In this episode, I open up about the emotional aftermath of my spiritual awakening. After diving headfirst into my new truth, I was met with silence, distance, and doubt from people I thought would stand by me. Friends pulled away. My relationship began to shift. I started dimming my light just to stay connected — and that realization cut deep. At the same time, I was navigating the raw reality of living with a colostomy. With my medical supplies delayed and my care team gone, I was left to manage it all on my own. I share the brutal moment when a leak turned into a medical scare, and the ER visit that followed — with my colon literally hanging out of my stomach. The chaos. The fear. The gut instinct that saved me when even the hospital didn’t have what I needed. This is a story of resilience, spiritual isolation, physical pain, and learning to trust myself — even when the world didn’t. If you’ve ever felt alone on your awakening journey… this one’s for you.