of the selves that reside within copious amounts of grace, understanding and love, we can learn how to integrate our inner power and the energy of Self Respect, in a way that speaks individually to who we are.
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So, we're gonna start talking more about energy and tuning into it intentionally in upcoming pod episodes, but I wanted to bring it up here, in terms of intuitive activism.
We see what's going on in the world right now with Palestine and Gaza and some of us may just feel kind of stuck. Stuck in overwhelm, stuck in shock, stuck in "I have my own problems and I'm truly not sure what to do, or what I can do" "How can I possibly help with a shotty nervous system?" "How can I possibly contribute when I'm burntout?"
Main point: everyone has their function within systems of change, and its important to recognize that rather than putting oneself in harms way for the sake of showing off for others.
If you're especially sensitive to energy, like me, you may naturally tune out of social media, and the rest of the world, and go inward to make sure the homefront that is you, stays safe and grounded whenever the collective energy goes a bit haywire, as it does whenever disaster happens.
And what if that is for very good reason? What if that is actually intentional? In this bonus episode I speak about the function of intuitive activism in terms of staying within reality as a sensitive person.
Being in reality about who you are, and intuitively checking in to really know what you have to offer in this real, present time, while staying in reality of what is going on in the world is the perfect way to "do" something.
Some of us may have gotten the intuitive guidance to stay off social media, while going within and really devoting to our spiritual practice in a new, intentional way. Some of us are meditating more, grounded better, healing old wounds with new experiences, and clearing out old spaces that held negative energy in order to cultivate new. Know that this is not coincidence and all for good reason, because whatever you have been healing and cultivating in your own life creates ripples for greater change.
Thank you for doing the work, don't be afraid to check in and act in your own medicine.
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If we look at the body as a system of checks and balances, where one muscle needs the support of another, or a nerve, or even a bone to properly function, we can start to see the authentic mechanics of the body, where it organically has its own physical blueprint to function in harmony.
Using this type of template, we can go deeper with it and see the energetic system of checks and balances that the body has to offer, and how one energy can mix with another and create a certain reaction that manifests within the body. This is exactly what NicoleHeals talks about today in this episode.
Moving on from the last episode *with* our joy, NicoleHeals speaks about the theme of Self Respect, and how, within this system of checks and balances, this energy is there to both support joy coursing through the body freely, but also to protect it so that it stays *ours* and is not easily taken by someone else - like many of us have experienced in our past.
As a fun, special treat there is a meditation at the beginning that will help all listeners tap into their inner supports in order to receive the medicine of the episode at levels that are healthy for the individual. So grab ya water, ya wine, tea and other emotional support drinks, and enjoy!
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If you know anything about Lion's Gate, you know what it entails, gifts, gifts, gifts. Many of us receive powerful dreams, cognitions, and visions during this time that provides powerful movement on our paths. This collective message is here to provide possible insight to what may be going on underneath the surface, and guidance on how to handle these activations and move forward.
Everyone get's their gifts at the exact right time, because there is no competition. As individuals, it's time to drop the shameful narrative that comes in when we see others thriving, and simply take that as awareness that magic is in the air, and its coming for us, too, in our own way.
Enjoy, and as always, happy healing <3
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This collective message comes to you through great courage, sacrifice, transformation, and rebirth. Shame has always been such a big theme in my life. Its been that helping hand, always there for me, to wipe my tears while ironically creating more. It has been the source of my self esteem, self-doing and undoing, and it has left me undoubtedly tired.
When I decided I was fed up, God led me to a threshold and told me shame could not enter. I had to pick, me, or the shame, and I courageously chose me. In the very face of immense, and intense fear that created this deep wound in the first place. I was brave, and I want you to know you can be, too. I hope this message finds you well, and penetrates through the deep layers of you to get you on the other side of shame. I hope it brings you to joy! Enjoy 💖
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In this episode NicoleHeals expands on the idea of individuality and space, and uncovers additional layers to family enmeshment, including an interesting historical lens. Many families rely on enmeshment for emotional safety, which help to contribute to the formation of family roles. These roles do their job of keeping everyone in line, and both mentally and emotionally allows children to stay aligned with their parents. Yet in exploring the true functioning of family roles, NicoleHeals uncovers the adverse affects to an individuals sense of identity, as well as the deeper underbelly behind their enforcement.
Additionally, NicoleHeals uses a historical lens to further explain the function of enmeshment and family roles for people of color, using Black American history as an example, to show how communities of color have utilized enmeshment for physical safety and genuine survival while being displaced, as well as undergoing and fleeing genocide.
In this understanding, it is felt that we can all gain perspective to our individual and collective family struggles, while also understanding the options we have to today, and removing the guilt in utilizing them. Enjoy, and as always, happy healing!
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In this episode NicoleHeals explores and expands on individual space, and the true weight of the subconscious and how it correlates with our belief of how much space we have, vs. how much space is actually there. These beliefs come from somewhere, and while we are not the people that initially hurt us, it is our responsibility to heal, and we do that by exploring these beliefs and their true origin.
In the last episode it was said, “The space we were born with was vast. It was vast”, and it could not be any more true. We were born with such vast and open space to be ourselves, to have ourselves and to simply be. To get our needs met and have room for preferences! As we grow, that room becomes more and more narrow, to the point of lack. While that believed lack of space shows up in the home, it is also perpetuated by society, and so, this episode explores the age old question, "Which came first, the chicken or the egg?"
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As I prepare for the next episode in this series on the topic of space - to be our individual, authentic selves - I felt called to share my new developments in my own healing journey, and that is the dissecting of accountability. If you're like me, you have a certain view of accountability and what it looks and feels like. A shame-based accountability that requires you to always fall on your sword, be sad, remorseful, and incredibly genuine in your distaste for your own behavior for the performance for other people, mainly our parents. Many of us were forced into a prison of shame that demonized one-time mistakes, and instead of getting help, we just got more punishment.
In this episode we talk about what this looks like in present time, and how celebrating oneself for all of our "small" wins, can help us break the accountability prison pattern mindset. Enjoy, and as always, happy healing! 💕
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In this episode NicoleHeals gets real about the true cost of space, and how the relief of letting go is often paired with the fear of what has been hiding underneath. There are many highs and lows of the healing journey, and the act of realizing you have space to be your individual self is no exception. NicoleHeals is here to reassure you and your inner child that, just because there's a period of feeling low, of negative, protective thoughts, beliefs, and patterns of the past surfacing after this high, confident realization, does not mean you've done anything wrong. When we adopt new beliefs that clash with who we *had* to be, our Selves way of solving that dissonance is by making present, conscious you aware of what is underneath, in order for you to make the necessary decisions to create balance and equilibrium.
So, don't worry, you're not doing anything wrong, this is the Self's way of achieving balance, and you are just along for the ride.
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In this episode NicoleHeals talks about the significance of SPACE in all parts of the healing journey, especially when moving out of survival mode. When we are in survival our identity shifts to an external source that we rigidly follow to keep us in love, acceptance, and connection with our parents, family, friends, peers, and the world. We cling to this survival identity as a way to stay safe, not noticing that we are abandoning our true selves at the same time. Over the years, the weight of being two people exhausts us and we break, then spend time trying to piece ourselves, our real selves, back together which begins about our healing journey.
The concept of space, of allowing ourselves the time and expansive area to turn into whoever we do, helps us to go within and use ourselves as a natural source to gain back who we actually are, however we do, however it happens. This space that we provide for us to cry over spilled milk, laugh at the silliest things, burp our loudest, and sing-scream out our rage allows us to return to the full range of what it means to be human, and come to an unconditional acceptance and love of the individual human that we naturally are. Enjoy, and as always, Happy Healing 💕
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In this episode, NicoleHeals talks about the value of space and time within the process of any transformation, especially the journey of transformation into a deeper sense of sense, or *identity crisis*. In giving ourselves the space to change, not into a "safe" version we have concocted in our heads that aligns with our comfort zone, but truly change into who ever and whatever we are meant to be, we allow our current selves a chance to evolve and expand within *their* own right and timing, however it happens. We give ourselves the proper time to change, process what is happening, and *be* ourselves, without someone else holding the clock, and in honoring our *own* needs in this way, we accommodate for the person we are today, right now, in this moment. We appreciate this person and slow down from the striving, the racing to a non-existent finish line, and the subconscious urge to prove people wrong, and not only let ourselves *be*, but let ourselves *heal*. Happy Healing 💕
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In this episode, NicoleHeals talks about the value of space and time within the process of any transformation, especially the journey of transformation into a deeper sense of sense, or *identity crisis*. In giving ourselves the space to change, not into a "safe" version we have concocted in our heads that aligns with our comfort zone, but truly change into who ever and whatever we are meant to be, we allow our current selves a chance to evolve and expand within *their* own right and timing, however it happens. We give ourselves the proper time to change, process what is happening, and *be* ourselves, without someone else holding the clock, and in honoring our *own* needs in this way, we accommodate for the person we are today, right now, in this moment. We appreciate this person and slow down from the striving, the racing to a non-existent finish line, and the subconscious urge to prove people wrong, and not only let ourselves *be*, but let ourselves *heal*.
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At some point in our early lives we lose ownership of our shine ✨. It is not only taken away from us, but we feel that it is our duty and responsibility to give it up in exchange for connection, for approval, for friendship, and for *survival*. There is a point in childhood where we are made to choose between our shine and surviving, and in choosing the latter we exchange our shine for the responsibility of other people's feelings and emotions, thoughts, opinions, and overall life experience.
We feel that our behavior, our being, and the way we identify has a direct connection to other individuals, but also the collective as a whole, and in this episode NicoleHeals is here to tell you alllll of the ways that is just not true. Tune in to find out how the only experience we have a responsibility to is our own, and how, in knowing this, we can open up the path and start along the journey back to *our* shine! ✨☀️🌟
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Healing is one of those things that we greatly crave, heavily thirst for, and plunge into even when we don't necessarily know ALLL that inhabits this space. All we know is that things need to change, or else, and we step into new territory with that focus and intention. It is within the space of this specific focus that identity crises come in.
Though we know in our heart of hearts that things need to change, we don't know exactly what that change entails and truly how deep this need goes, and so we will heal, like we intended, but also in ways we didn't really intend. We will have to let go of and give away parts of ourselves that we have thought were vital parts of our personalities, things that we have held dear for so long out of necessity and survival, an emotional and energetic state that we have operated out of for most of our lives.
These deep aspects of our pain have convinced us of being part of our nature than the reality that it is just part of our trauma. This is why it is a crisis, because this is change that shows us the reality of ourselves and the true story our lives that we haven't been able to read with the faulty glasses we've been given. This episode is an even further explanation as to why we heal and why identity crises exist and are a vital part of our healing. Enjoy and as always, happy healing 💕
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