Well, I am big into John Eldredge and also reading the book Becoming King by Morgan Snyder.  I felt God calling me on an adventure to go backpacking through Zion.  It was the concepts of these books that led me to the thought, but it did not go as planned.  I was not ready for what happened or prepared.  It was an adventure that broke my mind, but in the process cleared my mind and renewed my strength in God and leading me to hear his voice and see his beauty and find purpose. All in this episode.